Formal Apology.

[John]

Look.

I am sorry.

I know the way I treated alot of people was wrong, the things I said and did where wrong. There isn't anything I can say that would be diserving of forgiveness, but my views on everything I believed had been flipped upside down and stripped from me in all but two weeks time.

I was frustrated, stressed, I was afraid, and unsure.

I thought I was going to Afghanistan, where all the casualties are coming from, where all the real danger is. I saw the world turning on me even those from my own country started a prejudice against me and my military.

I'm going to miss all those holidays you take for granted with my loved ones. I'm going to miss my girlfriends 18th birthday. I'm gunno be stuck here for my 20th.

Once again, I'm sorry, but in my mind, my life had ended. And I was angry because I had so much planned for the future.

["Unfettered"]

The apology's a good start.

However, trust and forgiveness both have their own times in which they must be slowly recuperated. Not just in me or whatever... but in everyone who has been hurt. And that includes in yourself as well, either to yourself or to others.

...I'd say more (Read: Wall Of Text), but I'm not in a particularly dramatic mood. Rather, instead... if at any time you can get onto MSN where you are at in Kuwait/Afghanistan, wherever the hell they're driving you around, I'd like to talk to you sometime after next week (finals over here).

"Everyone is a hero and the villian. And no one knows who is the victim and who is the aggressor. And what is peace?" - Pixy