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Post by Gabriel Seran on Jan 6, 2010 15:39:01 GMT -8
Gabriel cocked a curious smile thinking over the possible implications of this night. Home, his home of all places. It'd only been a day and damn he was hungry for... "Rice."
A firm smile as he wrapped an arm around her beckoning the small girl close to his side breathing in the same air once again. The subtle warmth of it sent his body into action remembering how this felt the sudden arousal, the intrigue. Then heading home made things all that much easier on him, warm breath caught against the cool night air till of course Phillipe opened the door with sense of intrigue at seeing Lexi again.
"Ahh.."
Gabriel found his way to his seat indignant upon having to let go of her but figured what harm could it do if she was just headed to the kitchen but five feet away.
"Gabie...I can't reach the rice..."
A small smile set in place as he stood pacing over through the room using a wall for support as he made his way towards her. Staying close as he reached up for the rice his eyes focused first on the rice then shifting towards her with a curious glance before tilting his head forward. Was this him or simply the alcohol in him. Perhaps a bit of both but he was curious as to if Alexis was the same way, that same hunger.
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Post by Alexis Seran on Jan 6, 2010 16:32:34 GMT -8
He got up and just as she hoped, he was reaching for the rice. He looked down to her, her face looking up to him. They were close and her breath was trying too keep steady as he stood there. For awhile she would stare up at him, a calm expression on her face, but jaw clenched and shaky breath. She couldn't handle it anymore of course.
"...I missed you..." her voice was quiet...and held another meaning than what she outwardly said. Her hands reached up to his chest, only to stop before touching him; almost hesitantly. Finally she realized to just rest her hands on him anyway. She slid them up to his shoulders then back down to his chest once again, finally going back up and around his neck in a somewhat embrace. Yeah she was just feeling him up. Now her arms would be wrapped around his neck, she would try and pull him a little more closer to her.
Her head was tilted up, his lips close to hers now.
Logical Lexi: "NUUUUUU" Who gives a fuck Lexi: "YIIS! *fist pumps*" E Lexi:"You go, girl!"
"...A lot..." her voice sounded a little pained... but that was just because she wanted him really badly... Just because they broke up...doesn't mean she couldn't do this......right? She didn't go any further, scared he wouldn't want to do something like this...
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Post by Gabriel Seran on Jan 6, 2010 16:57:01 GMT -8
The touch serene in it's own right tingled his senses devilishly, of course he couldn't say no to this, his mind was saying yes, and his body was saying hell yes. Gabriel grinned breathing in her breath. Feeling the tight grip of his arms settle on her hips comfortably as they'd ever been. He leaned forward taking from her a stolen kiss. Something he'd been missing from, oh about twenty hours now. What a horrible lapse of time. He could understand what it meant the distance of time a broken heart could create, and how things felt so much better healed over. "As have I ma belle.."
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Post by Alexis Seran on Jan 6, 2010 17:29:58 GMT -8
He pulled her closely ad she felt his arms around her waist. Her legs tightened and her breath paused when his lips were now against hers. "As have I ma belle.."She smiled and pressed her lips to his once again. She deepened it, her tongue working its way to his. A little moan escaped her lips. She was just too excited for many many reason and it just boiled up inside her..so she just had to make a noise. Alexis thought it was a bad idea badbadbad! But she couldn't help it. What would come out of showing your love to the guy you care most about? Well.. a lot of you aren't going out with him 'cause you JUST broke up with him. Sending mixed messages? Yep, but not like she wasn't confused! "I can't be with you... It might make me crazy... but I have to do this to stay sane..." yeah... she just stated she just needed to sleep with him. Not because she was a ho... but because if she couldn't have relationship..she at least needed this to keep her steady and not drive her into the deep end. Some may find it slutty... But at least she wasn't necessarily sleeping around.... Her hand tightened at the nape of his neck, her breath heavy...waiting to see if he would turn her down from the last statement.
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Post by Gabriel Seran on Jan 7, 2010 16:01:51 GMT -8
Gabriel stared back pressing in close, his body contacting to a point of hurting, his mind running in circles wanting her more than anything but the distinct feeling of being used as nothing more than a quick fuck made him pause a second lingering on the edge of insanity.
"I don't think I can have just that to remain sane myself..." Gabriel paused his breath lingering cooling as he pulled away slowly.
Despite how much he needed this, how much her desired the touch of their kin meshing magnetically he couldn't follow through as though somehow a formal code of ethics had been installed with in him.
What the fuck was going on when the great Gabriel Seran could have sex indiscriminantly and leave, moving on with his life. He lingered inches away before turning has back forced to not face her for fear of getting sucked in.
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Post by Alexis Seran on Jan 9, 2010 12:38:13 GMT -8
"I don't think I can have just that to remain sane myself..."
saddening eyes watched as he pulled away slowly. He turned around and wouldn't look at her and all she could do was stare. She bit her lower lip, a little hurt he turned her down. It wasn't on the aspect of not getting sex... it was the aspect of someone she cared for rejecting her. It got her sad... and of course when Alexis was sad, on the outside she would always appear mad.
"Gabriel, you had more than this." her voice was cold now as well as bitter. ."..You're...You're never happy, Gabriel. Right when someone thinks you are finding happiness... you destroy it." she stared at his back, a lump burning in her throat. Clenching her teeth she waited for an answer though got impatient. "Look at me..." She got up and of the counter to walk up to him. She stood in front of him now. All you had to do was look her in the eyes to see she was broken. Though her voice and their contents can deceive anyone.
