On My Own (Josiah)

[Siege]

It was as though her skin were fire. His hand probably didn't touch her skin even close to thirty seconds before it was taken away, with the pretense that he was paying for her clothes. It was Siege's eyes that went cold then, she got tired of this game, it wasn't as though she expected him to kiss her or anything but there was just something about his touch that was comforting. Obviously, something he didn't understand, and she figured that he never would. Josiah paid the woman, and he took bags in both of his hands to make sure, she was sure, that Siege wouldn't touch him. Grabbing whatever was left she followed him out of the store, she figured that she had enough clothes for now, she had never been that big on clothes anyway.

“So where to next?”

Siege shrugged.

"Well you said phone of some sort why don't you go do that, I'll head off on my own."

She figured he wanted to get rid of her anyway, and there were only two shops really on the list of things to do, so she would either be at one of the other. The young girl, turned on her heel and without another word she headed off. Her eyes guarded once more, she was trying to talk herself into keeping her gurads up all the time. She really couldn't see a point sometimes in why she let them drop at all, but whatever. He just wanted to be a lonely old fucker who's only friend was the fucking neighbors cat! Siege headed to Victoria's secret, figuring he would find her and pay her bill by the time he was done, and she was done trying things on. If he didn't show, it would just be one more person to abandon her, one more nail in the coffin, on more reason to fuck over the world.

[Josiah]

She mentioned the phone that he had talked about earlier and also noting that she would go off on her own to the next shop, she seemed miffed but he couldn’t really pick up o the reason behind it, his hands were full after all and it was not as though he had pulled away from her violently or anything. Understanding her would be the death of him but he figured he would just play along with it.

As she walked off he had a feeling she would head to Victoria’s secret for the fact that she still needed him to know what would fit in her room as far as furniture was concerned. He grinned ever so slightly as she walked away, he had not looked forward to helping her pick out thongs and undies and now he was out of it even if she was alittle disappointed in him. He didn’t care, he had told her already he needed to adjust but she seemed more hell bent on getting him to be the person that she needed that she was forgetting that.

With bags in hand be walked over to the Verizon store, from their commercials they had plenty of stuff that fit the description of what she wanted after all. He began to look through the displays not to worried about the plans avalible, if anything he would just add it and the new line to his own account.

[Siege]

Panties. GLORIOUS panties!!

Siege took herself into the next shop and the ladies at the shop held her shopping bags behind the counter for her, while she was given a basket that in the end would be much too small and began doing her shopping. She needed to pick out a great variety because she hated doing laundry and so the more she had the longer she could postpone laundry and the more laundry she could do all at once to get it done quickly. So she wanted a definate surpluss besides they had some hot little numbers here. Bras and panties were easy, she knew her sizes well and picked out almost one of each kind that caught her eye, two of the classic colors that she would be wearing more often than the fun ones.

It was the lingerie and nighties that would take her the longest. Deciding which ones she wanted, and trying various ones on. She picked out about twenty different nighties, fifteen different lingerie numbers. Over fifty panties and bras, before she was done. The ladies, let her take a seat, and she was thumbing through a magazine waiting for him the register was ready, they had already rung through and packed everything and she was just waiting for him to show up so they could take the three bags from here and do their last stop which was the furniture store, she could get her paint tomorrow she was tired already, Siege was never much one for shopping.

[Josiah]

He picked her up a phone, a tiny one with a keyboard as she had asked for, she was now on his plan which meant they could talk as much as they needed to with out being charged, not as though he really cared but it was human nature to take a decent deal when it presented itself. When he was done with that it was time to find her which was easy enough. He walked though the much hated mall and when to victorias secret. His eyes scanned around as he did so till he found her sitting down reading a magazine.

