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Post by Kevala Badoer on Oct 27, 2009 23:31:47 GMT -8
Kevala had finally gotten Aiden back to bed. Kazumi yet to wake up. Lazy as she was. Trembling she struggled to stop from sinking to her knees. Instead moving out of her room and down the hall to Mitsukai's living area.
Her small hand shaking so badly as she reached up and knocked upon the door. Tears continuing to flow down her face as she stood there. Barely able to keep her knees from giving out still and reaching out to brace herself against the wall. Still in her jammies and her hair falling about her, some of which was sticking to her face from the tears she had already shed.
She would wait. She needed somebody.....her friend. The closest thing she had to one at least. Not sure if she could make it through this.....She was dying inside....pain consuming her.
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Post by Mitsukai on Oct 27, 2009 23:44:53 GMT -8
The sound of knocking woke Mitsukai out of her sound slumber. Stirring in her sleep she poked her head out of the covers to take a look at the time. 2:45 am the red numbers glowed sadistically. She groaned, forcing herself out of bed bed to see what the commotion was about. Who the hell would be bugging her in the middle of the night?
with a cat-like yawn she opened the door. In complete shock of what she saw. Kevala looked like a complete wreck, the poor thing couldn't even stand anymore. Quickly Mitsukai lead the girl into her room. Closing the door behind her and making her sit down on her bed. She knelt down in front of the girl. Gold eyes filled with worry and concern.
"What happened?" she asked not knowing what to say at this point but willing to be there for Kev. That was the least she could do.
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Post by Kevala Badoer on Oct 27, 2009 23:48:45 GMT -8
She whimpered, unable to speak as she was led inside. Unable to stand it anymore, she pulled away from Mitsu and would allow her knees to give out. Sinking down onto them as she extended her hand to the girl. A piece of paper held in it as she felt those tears flow harder at the thought of what that single piece of paper held.
"H..H..He...le..left me......"
Silence would consume her as she sat there, her head down and sobbing.
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Post by Mitsukai on Oct 28, 2009 0:12:20 GMT -8
Taking that little piece of paper Mitsukai would read the note not bothering to turn on the lights because she could see very well in the dark. When she read the note her blood ran cold. No.....no......it couldn't be true. He was leaving them? Leaving and only now telling them after weeks of searching? And not even saying goodbye to their faces but leaving a fucking note!
Anger as consuming her instant how dare he! How fucking dare he just abandon his own children and the mother of his children that he claimed so much without even bothering to see them! Didn't that son of a bitch know what kind of hell he had put them through because of this!? She thought he was better then that, she thought that son of a bitch was actually a man! Her free hand balled up into a fist, clenching so tight that her nails dug into her flesh. Causing her hand to bleed. Her head pounding from the rage that was building up. She wanted to destroy something. She needed to make someone pay for this sin!
Then her thoughts drifted back to Kevala and that anger subsided for a moment. Leaving a wave of sadness in its wake. Kevala was all alone now. The man that she held so dear to her heart, the one she had risked her life bringing his children into this world had just abandoned her and she needed the warmth and comfort of another being. Not some anger driven woman hell bent on finding the bastard and making him suffer. That would not accomplish anything.
Mitsukai didn't know how she could possibly make the pain she was feeling right now go away. She most likely never would be able to accomplish that. She could not even solve her own troubles for herself let alone others. But she could at least be there for Kevala. That was the only thing she can do.
Silently Mitsukai would wrap her arms around Kevala, holding her in a silent embrace to give her a shoulder to cry on. As she herself fought back her own tears. This was unspeakably cruel.
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Post by Kevala Badoer on Oct 28, 2009 9:24:56 GMT -8
"I..I...I loved him so much.....How could he do this to me?"
Her entire form trembled. Pain seeping into every inch of her soul and threatening to consume it. She felt as though she would die. Her eyes flaming red behind those closed eyelids. Tears continued to flow as she allowed the girl to hold her. She did not have the strength to resist.
All this time she had held out hope that he would return to her. That he would have a good reason for being gone for so long. But now she knew it was all because he did not want her anymore.
