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Post by Kevala Badoer on Nov 1, 2009 21:01:08 GMT -8
She was seated at home. Resting back in the main living room and waiting on Mitsu to make an appearance. She had been noticing certain things about her lately that she had not yet been able to put her finger on.
She hoped that if they spent some time together today, perhaps if she brought up some matters that were not pleasant for the girl, it would help in better figuring out what it was that had been nagging at her mind for so long.
It was as though she had seen it before, but for the life of her she could not tell what it was.
Her attire today consisted of a large oversized t-shirt....One of Katsuri's to be exact, and a pair of black short shorts. Was it wrong to still wear his clothes?
Probably, but she she could not help it. She had done well to move on so far. Had made friends and ha managed to secure herself some form of protection. Not to mention that the house was completely different. So if she chose to hold onto one little thing of his, then so be it.
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Post by Mitsukai on Nov 1, 2009 21:27:38 GMT -8
Mitsukai tried to stifle a yawn as she entered the room. Over a week of barely sleeping had finally caught up with her. She looked terrible. There were bags under her eyes, she had lost quite a bit of weight thanks to a loss in appetite which was even more apparent in the baggy black pants and black hoody that she had chosen to wear. Her body had become weak, she barely had enough strength to keep herself conscious let alone the energy to train.
She felt terrible but even then she had kept her mouth shut. Even when on the rare occasions that Kevala did look at her as if she was concerned Mitsukai had kept all that was going on to herself. She went as far as to subtly avoid the other just to avoid suspicion. It was bad to do and she knew she couldn't keep it up for long but Mitsukai was one stubborn woman, if she wanted to keep something a secret she would keep it. It wasn't as if she did not trust the other girl, it was simply she did not want to bother her with er own issues when Kev herself had a big enough burden to bear. Kevala needed to be more concerned about her children, not some girl sharing the same roof as her even if they were friends it just didn't seem right.
What concerned Mitsukai now was that Kevala claimed she wanted to spend some time together. Mitsukai knew that she was up to something, like maybe probing the girl for answers. She wanted to do what she could to avoid it but it would seem too obvious if she down right refused so she had no other choice but to go.
Making her way into the living room she would notice her friend sitting on the couch. Her golden eyes resting on that shirt she was wearing as she fought back an on coming growl. Though it was pretty hard to walk in this house and not see something that reminded her of Katsuri it still made her mad to think of him. Seeing Kev in one of his shirts always made her feel uncomfortable.
A flash back of the dream from last night made the girl shiver a bit, biting back down on the anger lurking just below the surface. She might still be angry at the man for what he had done but seeing him like that had frightened her, it made her feel guilty for wishing him dead.
Pushing down her depressing thoughts Mitsukai would walk over to Kevala, taking a seat facing her while trying to keep on a straight face. Masking any of her previous thoughts from the other girl.
"You said you needed to talk to me about something?" she asked. That voice cool and steady as ever.
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Post by Kevala Badoer on Nov 1, 2009 21:34:49 GMT -8
She noted the girls appearance and shook her head. She looked like shit for certain and it was worrying Kevala. She needed to know what was wrong. Katsuri had asked her to watch after Drea and Mistu and so she would. Even if is killed her. She did such for him, not as a lover but as her brother. At least that was what she kept telling herself.
When Mitsu sat down, she would have probably noticed that not only was Kevala wearing a shirt of his, but that the male's scent was up on it as well. It was her favorite shirt of his and she refused to wash it just yet. Needing to feel him close to her at least in some way.
"I wished to know what is going on with you. I know you shall say nothing but do not take me for a fool. I have noted the changes in you and it is my task, given to me by Katsuri, to watch over you and Drea. I do not take such lightly."
She eyed the girl with icy hues. Taking in every aspect of her appearance and actions now.
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Post by Mitsukai on Nov 1, 2009 21:44:28 GMT -8
"I wished to know what is going on with you. I know you shall say nothing but do not take me for a fool. I have noted the changes in you and it is my task, given to me by Katsuri, to watch over you and Drea. I do not take such lightly."
Straight to business huh? she thought as she heard the other speak. Any other time the girl's bluntness might have amused her but this time. This time it only brought frustration.
"What is going on with me is my own problem to deal with, you shouldn't concern yourself with it." she said, her mind instinctively going on the defensive. She didn't mean to be rude at all but it was in her nature to bite back when she felt uncomfortable and right now with her lack of sleep and unsteady mind brought on by the constant nightmares to amplify her paranoia there was no helping it.
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Post by Kevala Badoer on Nov 1, 2009 21:49:42 GMT -8
She took the girls rudeness in stride and would move to stand. A light sigh passing her lips as she began to move toward the bar, grabbing a soda and opening it as she looked to Mitsu.
"Want one?"
She would grab one anyways and take it to her, setting it down onto the coffee table before her.
"So, you do know that I had the security beefed up in all of the house right? I have eyes everywhere on the estate. I have seen for myself you moping about at odd hours, looking like death warmed over. I have also noticed your temper is becoming a bit more unstable.
As for it being your business. Yes I suppose it is. I suppose that I have done nothing to earn your trust. And I am sorry for that.
But I do wish to help."