He came over t her her bags in his hands one from the phone store now as well. “Sorry it took so long…you’d be surprised the idiots they have working for them” Josiah said looking down at her. He took out her hone and showed it to her “Hope this is along the lines of what you wanted”

He’d let her look at it for a moment and began to walk to the register were he would tell the ladies he was their to pay for Siege’s packages. It was amazing what they could charge for woman’s undergarments but that was the way the world was he guessed. Running his card once more he almost wanted to chuckle, this was the most action his wallet had seen in a while since he barely did any shopping for himself

[Siege]

“Sorry it took so long…you’d be surprised the idiots they have working for them”

“Hope this is along the lines of what you wanted”

Siege looked up, and her eyes watched as he handed her a phone. She could only grin when she saw the color was her favorite. Gently she took the phone from him and looked at it, pushing the front part up a keyboard was exposed. She smiled as she used the scroll button and cocked her brow to find all his numbers already entered.

"Now if I only had someone to call, guess that means I need friends or something."

Closing the phone she put it in her pocket and got up as Josiah went over to pay for the bill. Placing the magazine down she gathered up her bags and stepped out while he did what he did with his credit card. She was still keeping her distance, a bit pissed, but also more frustrated. She knew it wasn't going to come easy but it was hard sometimes to try to move forward and be pushed right back.

Outside, there was a guy, rather cute, long blonde hair framed his face and fell to his shoulders. Good tone, tight shirt, nice ass. Came over to her.

"Well well good afternoon sexy."

Siege fought the urge to roll her eyes.

"Hey." she gave a simple nod.

The two began to talk, and Josiah would see the man touching her hair and her face. Siege ducked to the side, but continued talking. She doubted he would care anyway. Josiah was untouchable he would probably never care, if someone raped her right here he'd probably stand to the side and wait patiently before giving her an 'I told you so' before they would move on to the furniture. After all it would be her fault for wanting to dress this way right?

When Josiah would really see them was when the boy pressed her up against the wall, his hand on her waist, stroking it, and the other hand against the wall by her face locking her in. She didn't want this, and was clearly ready to kick the litle girly boy's ass for even trying to make anything of it.

[Josiah]

He paid for her items, he could not believe the amount of things she had gotten but it was not as though he had given her a limit as to what to get and what not to get, and he was sure she would make use of it all, there was always the plus side that this meant she had no excuse to go commando as she was doing today. He could tell that she was avoiding him still but there was nothing he could really do about it, there were rough seas ahead of them as far as living together but he was sure they would manage.

When he was done he when outside sure he would find her waiting for him so they could hit her furniture store, When he stepped outside though she was clearly not waiting for him, no infact she seemed rather occupied with a blonde little pretty boy. He rolled his keys slightly at the sight as he began to walk past her but then from the corner of his eyes he noticed her, the way she looked the way her eyes seemed guarded and unhappy, and this little punk just seemed to ignore it as he stroked her hip even more.

He didn’t even have to think of his next actions, he walked from behind the boy, and with her bags still in hand his left leg seemed to come out of no where his shinny black shoe knocking the boy right in the side of his head hard enough to send the boy stumbling to the side. His foot came down and he looked at Siege as though nothing had happened.

“Now that the distraction is out of the way…I believe we had more shopping to do” he said looking at her

[Siege]

She wasn't happy, the guy was taking liberties that she wasn't wishing for. He was leaning closer, her breathing was escalating as she began to relive past memories, memories of this kind of thing happening to her before, whichh was making her remember things she did not wnt to remember. He was talking about how she should come over and try those outfits on for him so that he could help her take them off. Her eyes clenched shut for a moment as her free hand rolled into a fist, and reared back as though she was going to punch him when, her eyes opened she found a shiny shoe bashing hm in the head instead.

Her eyes looked to the side to see Josiah standing there. Her eyes softened for a brief moment before she nodded to his words.

“Now that the distraction is out of the way…I believe we had more shopping to do”

Siege moved over to him and began to follow him, the books she could get off the net, or buy as she found some that she wanted it didn't need a special trip. The furniture was the main thing right now. So she followed him towards the furniture store. She knew that saying thanks was only going to make him shrug or comment on how she was too weak to protect herself, so instead she kept herself quiet.

When they entered the store they were immediatly assualted by a salesman. Siege looked over at Josiah, and handed him her bags.

"You can have a seat, since I figure you don't really care."

