Drinking

[John]

The bartender would poor chi another shot and John another shot afterwards, he was slowing down, he just wanted to get drunk quick. What Chi didn't understand is if they had met outside of this bar John would of either ignored her, attacked her, or challanged her to a fight. It was the way he was, he wasn't friendly, he didn't get alogn with others, this was a one night deal. He was only like this for tonight. If they ever met again outside of this bar John wouldn't be too kind.

"Fate can take whatever plans it has for me and shove it. From now on I make my own fate, my life is mine and no one will control it. I am a warrior, and a warrior prince by blood. My pride may be damaged from embarassment, but it will never be broken.."

John spoke in a transe of his own words. No force in this world could break his pride, damage his honor. He may have been damaged emotionally, but thats only because of the foolish feelings themselves, normally he had control over them, never showing them to anyone, but tonight was a first. And Chi would most likely be th eonly one to ever see him like this, from here on out.

[chihiro]

"My pride may be damaged from embarassment, but it will never be broken.."

So easy for him to say, but Chi knew better than to kid herself. She had no pride, no pride left. She'd left it all in that classroom, in those burning eyes, at his fingertips. And the girl sittinga t this bar, the girl falling into the same damned footsteps of her mother was simply a shell of what she once was. She was empty, he had drained her. She didn't want to think if she could even love still..the only boy who had seen the real her. The real her that will never be the same again. She wasn't a girl anymore, she was a pet. A toy, to be tossed around and used at one's will, at the will of a certain senior. No! She fought back stubbornly. She was not the same, but she was not a pet. She wasn't anything.

She drained the glass the moment the bartender left to refill John's drink. She cringed as it burned down her throat, hollowing out her stomach like her soul. Her hair remained partially in her face, obscuring her from the rest of the world.

[John]

"I'll become a great warrior and show them I'm more than worthy of my name. . . I'll fight until no person stands above me."

He was finally done making himself feel better abotu everything, or inspiring himself so to speak to move on. He downed his glass quickly and put his head down on the table. he would turn it to look at Chi, and he would have a slightly questioning look in his dark red eyes. Not questioning Chi, he was questioning himself. He knew he talked the talk alot, but he didn't know if he could actually do it.

"I have never relied on anyone in my entire life. Why start now?"

He would get another refill and get ready to drink it, but he would sit up and look to Chi alittle off in his focus. Drinking as much as they have does that to a person. He didn't really know how to put it. He had never had a seriouse or straight conversation with someone before.

"Friends are a weakness, something that holds you back from your goals, a thing not needed to survive. . . . Is it really so?"

[chihiro]

Was it true? Could she really trust no one? She could trust Aureus, she loved him...but then she turned right around and..and..if she hadn't fallen for him, she woudln't have been weak. She was a gang member, damnit, she could have taken him, she could have stopped him...before she turned soft. She squeezed the glass again, dark eyes glaring at its crystal clearness. She wished things could be easier, clearer, like the glass. Like the liquid she was now pouring down her throat. She tipped back her glass one more time, embracing the burning sensation. She blinked a few times, her eyes turning bloodshot, and her cheeks a rosy pink color.

Her vision swam before her eyes momentarily, but she ignored it. She had to forget him...she had to forget them both. How much did she have to drink? She couldn't remember...that could be bad. She tilted her head, her body moving slightly with her as she became unbalanced.

"Arryou sure? Not all people...are weaknesses.."

She said, thought thinking that he thought the same way she did before meeting Aureus. Oh, Aureus...she frowned again, blinking at the waving floor.

[John]

"Thats what I thought. . . I still think it. . . But it is just walking through my head. . . I dont know anymore. Are they?"

He had honestly asked, he wanted to know if people where weaknesses. And why he asked? He wanted to know if people where a weakness or not. Its how he thought, he was someone who never depended on anyone. Cold, ruthless, blood thirsty, thats how they described him at school. her it was more, out going and confused. He had no predetermined idea of anything here, esspecially after how many drinks hes had, which was for sure enough.

[chihiro]

Are what who? People, that was it. Wow, she was beginning to lose touch with the conversation, like it was just bouncing around in her head without penetrating into thought. How much had she had to drink? How long had it been? She couldn't remember.

"People are the source of weakness, the weakness is within ourselves...people in our lives just reinforce what's already there."

So now she was a philospher? Alright then.

[John]

John looked down at his glass and took the shot that was in it while Chi spoke. so people where a weakness, but being close to them only inhanced the weakness that was already there. John had never had that weakness was never able to get close enough to anyone. Never had anyone. He never tried, it was just so easy to push them away. Maybe he should get drunk more often. John put down his glass for the last time and stumbled from the stool chair. He would be heading for the door and he would look back.

"it's been interestrigneh, Chi. I'll see yer 'round." (Meant to be read like its typed.)