"Do you know why you destroy it? Happiness is too hard to control... and when you can't control it you run. How come you run, Gabe? Are you fucking scared to lose control?" she pressed her hands to his chest and pushing him to a wall. "You ran away from Olivia when she needed you... You ran from me... From Reira and even Kevala!" Alexis' breath quickened as she swallowed the lump in her throat. Her hands were shaking so she balled her fists and set them at her sides, trying to hide that fact. "You went and stuck your dick in every girl and when they started to show you they had a mind of their own.. you ran away 'cause you are a fucking pussy." she looked down, away from his eyes. She knew damn well a lot of this probably wasn't true. When she gets upset she says hurtful things that drive people away. Li was a great candidate for that. He probably left the country. All because she was overly depressed over her sister's death. "...and you're pathetic..."
Yep... she didn't mean anything!
"Wouldn't be surprised if Kev's children are yours as well."
Especially that.
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Post by Gabriel Seran on Jan 9, 2010 14:25:45 GMT -8
Gabriel's eyes were burdened towards the ground seeking it out like a magnet feeling far too ashamed to look at her. Fists balled at the fact she'd gotten most of it right. She knew that he was afraid, afraid to lose control of a world he knew too well. She'd gotten up to that point where he'd insulted those few women. A surge of anger rose up like a tidal wave willing to break its way over him fiery and painful as anything else as he willed to control it but the emotive jerk seized him, shaking his figure like a combustible bomb.
*slap*
Yes that was what Gabriel could not control, the pain and his release was slapping Alexis across the face harshly.
"I...I Never ran because of that...." His face red with both embarrassment and self loathing. "I loved them because of that,"
Gabriel was shaking now feeling the unbearable pain in his body tense, shake and wallow up to the point his vision was beginning to blur up from tears, blinking their brief existences away.
"I love you because of that, absolutely the most stubborn, pain in the ass, bitchy, most beautiful, intelligent, strange, and yet amazing woman I've ever met and I cannot absolve the fact that you have me under your spell and I cannot control that fact."
Gabriel panted feeling his chest rise and fall his fists still balled up with latent rage at everything that was happening, it all hurt and for some reason he liked it, even deserved this pain he'd become all too connected with.
"Lexi, I'm so afraid at the fact at being myself isn't enough for you. That somehow just being here can ever amount to what I've made myself out to be. every time I've ever been just myself I've hurt everyone around me to that point I've come to expect pain but not like this, not the pain of a missing heart, one that you've so elegantly captured and kept all to yourself without truly ever knowing."
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Post by Alexis Seran on Jan 10, 2010 18:00:22 GMT -8
She felt the slap against her face... and the pain was ten times worse due to be E induced. Her hand slipped to her cheek, holding it there as her eyes looked painfully to the ground. She listened to his words as if she were thirsty and they were liquid. It hurt to be slapped by him. She pushed him so far to do so.. That wasn't like him.
"You are good enough for me. Too good actually. Which made me scared." she didn't have to give a reason for why she was scared. He was attractive, charming, regal, and most of all...caring. Alexis was nothing like that and therefore she thought he would leave her just as easily. She thought Li was perfect for her, but even that disappeared. Alexis drove people away. She gets sad and she leaves them. She broke up with Li when she was raped, she broke up with him again when Olivia was gone... She broke up with Gabe when she thought she wouldn't be enough for him.
Her eyes remained to the floor, scared to look at his expression. She didn't want the image of him mad at her in her mind. It hurt a lot to have him mad at her... more so than him ignoring her.
Tears welled up in her eyes as she rubbed her cheek. "You are obviously too good for me if I can manage to make one of the nicest guys strike a woman. I'm sure that is what a monster does."
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Post by Gabriel Seran on Jan 11, 2010 14:16:57 GMT -8
Gabriel was beyond anger this time, though it didn't become anger rather something his power became. Transforming into two things destructive energy or rather in this case something built to be constructive. Building upon the decimation he'd sent her through, hurting her deeply but rather than destroying her, working endlessly to build her up.
Gabriel came forward in a stretched out embrace a hand seeking out her his left hand seeking to knot within her hair pulling her up to face him and in the same action lowering himself down to meet her.
"You are anything but a monster, I control my own actions and I apologize." He pressed his lips against hers attempting to silence any quick and stubborn rebuttle.
"Everything thats happened to us has brought these bad things, but we are stronger than this. I promise, I'll always be here to keep you mine."
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Post by Alexis Seran on Jan 11, 2010 23:07:05 GMT -8
She flinched when she felt him touch her. Yeah, she was a bit scared, she didn't know how mad he was and Gabriel was one tough cookie. At least he wasn't mad enough to actually attack her. Instead, He pulled her into an embrace and admitted to wanting to hit her on his own. Was it a good or a bad thing? Alexis was never a fan of abuse...Probably due to abusive parents... Anyway! Alexis let him kiss her lips and finish his last statement. It hurt a lot. She wasn't ready to get back in a relationship with him. This will be the first time she actually thought through things. She jumped right into the relationship far too fast when he and Reira was done. Now she learned from that. Lexi will have to wait for Gabriel to learn how to hide his feelings towards other girls when he gets them.
"That will never get old..." she smiled, referring to the "always being here" bit. "I will be here as you will for me, but we need time. I need to see if we are meant to be. We are teenagers for crying out loud. If we are supposed to spend our life together, let it happen. I don't want to feel like I'm forcing you. We will wait and see what the future has in store for us." Alexis kissed him again and pulled away slightly.
"And sorry for trying to sleep with you. Guess that is a little uncalled for..." she shrugged a little with a pathetic smile, "Guess I'll take my leave..."
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