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Post by Alexis Seran on Dec 22, 2009 19:40:37 GMT -8
Alexis sat in her home. It never really had the same effect. She was extremely excited. Who wouldn't be? She had everything she ever wanted. Gabriel. Though there was something off. The girl she met at the mall... Gabe was always hanging out with her while Alexis stayed at home. They could be possibly friends, but being a girl and having Gabe as just a friend was hard. She went through that, it was hard to not fall in love with him. He was everything in a guy; Charming, good looking, and chivalrous. Though below the perks lies the fallacies of it all. He was a woman's man. He was known to have fallen for more than one girl at a time. And that's where it hurt Alexis. He was spending so much time with an attractive girl of course he was going to develop feelings for her. Knowing Alexis, she can't compete. All her life she lost any competition. No body wanted the broken girl. The one who slept with many guys just to get the attention of just one... or the one who can't help but wiggle in a lie here and there. The thing is... she didn't want to be broken down anymore. She needed to rise above this. All she wanted was proof. She went into the room and opened up a drawer to find an address book. In that, she found Kevala's number. Alexis would send her a message. Alexis took a deep breath and pressed the send button. What she really wanted right now was to go for a jog. That always cleared her mind, but she obviously couldn't do that right now, so the only option was music. She would go down to the lounge and her eyes would glance to Gabriel's piano, then to hers. Of course she chose to play hers. And clearly the only song she had muse for was a sad one. There was obviously no one to play any of the other instruments so she added some more piano... her voice matching the singer's as if she was magically modeled after her >.> Now all she had to do was wait for Kevala to show up so she could congratulate her. |
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Post by Kevala Badoer on Dec 22, 2009 20:11:24 GMT -8
She was at home, her eyes going to her phone as it went off. The number however was one she did not recognize. As she slid it open she would read the message, her brow raising as she slid off of her bed.
What the hell was going on?
That was not Gabriel's number, nor was it a message he would have sent.
A bit suspiciously she would get dressed, a pair of jeans and a tank top, nothing too fancy. She was not sure how to take this message. Either she was about to get a big shock or Gabriel was just fucking with her.
Shaking her head, she made her way down to her car, bypassing the driver for today so that she could handle this herself.
It did not take her long to pull up to his house. A smile and wave given to the security. Not like the did not see her enough.
Slipping inside of the house she made her way to the lounge. Eyes falling on Alexis and instantly her guard going up.
Nope, this would not be good, she could already sense it and all she could do was stand there and bare it. Her hands going behind her back, hiding those scars as she stepped into the room and leaned against the wall.
She could not talk still, but she could manage a couple words at a time. Better than nothing.
"You sent......for me"
Drawing in a deep breath as those icy hues settled upon the other girl.
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Post by Alexis Seran on Dec 22, 2009 20:46:08 GMT -8
She heard her walk in, and Alexis stopped playing the song. Her emerald eyes stayed glued to the faux ivory as if they were telling her to suck it up. She tried everything in her power to remain calm. The music hadn't helped her, she probably would have been more relaxed if she had more playing time.
"You sent......for me"
Alexis turned her head, so she would be able to see the girl behind her through the corner of her eye. She looked like she was a little tense.
"Loosen up. I'm not a fucking monster."
In the sense of physical fights anyway.
She stood from the piano bench and sat herself on a couch. Her expression remained straight. No sign of anger nor sadness. That very face she used to use to keep anyone out. She never wanted anyone to see how she felt, and this was one of those moments. Her hand would point to the couch across the living room table.
"I need to ask you some questions. You are going to answer them. Try and lie I dare you."
Alexis was a pathological liar and worked criminally. She wasn't stupid was trying to fuck with her.
And quite honestly, you don't fuck with a fucker.
"Do you love my boyfriend?" her calm sounding voice rang in a monotone.
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Post by Kevala Badoer on Dec 22, 2009 20:55:57 GMT -8
She would look at the couch as the girl pointed at it. Her brow raising slightly as she moved to take a seat. She listened, patiently and would brush her tongue over her lips.
It was when THE question was asked that she drew in a deep breath. Okay so yeah....this was not going to be good. Steadying her nerves she would shrug softly. The words again a struggle to get out.
