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Post by Kevala Badoer on Dec 5, 2009 22:10:26 GMT -8
She would follow along behind him. She could do better..but meh! She was tired.
~There he goes with the questions.~
~Because he cares you idiot~
~Or so you think~
~No, I know~
She would shake her head once more, drawing herself from that little mental debate and finding the words to answer him.
"Better."
It was all she really could say. Sure, she managed to better contain Sasha and Katie. But the constant voices in her mind had not really slowed all that much. Always talking, debating....It was enough to make a person go insane.
But oh well. She would continue to work on it.
"Do you gain pleasure from making me actually do stuff when I first wake up? I mean really. I am cute when I stumble about the house half asleep after I wake up. Just ask Spike."
Nah! Not changing the subject. Merely redirecting it. Or at least that is how she liked to think of it.
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Post by Gabriel Seran on Dec 5, 2009 22:22:03 GMT -8
Gabriel scoffed shaking his head as he picked up the pace hoping she'd catch the cue to pick up as well. Then again if she didn't he'd have no problem double-backing and pushing her along being that pain in the ass she knew from before. He always managed to do it to someone and he'd been low on enemies as of late.
"Actually I do enjoy watching you fall on your face every now and again, keeps you humble." Gabriel sneered continuing on without worry.
"Also I'd prefer if you didn't go about tearing guards apart, it drastically increases how much you have to pay the ones that stay.... Think about your kid's college funds."
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Post by Kevala Badoer on Dec 5, 2009 22:34:23 GMT -8
She got the hint. Picking up the pace and slowly starting to get a bit closer to him.
"Who woke you up on the wrong side of the bed Mr. Grumpy Pants?"
Raising her brow behind those shades as her eyes fell over him. Oh yeah, he was probably going to like her better before than the way she was now. He was in her mind as a brother. And yeah...that was not really a good place to be.
"But yeah I know. Sorry about that. I was just so fucking hungry. I st..."
She cut off there. Yeah, she could feel the dull need still lingering in her mind. She was hungry. But she would try and suppress it. It was all she could ever really do.
Blood was an addiction to her......it would never really go away.
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Post by Gabriel Seran on Dec 6, 2009 22:29:48 GMT -8
Gabriel could sense something was off the second she'd frozen up with the notion of food. She'd been thinking of blood of course and chances are could strike at any moment, he hoped he could disdain her for but a few moments at the very least to manage some control. Pulling off to the side of the road Gabriel ushered a following signal for her to come join him. There was a pancake house up ahead and he loved pancakes.
"Here, we'll stop off for breakfast before we start today's workout, you look a bit famished." Gabriel of course felt a bit of white lie hit his lips as he spoke.
Control was his work of trade and he didn't want Kevala going out of that line. It'd be a hard route and he could potentially lose her in the end. Definitely an undesirable quality.
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Post by Kevala Badoer on Dec 6, 2009 22:35:06 GMT -8
She stopped as he did, noting the follow me motion and then moving to do so. Pancakes? Okay so yeah she could handle that...she thought..
~No you cant~
~Yes I can...~
~Shut up~
She would push back the thoughts and then nod softly.
"Sure. Works for me."
She was hungry alright but she was working to control what she was hungry for. No, she needed to get this shit under her control and keep it there.
Not to mention pancakes were AWESOME!
Moving along side him she would nudge him slightly. Cause it was always fun to nudge him, seeing as how she had been doing it since their second real meeting over a year and a half ago.
"Thanks for all the help Gabriel. I mean it."
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Post by Gabriel Seran on Dec 7, 2009 10:55:01 GMT -8
Gabriel winked as his frown turned upsidown into a smile trying to reassure her. Given the time frame he'd spent with her, Gabriel would be sure to never let his darker thoughts infiltrate his exterior. Kevala needed a light to guide her most often, she needed hope, and so did Gabriel. Walking in the front doors he made way towards an open booth ushering her to go in first with a gentlemanly twinge.
"After you.."