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Post by Mitsukai on Nov 1, 2009 22:10:17 GMT -8
Mitsukai silently took the soda Kevala had offered her. Taking a quick gulp of the liquid. At least for now it would help to wake the poor girl up a bit, something she defiantly needed right now. She did not want to fall asleep, not if it meant seeing all that blood again.
"So, you do know that I had the security beefed up in all of the house right? I have eyes everywhere on the estate. I have seen for myself you moping about at odd hours, looking like death warmed over. I have also noticed your temper is becoming a bit more unstable.
As for it being your business. Yes I suppose it is. I suppose that I have done nothing to earn your trust. And I am sorry for that.
But I do wish to help."
Of course Mitsukai had noticed the security around sometime after Katsuri had disappeared but it seemed almost like she had over looked them since the dreams started. She blushed a bit her face hidden underneath that hood so hopefully Kevala didn't noticed. She hoped that no one had heard her screaming when she woke up. Especially if they told Kev about it if they did hear, that was too embarrassing for her to deal with.
Though she was trying her best to mask it Mitsukai knew that she was failing miserably. A part of her wanted to tell her what was going no, but every time she considered it the image of Kevala's lifeless body crept into her head and she just couldn't bring herself to do it. How could she tell her that every night she saw Kev being killed, that the weapon that was used always ended up in her hands, about that woman that was always there almost egging her on to do it?
How would Kevala react to such a thing? Would she find it stupid and childish for her to be so afraid of a dream? Would she worry herself sick over it? Maybe it was simply better to keep her mouth shut. She knew that Kevala wished to help but the situation was too complex for her to explain. It broke her heart to push Kevala away but it was probably for the best if she did.
"It's okay I can handle this by myself." she said, trying to sound reassuring. If only she herself had any confidence in those words then they might have had meaning to them.
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Post by Kevala Badoer on Nov 1, 2009 22:18:40 GMT -8
She growled lightly to herself. She knew this from somewhere. But where?
She started to pace about the room. Her bare feet padding against the carpet as she decided it time to bring out the stuff she had been hoping to avoid.
"I have noted that a lot of it started after the note from Katsuri. I do know that you hate him for what he has done. But you must learn to forgive as I must also try to learn and let it go. He made his choice to not be with me. To leave Aiden and Kazumi...To never know that my precious Katiana died before ever taking her first breath.
Yes he took the cowards way out. Leaving a note for me to find when I woke and never bothering to even sneak a peek at the twins.
Do you not think I have wished to bottle up the anger and let it consume me? But I cannot because I have S........"
She trailed off as the reality of it hit her like a ton of bricks. She had seen this before.....in herself.
It was the way things had started years ago before Sasha made her appearance. All the anger and rage compressed for so long to form another personality all together.
Her eyes ran over the girl now. But how to prove this? How to make Mitsukai see it?
It was impossible without bringing out the other first. For that she would need help. She fell silent and would sigh.
"If you are sure you can handle this..then perhaps you are right."
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Post by Mitsukai on Nov 1, 2009 22:35:00 GMT -8
"I have noted that a lot of it started after the note from Katsuri. I do know that you hate him for what he has done. But you must learn to forgive as I must also try to learn and let it go. He made his choice to not be with me. To leave Aiden and Kazumi...To never know that my precious Katiana died before ever taking her first breath.
Forgive? Ha, Mitsukai could never understand the concept of forgiveness. From what she had learned in life all forgiveness meant was to forget the sins the other party had done and let them into your heart only so they hurt you a second time. She had learned long ago to never let anyone get that close to you to hurt you. Unfortunately she had broken that rule but she was no fool. She refused to break it a second time. Mitsukai could never forget what he had done no matter what, otherwise she would become the blind idiot who was always used.
Suddenly Kevala stopped in mid speech, her eyes looking back at Mitsukai now as if she realized something that the girl had not. Mitsukai blinked back at confusion, what was going on in Kevala's head? She was about to say something but then the other girl just sighed as if she had finally given up.
"If you are sure you can handle this..then perhaps you are right."
Mitsukai just looked her over for a minute before she finally stood up again. Yes it looked like Kevala had decided to give it up. With a small sigh she would turn on her heels, intending to make a quick escape before she changed her mind.
"Sorry to trouble you." she apologized before she left heading back into her room. She would not leave the room for the rest of that day, fearing she might have another confrontation if she dared to step outside. Let her live with the madness that was slowly consuming her so long as no one she cared about would be affected by it.
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Post by Kevala Badoer on Nov 3, 2009 7:01:16 GMT -8
( OOC: Yes I have been lazy. >.< )
She watched as Mitsu headed back upstairs. Okay then. She knew what the problem was.
Only issue was how to fix it.
She knew what the best and possibly only way to do such would be...But could she do it?
Of course she could. She took her task of taking care of them seriously. Not to mention it was always good to have somebody on your side who was a fighter and strong. Mitsu was both even if she did not see it.
Moving to sit down on the couch once more. She would grab her cell phone and slide it open. Going through the numbers there and finding Sky's. Okay, now to put this plan of hers into action. If only he would go along with it. Heh
( OOC: End of thread. Also I know it is short but...meh )
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