She shrugged, she doubted that if he didn't have to be here to pay he would be at all. But he was here, and she was trying at the mmment to make it as easy as possible. Turning to the salesman, they began to head around the store, his note pad ready, as she began to pick out the things that she wanted for her room. Two short red glass doored shelves, for books and things, a Stand for a stereo she hoped to get eventually. A black Japanese style bed, she got herself some curve backed sitting chairs with two matching end tables, she picked out a couple rugs, and a small low dresser, the kind that only held about three drawers, it too was red but with teal accents on it. She had fallen in love with that piece immediatly. She picked out a beautiful mirror set, that was actually five circular mirrors, surrounded by different colors, red, blue, orange, yellow, white.

They were at the back of the store now, as she whipped out the phone and texted Josiah so she didn't have to talk all the way back up there.

~How many windows in my room?~

While she waited for the answer, the sales man and the young girl moved just next to the curtains where the bed covers and sheets lay and on page three already, he was still writing down the information of the things she wanted to do in her own room, making it as personal as possible, and yet trendy.

[Josiah]

She nodded to his words her eyes looking slightly softer now, he would have never let that boy touch her unless she had wanted him to, it wasn’t his style, even if her appearance was clearly asking for a mans touch it was up to the assholes around her to show some type of restraint, clearly though such things were lost on certain members of his species.

She followed him moving toward the store that she had mentioned before not a word being siad, it was fine with him, she didn’t say thanks but she wasn’t angry wither so he would just count that as one small blessing. When they got to the store they were over taken by a sales person and a grimace came about Josiahs face. Surprisingly though she handed him her bags and told him he could have a seat. He didn’t argue, this was her room after all and without him looking over her shoulder she would get exactly what she wanted without questioning him.

He had his seat and took one of the magizines that were out to thumb through, time flying by till his phone rang, it was her putting a tiny half grin on his lips.

He texted her back a quickly as his thumbs could type, telling her four windows, two were large and looked out to the ocean while the other set as on the side of the house. With the message sent he put away his phone and began flipping through his magazine again

[Siege]

Siege got the ring back and pulled her cell out of her pocket it was strange to actually have one now. She had never had one before and so as it rang it took her a moment to figure out how to read the damn thing. Once it was up she smiled, her eyes scanned over to him at the front and saw a little half smile on his face. She pressed reply and her thumbs quickly began to type again, she was gonna end up enjoying this gift a great deal. She texted and sent him something back that she hoped might make him smile, it sure was making her smile.

~*hugs* You can run from a virtual hug *wink*~

She chuckled and would watch his reaction hoping dearly for a smile, even a slight smile, a chuckle, anything. When he gave her whatever he did, she would turn to the sales man. She began picking out her curtains then. She had picked out some rather psychedelic sheer ones, that were blue, red and orange. You could see right through them, but she bought some dark red shades to go up behind them for when she needed to block out the sun. She picked out the large fluffy blankets, sheets, and bedding that would go over her bed. She looked around and picked out a floor lamp, an alarm clock, a bedside lamp, and a full light for the ceiling since she hated those damn things that were just a white glass over a light bulb. So instead she picked a ceiling fan for hot days, that had multicolored glass orbs coming down instead of plain bulbs, it was very neat. Once everything was picked out, including some art for her walls, they walked to the front and she smiled at Josiah, motioning for him to come up to the man that was beginning to ring the things up.

"How long will it take to get to our place?" she asked the man behind the counter.

[Josiah]

Before he knew it she sent him another message one which he looked at and shook his head slightly at, though the same tiny almost miniscule grin was back on his lips as he did so. It was the most she could get the moment though it was more then most would ever know he was capable of. When she turned back he went back to his reading sure that she would still be picking out things. Only to be interuped again by one of the sales women, a matur older woman in her late twenties early thirties with raven black hair and a full figure that probably kept her spouse very please should she have one.

“So…you and your girlfriend moving in together?” She asked causing him to close his magazine as his body went slightly tense at that particular word.

“She’s not my girlfriend” he siad in a cool tone trying to defend himself

“Oh…my mistake…its hard to tell the difference between new couples and those that are just dating…I normally don’t see the new husbands though just sitting back and letting wifey pick out everything”

His eyes nearly bulged from their skull “What would make you think that?” Josiah asked wondering what the hell gave her such idea’s.

