Post by †Angel† on Jul 28, 2008 12:04:05 GMT -8
This last version didn't make it to 552.. so ill put it on here..
Basically about me.. about my son.. about life in general.. yeah..
Estimated time length for the song : 4 minutes and 22 seconds
Enjoy
I seen the good n bad thats offered in this world,
been twirled,hurled,whirled,
to my lowest point in life i swirled
to the bottom like a kite,
but it took me rock bottom to reach my height,
now instead of stress these tired eyes finally rest
with ease at night,
its like I'm committing suicide but this pen is my knife,
I'm spillin out blood with each word that i write,
I'm sick of this strife with life,
I'm done with this never endin fight,
I need a plan,
imma show everyone where I stand,
not only as a father to my son but as a man,
to prove that I'm a better person
then each and every one of you thinks that i am,
damn ,
I wish I knew where to start but i don't have a clue,
I'm not a religious person
lately I been lookin to the sky askin what to do,
climbed up this mountain
and I'm a stronger person because of what i been threw,
the day has ended and tomorrow promises to be a new
start,
Whenever I am in the dark,
I know that when I reach down inside my heart,
the light will always be there even if its just a spark,
of hope,
I don't drink I don't smoke,
How is it I have a smile on my face and I'm able to cope,
this life has opportunities that I woulda never known five years ago,
when I was reppin my shit I thought I was grown,
but I was only fifteen years old,
I still had room to grow,
theres more to life then flippin drugs off boston road,
theres more to this life then livin in this mobile home,
so yes its time for me to go
time for me to leave,
no longer will I dwell on the past
the present is where I'll be,
my mind state has set me free,
no longer will I let my inner demons get the best of me,
it took me running threw life blind ,
for me to open my eyes and be able to see,
that I'm a man and as a man ,
I can carry myself on my own two feet,
I can finally say the beast inside has been unleashed ,
from its cage,
no longer do I feel the pain,
no longer will the hate run threw my veins,
no longer will I take life for granted
instead take advantage of each day,
its time for some changes to be made,
and it starts today, yep it starts today,
yea it starts today,theres no more games man,
it starts today,
i remember back when all I did was stress,
this life is filled with challenges,
but I treat each one like a test,
why is it i am still here man i feel truly blessed,
no one is perfect and all you can do is try your best,
nothing but good thoughts run threw my mind when I lay my head to rest, years of song writing lay across my desk where I sit,
looking back at it all and all the hard times man what a trip,
its sick how I'm still here, why is it I'm still here, this shit is so unclear, man believe me when I say when it comes to pain iv had my share, sometimes the weight is almost to much to bare,
but shit i guess thats why they say life isn't fair,
I stare at myself in the mirror ,
wonderin when it will all come to an end,
wondering,
what kind of fucked up message I am being sent,
always feeling bent,
strugglin to make it threw the month,
and i cant pay the rent,
writing is my only way to vent,
as I look down all I see is my child,
emotions run wild,
baby momma got me going crazy for a while,
all the stress disappears when I see his smile,
when I get shit worked out and we do go to court,
full custody is what I plan to file for,
I cant wait to be able to open my door
see my son playing on the living room floor,
yeah my son,
the only one i adore,
and i plan on makin it so he can afford,
the life i never had,
a person to be there for him,
a person he can call his dad,
to help him feel up when he feelin sad,
help him get threw the hard times
when shit looks bad,
I hear his laugh,
it makes me know he ain't mad,
he is a gift,
which I never thought I deserved to have,
thats why I plan on doing shit right for a change,
and it starts today, yep it starts today,
yea it starts today,theres no more games man,
it starts today,
I never meant for the drama to unfold the way it did,
your just a kid,
you should of never witnessed a single moment of it,
every night an argument would explode,
voices yelling, objects being thrown,
things got to the point where it got out of a control,
and I just want you to know,
I did every thing I could,
to deal with the hard-times,
and stick around because I said I would,
but I took all I could take,
I had to leave but only for your sake,
I didn't want you to be around all the violence and hate,
and don't let anyone tell you different
I love you to this very day,
and these feelings will always remain,
even though your mom may have took you away,
I know you will be with me again some day,
theres a better future to be made,
and it starts today, yeah it starts today, yep it starts today,
yea it starts today,theres no more games man,
it starts today, yeah it starts today, yeah it starts today[/
Basically about me.. about my son.. about life in general.. yeah..