"I...care for him......deeply."
Okay so that was not entirely true, but was not a lie either. She did not want to cause trouble for Gabriel. Never had she denied that she loved him. Not once.
Until now.
If it would protect him, she would do so and anything else that need be.
Those icy hues never straying from the girl. She knew, that in that moment Alexis knew the truth, she had just hoped that it would not be this bad.
But still she could not bring herself to utter the words aloud to the other girl. Her hands in her lap, her wrists down. Yeah so did not need to go there.
Her eyes would look around for a paper and pen. It would go so much easier if she could write out what she needed to say in this conversation. It was not that she did not want to talk it was that she COULD NOT. Not since the night she had tried to kill herself.
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Post by Alexis Seran on Dec 22, 2009 21:14:04 GMT -8
Her brow perked to the girl's hesitant voice. That was enough.
"Okay... so you love him.." her voice cracked when she said the words. She knew it, but she didn't want to voice out that cold hard truth. Her eyes fell to the carpet and she swallowed the lump that was forming in her throat. She needed to calm herself before she could test her voice. She didn't need anymore more of her words to crack and let the girl how she was feeling. "Honestly, don't fuck around here. This will be a lot less painful if you didn't pussy out and just tell me the fucking truth." she coughed a little, passing it off clearing her throat... though in a sense she was. That pain was lingering deep from holding her crying.
"Now that I know you love him. Did you fuck him?"
Her legs crossed and she stared at the girl, her brow perking. "I would just really like to know. You can understand where I'm coming from right? I'm sure you wouldn't be too happy having a beautiful girl going after a guy you worked so hard to get..."
She wasn't holding back. And she was sure she could black mail the girl into telling the truth.
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Post by Kevala Badoer on Dec 22, 2009 21:22:54 GMT -8
She would raise her brow, her eyes rolling softly at the words. Gah! It was not that she didnt want to, she couldnt say the words right. Holding up her finger as to say hold that thought she would jump up, running off into his office and grabbing up a notepad and pen.
Yeah, this was gonna make things so much easier.
She would return to the couch, her head lowered as she wrote down a simple statement.
It is not that I am pussying out. I cannot talk. Literally.
She would hold up the page for Alexis to read and then shrug softly. Not really put off by the conversation as much as her inability to handle it right.
She would then turn the page back to her, cross out the words she had just written and then once more take to writing.
Yes, you and I both know that I love him. But never have I slept with him. I swear this. I may be a lot of things, but I would not do that, because I know too well from being with Katsuri how that feels.
She would then turn the page toward Alexis once more. It was better having to read it than having to listen to Kev TRY and get out a couple words to sum it up.
All the while Kev would look the girl in the eyes. It was clear from her face and her eyes that she told the truth. Not to mention Kev was like the worst liar on the planet most of the time. So yeah....she had become skilled at half truths...and omissions.....Heh
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Post by Alexis Seran on Dec 22, 2009 21:38:08 GMT -8
It is not that I am pussying out. I cannot talk. Literally.
"So you are a mute as of ten seconds ago?"
The girl was scared. And there had to be reason. And when she held up the paper the second time, Alexis read it and rolled her eyes. "You are walking around it all. Kay, you may not have slept with him. Though I'm sure either of you have tried... And now with the information that you may be 'many things'... kinda makes me wonder... when you tried to sleep with him, did you kiss him?"
Alexis knew nothing, she was going off of just simply the fact she never sees Gabriel anymore. And thus far she was getting her assumptions answered true. Now she wanted to milk it.
"You might a well tell me. What you tell me now, won't effect what I will do with him soon." she wasn't lying. She just needed her assumptions to be true. She now held her hands between her legs, to hide the shaking Alexis was going through. She couldn't compete. She wasn't able to win over Reira, how is this any different. She had more history with Gabriel than he did with Reira, but she was more pretty, therefore she one. Kind of the same situation here.
She wouldn't be able to handle it again.
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Post by Kevala Badoer on Dec 22, 2009 21:48:09 GMT -8
Kevala was slowly losing her patience with this situation, but she would remain calm for the most part. Drawing in a deep breath she would turn the page back to her and write out, slowly, as to avoid messing up given her own hands were shaking at this point.