She chuckled lightly looking at him “The way you to are texting…how confident she seems that you’ll just say yes to anything she wants” he eyes looked down “And those bags from Vickies…I am sure she has something nice in there for you” She chuckled lightly, she must have thought he was older then he really was cause if not he doubted she would be speaking to him in such a way.

“No she just need some things” Josiah said as he reached down into one of the bags and pulled out something at random just to prove her …RIGHT! Hanging from his thumb was a sheer little nighty attached to it were the nearly see through panties that came along with it. His face began to blush

“apparently there were things you needed to” She siad with a chuckle and began to walk away.

Luckily he had some time before Siege came back his cheeks still slightly flushed as the blood was slowly leaving them. When she came back she was smiling and motioned to him that she was done. He stood up her bags in his hands. They were being run up and the man told her that they could be at the house this after noon or tomorrow depending on how many orders the warehouse was already dealing with.
“That not to bad” Josiah siad paying for the purchase

He looked over to Siege “I am sorry…guess your just gunna have to deal with me again to night if worse comes to worse…hope you can deal with it”

[Siege]

As Siege came back she smiled at him, though her brow rose when she saw the blush on his cheeks. What was he blushing at? She was shocked really, because she hadn't changed into any clothing, but when she saw that one of the garments in the Vicki bag was ruffled and not folded anymore, she could only grin, wondering if she could manage to wear that little number tonight. Even if she was sleeping in her own bed he would see it when she was brushing her teeth or popped into his room to say goodnight, and that woud be fine enough. still though, they headed to the register, this was their biggest purchase yet with good reason. And the man had thrown in the paint and supplies for her room at no charge since they were spending as much as they were. Which she thought was nice.

It turned out that depending on the warehouse, they could recieve their delivery this afternoon or tomorrow at the latest. Accepting the paint kit that he had gotten ready for her, Josiah would have the rest of the bags while her muscles worked on holding up the four cans of paint, tape, rollers, and a paint tray all crammed into a large box.

“I am sorry…guess your just gunna have to deal with me again to night if worse comes to worse…hope you can deal with it”

Siege grinned.

"I'm sure I can manage, but can you? I can tell you've gotten a sneak preview of tonights venue?" she grinned hoping to make him blush even more by nodding to the aforementioned Vicki bag.

After the receipt was sighed, she took what she could from Josiah as they began to head out of the mall. She was walking more slowly partially unable to see over the box balanced in her strong arms. But she was happy, almost nothing could wipe the smile off her face at the moment. A few things of course, but not many. Siege had never been a materialistic girl, but it was nice to actually have her own posessions.

"so how about lunch, and then we can go home, and I can paint."

somehow she doubted he was much of a painter though he might surprise her she never really knew, but she didn't think so. She figured she'd be spending the rest of the day coating the boring walls with her pretty teal color and beginning to turn the room into something that she would really enjoy.

[Josiah]

Her words were not ones he was really expecting to say the least making his cheeks flush again slightly as he swallowed a bit. He had seen most of her, but she had been asleep, he wasn’t sure he could deal with her walking around in the little number he had seen on accident, he actually didn’t think she would buy something like that. Thinking about it, it must have been something for when she got a boy friend, after all way wear something like that around him?

With everything signed and paid for they were able to make their way out, he was happy, not only was she taken care of but he could finally leave the mall which he was not really a fan of. She was smiling so much, he could tell she was happy with this turn of events which kind of made him glade, there was hope that this arrangement would be easier to deal with then originally though.

“Lunch sounds good” he siad looking to her as the crossed the parking lot heading toward the car “Though if you want to get the room painted before the furniture comes I think your gunna need some help…after all it might get here today if your lucky” he said to her.

They soon got to the car, the trunk popping open with the push of a button on his key chain. “So is there anyplace you want to eat?” he asked curiously knowing there were plenty of restaurants in the area

[Siege]

She was excited to see her new room all put together, and the man said he had given her some fast drying paint so that hopefully she could get it all done before everything came. And she was glad that she was living with him. Even if nothing ever developed between the two it would certainly be nice to have a roommate. Siege knew that it was going to be nice to have someone to come home to when she neededit, and knowing somene was there to accept her and help her out meant a lot to the young girl.