Why did he have to say in that letter that he loved her? Why did he have to lie to her?
Could he not have been enough of a man to at least say that he did not want her anymore?
"W..What did I do that was so..so wrong? I..I gave him everything..ev..every part of me..."
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Post by Mitsukai on Oct 28, 2009 12:48:56 GMT -8
"W..What did I do that was so..so wrong? I..I gave him everything..ev..every part of me..."
"You did nothing wrong." she said soothingly, trying to keep her outward appearance calm even as her own heart was filled with anger and pain for what had happened. "It is his own selfishness that is the true cause behind this....it has nothing to do with you."
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Post by Kevala Badoer on Oct 28, 2009 13:29:29 GMT -8
"D..Did I not love..him..enough? I..I tried so hard...to..to reach him...."
She fell silent and just cried. She could think of nothing else to say. Nothing else to do. She felt pain, and that was all. The shell of her body numb as she continued to tremble heavily. Tears causing her hair to stick to her face as she buried it against the other girl.
What was she to do now? How was she supposed to just pick up and move on as he had so clearly thought she could?
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Post by Mitsukai on Oct 28, 2009 14:12:33 GMT -8
Mitsukai wanted nothing more at this point then to paint the walls in Katsuri's blood. He claimed that he loved her, but if he cared so much then why did he just leave her like this? Was his all just some sick joke? This was not fucking fair....it just wasn't right...The Katsuri she knew would not do something like this.
But he did....this was not just some dream that she was going to wake up from. This was the harsh reality. Katsuri was gone and there was nothing she could do about it. She couldn't do anything about it at all. She could not do anything to ease her friend's pain or bring him back now.
That anger began to grow, so much that her body was aching from it. If only she was not so damn fucking weak and pathetic she could do SOMETHING. To make that son of a bitch pay.
Still she held back her own feelings, Kevala didn't need to deal with Mitsukai's personal feelings when she was dealing with enough already. "You gave him all you could give....there was nothing else you could possibly have done." she said, gently stroking her hair. "It's his fucking fault for not excepting that."
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Post by Kevala Badoer on Oct 28, 2009 14:40:36 GMT -8
She would finally pull herself together enough to pull back and wipe her eyes. A deep, shakey breath drawn in as she struggled to calm her racing heart.
"A..Aiden and Kazumi..w..will never know their father....H..He did not even bother to see them...Nothing...He treats them as they are nothing...."
Her eyes opened now, flaming red orbs dancing about as she sat there. Yet still she cried. It was not Sasha who had come forth, but the Kevala from the hospital. The one who had been so angry she had tried to kill several people. The one that was irrational and not so easy to make see the light.
But for now she did nothing. She could barely breath, let alone move and become angered. She was hurting too bad.
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Post by Mitsukai on Oct 30, 2009 7:31:48 GMT -8
"A..Aiden and Kazumi..w..will never know their father....H..He did not even bother to see them...Nothing...He treats them as they are nothing...."
"I know this might sound harsh to say....but they don't need a father....in this world it doesn't take much to make a child.....but it is another to raise it. If he doesn't want to be there to raise his own kids then that is his own loss. What your children need is not just a mother or father....they need someone that will love and care for them. It doesn't matter who does as long as they grow up feeling loved. They need you and only you because your the only one that could ever give them that undying love." It seemed a bit odd for someone who at least had grown up with both of her parents to be saying such a thing but Mitsukai knew what the power of love meant for a child. She had grown up with it and then had it cruelly ripped away from her. Growing up after losing her parents all she really ever wanted was to feel that love again but never received it, so she knew how much those twins needed it. It would be too heart wrenching to see that happen to those kids when they had only just been born in this world.
She gently stroked Kevala's hair as she spoke, trying to be comforting but at the same time being realistic. If those kids had any shot at a happy life she would need to make their mother stand strong for them. In the place that their father had left, it was the only way.
"I know it's scary, and I know it is a hard thing to do but I know you can do it. I really believe that you can. Your not going to be going through this alone. I might not know how to raise children but I will help you the best that I can and I am sure that Drea will help you as well. We will both be there for you and help you through this."
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