I cannot talk enough to say what you want to hear. I have not been able to in weeks now. Ask anyone. As for your question. I never fucked Gabriel, I never had sex with him, I never got undressed with him. None of that.
As for your second question. I kissed him..yes I did.
She would speak the truth in her mind. Leaving out the time that Gabriel had kissed her, just to freaking tease her. Because yeah, she could handle Alexis hating her. She just did not wish to add more trouble for Gabriel.
She thought to put how he would never be with her. How he did not want her. How she was defective and no man would ever want her like that. But it would not be heard. She knew that. Alexis had already made up her mind and well, as much as Kevala tried to change it, she could not. The harder she tried the more it would appear to Alexis that she was trying to hide something.
Gah!
MEN!!! They were so frustrating and caused way more trouble than they were worth sometimes. But in the end, she knew that she would suffer through this like she had so many other things for him. And honestly, she hated herself for that.
What the fuck are you doing? Lie. Try to lie at least. He is going to hate you after this, you know that!
I would have to agree. You are writing, you could lie on paper...Well...you could try to at least.
Kev ignored the voices and turned the page back to Alexis. She was sure she would get more comments that were meant to be hurtful, but honestly the girl could not cause her more pain than she lived with every day of her life.
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Post by Alexis Seran on Dec 22, 2009 22:08:12 GMT -8
She read what she wrote and her jaws clenched. Her glare shot up to her eyes. Her vision blurred, despite her attempts at holding everything in.
"You knew I was with him..." index finger and thumb both went to each eye, massaging them, trying to wipe out the tears. "I'm sorry I gave you cause to do this to me." she huffed in out some air, her fingers still at her eyes. "How did you do it? Play victim? Knowing damn well that's his weakness..." it wasn't a question she needed to hear the answer to. "He was with me since my sister committed suicide. Ever since then I got close to him. My fiance left me during my depression over witnessing my sister's death in the hospital bed beside my own. I always thought he hung out with me because I was her twin... I was the closest thing he could get to her.... This continuous thought of not being enough pounds in my head... when someone comes along and takes away his attention as easily as you... I can't win."
She stood up and stood near the exit. Her tears defying her wants and rolling down her cheek.
"Congratulations you ruined my life; I can add it on my tally. please leave..."
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Post by Kevala Badoer on Dec 22, 2009 22:22:27 GMT -8
She would sigh softly. She knew that this would end badly and it had. Taking the page she would flip it over and then write down one last comment, tears filling her own eyes as she handed the page to Alexis.
She had nothing left to say, nothing she could do or say would fix this and she did not wish to stay here. The emotions in the air tearing her apart inside.
On the page was a simple little statement. Something she felt was the best she could offer up at this moment.
No matter what you think. He could never love a monster.
It was the truth....it was what she was, what she had always been. People never saw past the pretty face, and when they did, they hated what they saw. It kept everyone away from her. Never once in her life had she met anyone who could truly love her. But nobody saw that, nobody saw the pain she felt or suffered through.
Nope, Kev was always the bad person.
But it was better that way. Kept her grounded. Made her see that no matter what she tried to do, in the end, she would always be the moster her family and everyone else had always seen her as.
Kevala knew deep down she would always be alone.
Forever.....
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Post by Alexis Seran on Dec 22, 2009 23:16:19 GMT -8
She handed Alexis the paper and Lexi grabbed it tight in her fist, crumpling it; Not purposely. When she left, Alexis' breath quickened and shivered. She opened up the paper and read the contents. In a low murmur she would have a silent reply to what she wrote.
"He fell in love with me...didn't he?"
She sat on the floor against the wall. Her head was tilted back and her emerald eyes stared up at the ceiling. She loved Gabriel, it was common knowledge. She loved being around him, seeing him, talking with him, and even just knowing that they lived in the same place. That is why she had to let him go. He obviously couldn't stand it. He didn't stop hanging out with Kevala when she kissed him. If Alexis was kissed by someone else she would get away from him, but he must have liked it a little to keep going back to her. Clearly Alexis wasn't giving him the attention he wanted.
Now she just had to twist the knife. Gabriel will be home soon.