“Though if you want to get the room painted before the furniture comes I think your gunna need some help…after all it might get here today if your lucky”

Her brows rose, he really did keep surprising her today. She smiled though it was sweet of him to offer.

"Sure, I'd love the help, it would be nice and go much quicker. Though do you even OWN painting clothes?" she teased as they began loading things in the trunk. She was all too happy to let go of the box and see the trunk take a slight dive for a moment with the weight of it before it bounced back up.

Looking up at him she pursed her lips at his next question.

“So is there anyplace you want to eat?”

She chuckled.

"Well if we have to get the room ready, why don't we just pick up some quick burgers on the way home, and then we can eat there and get to work. It seems reasonable enough, and cheaper, besides if we were going out to eat I'd need to change, I don' think I'm dressed properly."

She shrugged, and then a wide sweet smile crossed her lips, as she moved around to her side of the car.

"You know what, that sounds nice.." she said softly. "..the word home."

With a shrug she got in the car and waited for him to join her.

[Josiah]

She made a little tease at his own wardrobe again, he was getting used to it at this point, but from looking at her he figured she was enjoying his clothes more then she would to admit. He almost wanted to laugh because she had forgotten about her quest to get him into a pair of jeans today but he was not going to remind her ad ruin her fun, everything was taken care of and they could go home and get her nice and settled in, hopefully she would spent tonight in her own room though strangly…he wasn’t sure how eager we was for such an event.

They got into the car her words not wasted on his ears, he looked at her, the way she seemed alive and happy, was this what people were like when the seeds of their hope began to bud? If so, he kind of wished he had his own seeds to plant.

“I have a feeling you’ve deserved one for quite some time” he siad before starting up the car.

He let her play her music not putting up much of a fight about it, he was not being a push over but dealing with a happy Siege was less of a head ach then dealing with a depressed one.

The ride was not long at all, stopping for their burgers seemed to take the longest though, damn static ridden intercom! He had been on the verge of destroying it himself.

But soon enough they managed to make it home, he was kind of happy that she could already refer to it as that, she seemed attached to it already after such a short time and he wondered how such a thing was possible.

Getting inside her bags were left in the living room along with the paint this way they could head to the kitchen and enjoy their burgers in piece

[Siege]

As they headed home, she got to listen to her own music, though shekept it from the ear numbing level that she had used the first time she had ridden in it. As they drove, she pulled out her cell and began to mess with it, figuring out what all it could do. That he remembered her favorite color meant more to her than he could imagine but she found that making a big deal out of the small things only confused him so she kept her secret delight to herself. She found that it could hold about fifty songs, and that she could program her own ring tones for certain people, a grin came to her face as she knew just the song for the man beside her. Fiddling more she found the game area, and that it had internet access, and so leaving him to his thoughts she spent most of the care ride home playing one of the mini games on her phone. Only looking up nce really to tell him what she wanted from the fast food joint.

The rest of the ride home was to her nodding her head to her favorite songs and playing the game on the phone he had picked out for her. If she didn't think he'd roll his eyes she would have kissed his cheek. But.. then again, she didn't care. She leaned over as they came to a stop light and kissed his cheek.

"Thank you, Josiah, for all of it, for.. everything."

She pulled back quickly but she felt that he deserved the thanks for being a great guy. and this was the only way that she could think of to show him. She got out of the car grabbing their lunch and helping him with a few of the bags as they went upstairs to the front door. They unloaded the car together and piled everything up behind the couch as neatly as possible since there was no reason to put new bags of clothes in her room when they were going to be painting it soon enough.

She went into the kitchen and dug out her burger and fries, grabbing a drink from the fridge she sat down at the table, and opened up all her wrappers revealing the grease covered, callorie filled, tastiness beneath. She took a big bite, and let out a satisfied grunt as she chewed, she was starving suddenly, and began to eat but tried to remember her manners as best as she could even in her hungered state.