Estimated time length for the song : 4 minutes and 22 seconds
Enjoy
I seen the good n bad thats offered in this world,
been twirled,hurled,whirled,
to my lowest point in life i swirled
to the bottom like a kite,
but it took me rock bottom to reach my height,
now instead of stress these tired eyes finally rest
with ease at night,
its like I'm committing suicide but this pen is my knife,
I'm spillin out blood with each word that i write,
I'm sick of this strife with life,
I'm done with this never endin fight,
I need a plan,
imma show everyone where I stand,
not only as a father to my son but as a man,
to prove that I'm a better person
then each and every one of you thinks that i am,
damn ,
I wish I knew where to start but i don't have a clue,
I'm not a religious person
lately I been lookin to the sky askin what to do,
climbed up this mountain
and I'm a stronger person because of what i been threw,
the day has ended and tomorrow promises to be a new
start,
Whenever I am in the dark,
I know that when I reach down inside my heart,
the light will always be there even if its just a spark,
of hope,
I don't drink I don't smoke,
How is it I have a smile on my face and I'm able to cope,
this life has opportunities that I woulda never known five years ago,
when I was reppin my shit I thought I was grown,
but I was only fifteen years old,
I still had room to grow,
theres more to life then flippin drugs off boston road,
theres more to this life then livin in this mobile home,
so yes its time for me to go
time for me to leave,
no longer will I dwell on the past
the present is where I'll be,
my mind state has set me free,
no longer will I let my inner demons get the best of me,
it took me running threw life blind ,
for me to open my eyes and be able to see,
that I'm a man and as a man ,
I can carry myself on my own two feet,
I can finally say the beast inside has been unleashed ,
from its cage,
no longer do I feel the pain,
no longer will the hate run threw my veins,
no longer will I take life for granted
instead take advantage of each day,
its time for some changes to be made,
and it starts today, yep it starts today,
yea it starts today,theres no more games man,
it starts today,
i remember back when all I did was stress,
this life is filled with challenges,
but I treat each one like a test,
why is it i am still here man i feel truly blessed,
no one is perfect and all you can do is try your best,
nothing but good thoughts run threw my mind when I lay my head to rest, years of song writing lay across my desk where I sit,
looking back at it all and all the hard times man what a trip,
its sick how I'm still here, why is it I'm still here, this shit is so unclear, man believe me when I say when it comes to pain iv had my share, sometimes the weight is almost to much to bare,
but shit i guess thats why they say life isn't fair,
I stare at myself in the mirror ,
wonderin when it will all come to an end,
wondering,
what kind of fucked up message I am being sent,
always feeling bent,
strugglin to make it threw the month,
and i cant pay the rent,
writing is my only way to vent,
as I look down all I see is my child,
emotions run wild,
baby momma got me going crazy for a while,
all the stress disappears when I see his smile,
when I get shit worked out and we do go to court,
full custody is what I plan to file for,
I cant wait to be able to open my door
see my son playing on the living room floor,
yeah my son,
the only one i adore,
and i plan on makin it so he can afford,
the life i never had,
a person to be there for him,
a person he can call his dad,
to help him feel up when he feelin sad,
help him get threw the hard times
when shit looks bad,
I hear his laugh,
it makes me know he ain't mad,
he is a gift,
which I never thought I deserved to have,
thats why I plan on doing shit right for a change,
and it starts today, yep it starts today,
yea it starts today,theres no more games man,
it starts today,
I never meant for the drama to unfold the way it did,
your just a kid,
you should of never witnessed a single moment of it,
every night an argument would explode,
voices yelling, objects being thrown,
things got to the point where it got out of a control,
and I just want you to know,
I did every thing I could,
to deal with the hard-times,
and stick around because I said I would,
but I took all I could take,
I had to leave but only for your sake,
I didn't want you to be around all the violence and hate,
and don't let anyone tell you different
I love you to this very day,
and these feelings will always remain,
even though your mom may have took you away,
I know you will be with me again some day,
theres a better future to be made,
and it starts today, yeah it starts today, yep it starts today,
yea it starts today,theres no more games man,
it starts today, yeah it starts today, yeah it starts today[/