The firm smile held in place regardless of his turbid frame of mind. Constantly there was the inner battle of his own strength seapinng through. Gabriel wouldn't accept being the same way he was nearly two years ago. Beaten by everyone, standing before Emily and standing no chance. He remembered the shame he felt when people held back just to let him get a number of hits in. Though it was never enough. He wasn't going to be left behind.
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Post by Kevala Badoer on Dec 7, 2009 11:12:50 GMT -8
Honestly she could swear he was trying to hide something from her but she could not be entirely sure. Instead she would just smile back to him and then slide into the booth as he motioned for her to.
Settling there, she would cast a look about the room. The silence causing her mind to wander...and not to places she really needed to to be going.
~What are you doing here?~
~Eating with Gabriel...~
~GIVE UP ALREADY!~
She ignored the voice and would shake her head, letting her hand come up, eblow resting upon the table as she placed her hand over her eyes, fingers lightly rubbing her temples.
"I swear...I dont know why you put up with me sometimes."
She would growl lightly at herself..and shake her head. UGH! This was sooo....just.....GAH!!
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Post by Gabriel Seran on Dec 7, 2009 13:50:28 GMT -8
Gabriel would chuckle at her little response just as the plump attendant came to their side with menus, Gabriel wouldn't need to look already with the calming complexion of Pancakes on his mind; light and buttery congealed in a layer of maple syrup coating it.
"You are truly a pain in the butt, but at times that can be rather endearing." Gabriel joked playfully at her hinting at his actual care for her but never actually stating in words.
"Two Pancakes please, buttermilk." He gave the dark shaded attendant a weary glance never paying mind to how they may feel.
there were many things on his mind at the moment, nothing too pressing to keep him attracted for too long but he'd shortly manage after a bit of food in his stomach. As for Kevala he would keep a low profile trying to dissuade her from the troubles of the past that may have plagued her for some time.
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Post by Kevala Badoer on Dec 7, 2009 14:01:55 GMT -8
"Same."
She spoke simply enough to the waitress and would not bother to look up, her mind still struggling to split apart at any moment and her trying to keep it under control.
As the woman nodded and headed off to turn in their orders she would finally reply to his comment. A little turn of her head as icy hues settled upon him.
"Yeah yeah....you love me I know. You just dont wanna admit it. Gods forbid I actually know a part of your heart belongs to me."
She rolled her eyes as she shook her head. Yeah she knew he cared on some level but she loved to give him hell. Just cause she could. She knew and understood he did not even come close to seeing her as she did for him...deep deep down.....Those emotions she now tried to hide....and conceal away for her own good.
Laughing slightly she would reach out shoving against his arm very lightly.
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Post by Gabriel Seran on Dec 7, 2009 21:00:48 GMT -8
if she thought she was good at hiding such emotions she was damned wrong, Gabriel saw through her the instant they'd gotten to know one another and even now he noticed everything seemed almost natural to the greatest extent. but why must he have teased her along for so long? It was in Gabriel's nature to be like that, and he didn't have the heart to go on breaking her, in time he'd suspect she'd forget about him and move along with Spike.
Gabriel pulled up a farce of a smile, "Indeed."
His responses brief full of meaning when necessary but when the hole had been dug to deep he'd resist and yield, in due time all things would change and evolve, grow and change, twas the way of things.
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Post by Kevala Badoer on Dec 7, 2009 21:34:57 GMT -8
Silly man. He honestly thought he knew her on this matter but in the end he would see that what she felt went deeper than either of them really understood. But hey...she was one to keep them locked away and she would until she either moved on or died. Whatever came first. And at her current rate she was thinking the latter would.
Her eyes turning toward him as she shook her head once more.
"Honestly. I swear you have to be the single most irritating man I know."
She would just roll her eyes and turn her head to look out the window. She did not mind being drug along. It was the truly sad part. Either way her life would go on as usual. Only it would be more painful to lose him than to just love him in silence. Such a strange little female she was. But he was not the picture of normality either sooo yeah.
