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Post by Gabriel Seran on Sept 29, 2009 22:37:44 GMT -8
Gabriel sat in his last class of the day thinking over what had happened the night before. He'd gotten little to no sleep as he contemplated everything that had occured. Everything said and everything that had gone so wrong. Alexis for one wouldn't return his calls nor was she around the usual places as if she were purposefully evading him. His fury grew into impatience and then once more into irritance. He needed to speak with her drastically over what had happened. Had things changed? He needed answers himself being lost in his own tizzy of emotional distresses.
*Ring*
The class signalled his escape. The hallways wer cluttered so Gabriel waited till they cleared taking a seperate route from the norm sticking to a new direction perhaps chance would be in his favor today.
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Post by Alexis Seran on Sept 29, 2009 23:00:37 GMT -8
Alexis deleted his number off her phone... she threw out the phone he had given her and she didn't know what to do with the car. All she could think about was the night he just so easily left her. It was probably not hard for him to do so... just as it wasn't hard for her father to look her in the eye after beating her bloody.. or it was just as easy as when Li packed up his bags and left...or simple as taking a few sleeping pills. Everyone just had their unique way of fucking her over.
Fucking David..Fucking Katsuri... Both wanted her to let people in... blah blah.. She did and she was hurt instantly after. Alexis was right to avoid any feelings for Gabriel, though she still got them and they were hard to douse.
Alexis didn't want to go to class today.. her eyes were red and puffy... and she didn't want the chance of bumping into him.
At least she could understand why he chose Reira over her...Yeah..Alexis locked herself in the hospital room just so they wouldn't take him off life support...Alexis knew everything about Gabriel as he did her..and Reira? Reira...had pretty hair and a nice set of tits.
Alexis walked around the school as everyone started disappearing. She was alone now... and the more she walked..the more she avoided class. She then found herself doing circles around the school...numb and lifeless. Gabriel was more to her than Li was... But he didn't see her that way... He was keeping himself occupied...thinking with the wrong head.
She found her self leaning against the wall and dropping her books. She felt weak...Her knees collapsed and her eyes stared at the floor that she was now sitting on.
It wasn't fair for Reira to show up out of no where..she had her life..she needed to take mine?
She started crying... again. Alexis hated everything about Gabriel...Hated how he left... Hates his gorgeous face...Hated the way he makes her feel...and most of all..Hated that she couldn't get her mind off of him and how she couldn't stop loving him.
She wiped her tears and saw someone walking down the halls. She couldn't tell who it was, until she wiped her teary eyes a little more and now her vision wasn't so blurry.
Fuck my life five times over...
She buried her head in between her knees..in hopes he didn't recognize her.
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Post by Gabriel Seran on Sept 29, 2009 23:12:55 GMT -8
Circle's pacing in his head like the circles she'd been walking about all day. However the two didn't connect as they'd been entrusted to by fate Gabriel had to tempt it. Fate had no power over him, his actions were that of his own free will. Justifying that this new path guided him straight and true to the source. A crying girl much like one he'd remembered in fated past.
gabriel strode over lengthly, very stealthily to her. She deserved his attention. No, she deserved far better than that. She deserved his love. But was it something he could give her?
Crouching before her, squatting forward on bent knees he leaned in to get a better perspective on her face. A hand reached out to clasp her chin gingerly tilting it up so he could get a look at her. Eyes puffy and red from past tears and present ones still escaping.
Gabriel moved his hand against her cheek to wipe away the tears in a smooth gesture.
"Don't cry ma Belle..." he would have flow out in his thick accent.
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Post by Alexis Seran on Sept 29, 2009 23:21:13 GMT -8
He came up to her.. she could tell do to the fact her eyes were on the ground and she saw his feet. Alexi felt him close... felt what it was like to touch him... to taste his lips.. but she set those aside... hate and anguish overwhelming everything about what happened to her.
He tilted her face up, and of course she didn't want him to see the condition she was in and so she tugged her face back and planted them in the palm of her hands.
"Don't cry ma Belle..."