(Now Gabriel's turn! YAY)
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Post by Gabriel Seran on Dec 22, 2009 23:21:54 GMT -8
Gabriel had been out roaming again, still the very stubborn prick in his side realizing he'd be just a bit stronger, just around the corner he just needed one more push, once more and he'd make it. Olivia's dream would be realized and he could bring about a peaceful destiny, something he'd been fated to do since birth. A sober facade on his features still streaming in as he made way through the door. Not a word from his lips but the calm sigh of fresh air taking in the wisps of home. What it'd felt like to indeed be home. At peace perhaps, of all things to realize he was indeed alone.
"Hey.."
Gabriel would speak softly to make sure not to disturb anyone. It had indeed been a long day, perhaps that'd just been him or his paranoid realizations, a bit of him hoped for Alexis to be there, seemed like ages since he'd last seen her.
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Post by Alexis Seran on Dec 22, 2009 23:34:15 GMT -8
She heard the door open and his soft voice. She got up and walked to greet him. A smile would be seen on her face, though the tone to it seemed grim and weak. It had been awhile since she had seen him and God did it feel go to do so.... though sadly, the event wasn't a joyous one. Her eyes were a little puffy from the tears shed while Kev's stay and she walked over to Gabe. She wrapped her arms around his waste and buried her face him his torso. Her eyes were closed tight, trying to prevent more tears. Not in a million years did she want this. If she could have it her way, they could stand in this foyer forever trapped in this moment of him in her arms.
"I...I need to say some things.... Can we sit in the living room?" she would grab his hand and lead him to the couch she was sitting on earlier. She would want him to sit near her. Her knees would be on the cushion and her shins would be tucked under her. If he sat down she would wrap her arms around his neck.
"Please tell me you understand how much I love you. I need to hear these words..."
She didn't want to leave him thinking she had thought different of him. Though she was hurt he would still hang around someone who would try and jump his guns... With a sleeve she would rib one of her eyes dry while staring at him, waiting for his answer. He would know something was up.
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Post by Gabriel Seran on Dec 22, 2009 23:43:04 GMT -8
Gabriel felt his heart ache at the sight of her, something was definitely pulling at her. There was something he could fix, had someone been hurt? A friend, most certainly not her family, had he done something wrong. He was filled with a sort of panic but made fit to be concerned and at the same time composed, if anything would help it'd be a calm approach.
"Whats wrong?" He'd say compassionately his hand coddling her face against his chest in a comforting fashion only a lover could provide.
"I...I need to say some things.... Can we sit in the living room?"
The calm motion of his hand he'd press her hair out of her face in a gentle respect.
"Of course..."
Once there they'd have more to talk about, more concerning means to discuss and Gabriel wouldn't budge in a sense other than to be there a comforting beacon to remain.
"Please tell me you understand how much I love you. I need to hear these words..."
"I do, very much so... and know that I feel the very same.. Always." Gabriel would say so kissing the same spot atop her head he'd always done so.
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Post by Alexis Seran on Dec 23, 2009 1:00:09 GMT -8
"I do, very much so... and know that I feel the very same.. Always." her eyes closed tight when he kissed the top of her head. She smiled that weak smile and would rest a hand to his cheek, directing it lower as she placed a kiss on his lips. She would let it linger, having it just as passionate as all the others. Though it was hard to do so, knowing Kev kiss those exact lips. Her mouth parted from his, though the were still brushing against each other. She was catching her breath from the long kiss she just shared.
"I love you so much..." her lips pressed to his again. Yeah, she was delaying, but what could she do? She didn't want to do it, it was just for the best. It tasted sweet, but it was unhealthy. "And I always want you..." she said her breath heavy, only to give in to another kiss. and finally she broke away. Sorrow was deep in her eyes, her face still close to his. "But I can't do this anymore... I'm not good enough for you...and I'm holding you back." her grip tightened, as if her very words would rip him away. Her body pressed to his her mouth still close to his. "And because I love you... I have to move out of the way so you can spread your wings. With me around, I'm nothing but the cage."
Her breath would still, afraid of his reply. She didn't want him to hate her because of this. She would even want to be friends with him, 'cause she still cared for him. Though it would hurt knowing he was off letting a girl get away with kissing him... and knowing she still had deep feelings for him. Besides all that, she would want to be friends and even support him.
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