"You know it wont break me to know the truth. I am not that weak."
She kept waiting on the cold hard "Get the fuck out of my life" speech. Sure that one day it was bound to happen due to her stupid emotions she could not keep under control.
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Post by Gabriel Seran on Dec 8, 2009 0:32:33 GMT -8
Gabriel stared over the pancakes as the waitress brought them in, their fluffy steamy rolls cascading endlessly over one another like a dreamy cloud to mix in the waves of syrup would only sweeten the mix. The concerning effects struck him being known as the most difficult man, to his ears it was a simple compliment, to be difficult was to be steadfast and durable. Easy would just be boring. Gabriel felt a grin before she hit him with the bomb. He didn't think her weak, nor did he suspect that she couldn't handle it, but then again the truth was a powerful device. But once again Gabriel would have to surprise her with what she didn't expect to happen.
"I think without a doubt you are mistaken." He sliced away at the fluffy clouds continuing his livid speech. "You matter to me more than most people I've ever met, why else do you think I keep a weary eye on you? Throw myself onto the pyre to assure your safety?"
Gabriel grinned fitting the fluff cloud into his mouth delighting in the sweetness of it folding past his tongue and rolling down his throat in an orgasmic fashion. Damn they had great pancakes.
"Because I do care about you very much, just not in the way you're accustomed a man to like a woman." Gabriel smiled giving a little wink. A heartfelt talk over pancakes what more was right with the world.
Truth.
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Post by Kevala Badoer on Dec 8, 2009 5:15:43 GMT -8
She took up her fork, poking at her own food as she thought over what he said. A light shrug given as she thought over just what to say to this.
"I know you do not care about me in that way. Honestly, I am fine with that. Have you once heard me ask you to."
She shook her head as she turned her attention back to her food.
~Blood~
~No...no blood~
~You are going to listen to him?~
~Yes.~
~Fool. Give up on him!~
She would ignore the last comment give inside her mind. She would not let such a thing get to her. Finally forcing herself to cut into the pancakes and take a bite. Honestly having no taste for them, but eating them just the same.
"I may be stupid....but that is just how I feel. If you knew the depths you would most likely want nothing more to do with me. Therefore. From now on, I will simply see you as my brother...my best friend....it is the only thing I can manage that may surpress my true emotions."
She shrugged and would take another bite. Gods she was not sure how she could keep this up. It was so freaking hard..but..honestly.....for him and to better herself...she would try.
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Post by Gabriel Seran on Dec 8, 2009 12:17:45 GMT -8
THis is unfortuneatly where Gabriel would show his less mature side though once again from another point of view it would hit the other way around depending upon how Kevala would take it. Gabriel was simply a mix between child and man, the perfect teen mix who just so happened to know what all this was and where the pieces came together.
"You're just being a girl...."
He'd state bluntly noting her current emotional travesty over little issues that held so very litte weight in the real world of course Gabriel had been known to take things a bit seriously at times. This was not one of those instances.
"Stop beating yourself up over nothing and get back out on your own two feet, thats probably why these personalities are taking advantage of you, because you cant stand up for yourself."
Course Gabriel was just being blunt and obvous to her, hoping at best it wouldn' hurt her. THat wasn't his intention at all merely setting her on a better course.
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Post by Kevala Badoer on Dec 9, 2009 12:09:57 GMT -8
She would roll her eyes and shrug as he spoke. She knew he was probably right but she was not about to tell him that. No, she would just shake her head and look at him.
"Well if that is the way we are gonna play...then you must really like me cause you sure do hit me enough. And isnt it always said that little boys always hit the girls they like?"
She grinned and would turn back to her food. Pushing it around with her fork and sighing softly as she ran her tongue over her lips.
Bah! Why did she have to want blood? Stupid mother and her defective genes. Shaking her head to push back what few memories she had of her mom. NO, she would not think about that.
"Anyways...So yeah...I am trying. But the world seems to like me the way you do...flat one my back or up against the wall."
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