"Easier said than done." she sniffled, then looked up at him with a glare that could kill. "Obviously you can do it..You can do everything...Lord Gabriel Seran..master of the fucking universe...You can use anyone..hurt anyone and not give a shit...You know why? You never changed you son of a bitch."
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Post by Gabriel Seran on Sept 29, 2009 23:30:00 GMT -8
To be a Lord was a title, a title he had since proven had no worth. It was merely words so the insult stung all that much deeper being something of negetive value. He looked down and away as a guilty party should. He didn't understand the implications however. They stressed his thoughts far too deeply.
"I am Lord of no one...I hurt because often it is necessary." Gabriel said in a somber voice not looking Alexis in the eyes.
He froze up to think about the past, how everything had been decided upon his own ambitions. How she was right about him. Gabriel Seran had never changed, he'd always been a cold decisive person regulating the ends to justify the means. But that was not what Alexis was, she was no means and Gabriel certainly didn't see an end.
"But I never meant to hurt you Lexi... You were always important to me and always will be."
Lest that end be here all of Fate was decided upon. For Alexis Green was loved in Gabriel's heart, a love that could never fade. While Reira and Olivia also occupied that space he made room for one more. And if she left he'd be broken hearted as well.
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Post by Alexis Seran on Sept 29, 2009 23:44:30 GMT -8
"But I never meant to hurt you Lexi... You were always important to me and always will be."
She clenched her teeth and stood up and walked away from him, leaning against the wall on he opposite end.
"You did Gabriel. You think I wanted to be your fucking friend? I didn't join your stupid gang or travel to Europe with you... do all your dirty work whilst my stay.... I didn't stay with you in the hospital crying while you slept..hoping you weren't dead...kissing you in front of that waitress to make her jealous..I didn't do ANY of that just so I can say 'hey pal, wanna come over and play video games?'"
Her eyes filled up again and her shoulders moved up and down from panting her breath. She started crying.. not just tears, but whimpers and noises came form her throat.
"I did it because I cared about you more as a friend... But I guess that was too good to be true. Reira.. she's hot and you have a dick.. so I can see why you had to choose her over me...and her over Olivia."
She wouldn't forget what Olivia told her the day she ran home from the pool. "So go on... go fuck the married girl.." Yeah..she knew she was married.. after all...Olivia was a part of the girl's wedding.
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Post by Gabriel Seran on Sept 30, 2009 0:01:50 GMT -8
Of the many reactions apparent. There was Anger, an explosive force that would have killed Alexis right there. There was sorrow, something that would weaken his resolve. And then there was pity. Gabriel felt sorry for her, Alexis his freind, one of the few loves in his life. Gabriel didn't say a word in fact he was stunned to realize that he was hoping for the same things she was at onepoint. And it was his own fault, as it was hers fo not acting upon it sooner. But hadn't they? In the dinner, the hospital, his mansion. There was multitudes of opportunities that he hadn't ran upon. Gabriel was in essence a coward.
He shook as well, fury building as he realized how much his loathing for himself was. He wanted to be beaten to be harmed more brutally than if he'd have injested toxins.
He walked a few steps to keep pace with her stoping inches away. "Please, if you can find it in your heart ot forgive me for what I've done... I'd give everything to have her back... I loved Olivia far more than you know... I'd give everythign to have her back."
Gabriel fell to his knees hands grasping at the floor in futility. Everything he was doing here was for her sake. The Black Knights, his torment, everything was for her.
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Post by Alexis Seran on Sept 30, 2009 0:12:23 GMT -8
"Forgive you? No. I've tried to forgive..I've tried to forget.. All my life I was the nice fucking girl that got walked all over... When I was a bitch..it still happened 'cause pieces of my old self would seep through. I'm nothing I'm learning to deal with that.. but I don't need more guys like you screwing with my life."
She took a few steps away from him. She couldn't stand being beside him. "You didn't love Olivia as much as she deserved. I don't want you to love her.. I want you to leave me alone and the memories of my sister."
Alexis turned walking away, still crying. "I hate knowing that someone like you was the only guy who showed her care... I hate it..."
She threw his keys at him, "Take your car and have a good life."
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