Post by Kirsten on Jun 5, 2008 15:34:02 GMT -8
Okay, take a deeeeep breath... good, good... now let it out slowly... ahhh, very good... now, take another one... mmm...
...I can't do this for much longer!
Kirsten thought sullenly, digging her nails into her hands as a way of relieving herself of the stress she'd been busy building up for the past fifteen minutes. She walked back over to the door and pulled on it. Locked. She had half a mind to kick it, but any sensible person knew that this would only have any effect in a predictable Hollywood movie. And if Kirsten was anything, it was sensible. Drifting back to her place by the ledge, she looked down.
Well, at least I've got a nice view... she thought to herself with fake excitement. She knew that's what her therapist would have recommended: trying to keep things light and make the best of her situation. She tried to do this for the next couple of minutes. She really did! But then she got to thinking about how bad it'd be if she fell... how her face might looked flattened against that cool field of grayness that was concrete...
Kirsten winced.
Have to... get off... get out... of here...!
She thought unsteadily, biting hard on her bottom lip until it bled. Tucking her hands into her armpits for warmth, she closed her eyes and prayed for sunlight. Just as she was lifting her face to the clouds, something wet landed on the tip of her nose. A moment later she heard a thunder clap, and it began to drizzle. Kirsten bit down on her lip even harder.
If she was the kind of person to release her anger by way of cursing, every bad word ever to exist in the English language would have left her mouth by now. But given that cussing was not an immediate part of Kirsten's nature, she was stuck with choosing one of two things: she could continue to do what she was doing now, biting down on her lip, digging her nails into her skin, stepping on her own feet--disfiguring herself, in English. Or, she could do that other thing. The one that she was reaally good at.
Panic.
Running back over to the door, Kirsten began to pound hard against the thick metal. Huge dollops of water rolled off her face and after a while she couldn't tell if they were from the sky or just teardrops, but it really didn't matter anymore. The only thing that mattered was getting back inside.
...I can't do this for much longer!
Kirsten thought sullenly, digging her nails into her hands as a way of relieving herself of the stress she'd been busy building up for the past fifteen minutes. She walked back over to the door and pulled on it. Locked. She had half a mind to kick it, but any sensible person knew that this would only have any effect in a predictable Hollywood movie. And if Kirsten was anything, it was sensible. Drifting back to her place by the ledge, she looked down.
Well, at least I've got a nice view... she thought to herself with fake excitement. She knew that's what her therapist would have recommended: trying to keep things light and make the best of her situation. She tried to do this for the next couple of minutes. She really did! But then she got to thinking about how bad it'd be if she fell... how her face might looked flattened against that cool field of grayness that was concrete...
Kirsten winced.
Have to... get off... get out... of here...!
She thought unsteadily, biting hard on her bottom lip until it bled. Tucking her hands into her armpits for warmth, she closed her eyes and prayed for sunlight. Just as she was lifting her face to the clouds, something wet landed on the tip of her nose. A moment later she heard a thunder clap, and it began to drizzle. Kirsten bit down on her lip even harder.
If she was the kind of person to release her anger by way of cursing, every bad word ever to exist in the English language would have left her mouth by now. But given that cussing was not an immediate part of Kirsten's nature, she was stuck with choosing one of two things: she could continue to do what she was doing now, biting down on her lip, digging her nails into her skin, stepping on her own feet--disfiguring herself, in English. Or, she could do that other thing. The one that she was reaally good at.
Panic.
Running back over to the door, Kirsten began to pound hard against the thick metal. Huge dollops of water rolled off her face and after a while she couldn't tell if they were from the sky or just teardrops, but it really didn't matter anymore. The only thing that mattered was getting back inside.