Another Boring Day ( Open )

[Kevala Badoer]

I[/size]t was just another day in class, classes she THOUGHT she was done with. But apparently her missing out so much had caused a bit of a problem with her graduation. So, until she made up for the classes that she had missed out on, she was stuck here.

But at least for now it was lunch time, and of course she was outside, the place she loved the most, just sitting beneath a tree, her back against such as she laid her head back and closed her eyes.

Honestly she could not stand this whole thing but she had no choice..Pulling out her phone she checked the time. Okay, so an hour before her next class. That worked for her.

Closing her eyes she would simply lean back and let a sigh pass her lips, brushing her tongue over the lower of such as she drew her knees up and rested her arms upon them. Fingers wrapping about each other as she felt a soft breeze blow across her. A gentle yawn passing from her as she relaxed there...

Lately she had been pretty much left alone...Though that did not bother her much...Life was slowing down for her...and that was something she both enjoyed and feared.

For when things got this slow....things got bad...It was just the way things went....But only time would tell if she would continue on a peaceful and happy road or if she would find herself in more trouble once again......

(ooc: Now to see if anyone actually joins! >.< I hate making open threads! )

[Mitsukai]

Mitsukai decided to take a walk outside simply for something to do. It had been awhile since she had finally woke up in that hospital room with Kazuya and then checked up on Adrian. Both occurrences left the girl confused, hurt, and even terrified of herself and the alter ego within her that could only destroy what little relationships she had. To say that Mitsukai was hurt by all of this was a gross understatement. She had lost Adrian, a man that despite only knowing for a short while she had cared deeply for. She was not dating him or anything but to have him reject her like that had hurt. She had not wanted to hang onto him, she had no right to but that didn't make the pain go away.

She could feel herself losing her mind. She had lost all faith in her own self control and no longer trusted herself around others. She was a monster, a demon who could not hold back the beast within her and because of it she was stricken with grief. She couldn't keep going on like this but she didn't know what to do, and thinking about it was only pushing her further into insanity.

That was why she needed to do something. Anything to get her mind off of all of this no matter how brief. So long as she didn't need to think about it. She wandered aimlessly for the entire lunch period, not knowing where she was going or even cared. Her feet moved of their own accord, keeping up a stead pace as she tried to keep herself together. And then she noticed her.....

The lone figure casually leaning against a tree looking off into the distance. She knew this girl. The last time she saw her was in that cellar, she was one of the last people she saw before she blanked out, it seemed like such a long time ago now that she could barely remember it. Mitsukai stopped in her tracks not too far away from where the girl was.

"Kev..." she said, almost in disbelief for a moment she thought she was dreaming. She never knew what happened during that time, she didn't even know how Nami ended up escaping so she never knew what had happened to Kevala after that. For all she knew the other girl could be dead, hopefully this wasn't a dream but how would Kevala react to seeing her now?

[Kevala Badoer]

S[/size]he had just about been asleep, or at least in a light form of the word, when she sensed a very familiar set of emotions coming near...Her icy hues cracking open against the rays of the sun as they shifted through the branches..causing her to growl lightly.

She always did hate the sun, it hurt her eyes so badly. But then when your eyes were so close to the shade of white, they did not filter light very well.....

So, she reached up, pulling down her sunglasses from the top of her head and letting them settle into place before she would turn and look at to see Mitsu standing there......

A look of confusion on the girls face....Kev did not bring up anything that had happened, nor did she make any face to show she was surprised to see the girl...though in all honesty she was....Instead she would simply raise her brow and smile....

"You look like you have just seen a ghost. What? Think I would be gotten rid of that easily?"

She laughed softly as she nodded toward the spot next to her...She had not seen Mitsu in some time, it was good to see her again, and she hoped that they would still be able to be friends....

So much had been going on in Kev's life as of late, that she was unsure what she wanted to do anymore....But for once she had been focusing on herself and not everyone else....It was nice...and seemed to be working out for the best......

Though she still needed friends.....And Mitsu had always been her best friend....Next to Gabe of course.....But now, he was more like her brother.....so yeah.....

Eyes watching the girl as she waited for her to reply..That smile still in place as her hands remained upon her knees.

[Mitsukai]

"You look like you have just seen a ghost. What? Think I would be gotten rid of that easily?"

At first she did not know what to say. Something that seemed to be happening a lot lately. She had to mentally slap herself into action, at least physically Kevala looked okay so that meant Nami didn't get a chance to hurt her. That was at least something. Not much but something.

"What.....what happened to you?" she asked finally, hesitantly taking the seat that Kevala offered to her. Not like she was afraid of what the girl would do to her if she did. It was just she was finding it harder to go back to her normal self. She was really an emotional wreck despite her efforts she could never really go back to the way she was. It might be better for her to start distancing herself from others but at the same time she couldn't bare to do that. Especially now. What she needed was some answers. Something that might help her figure out what went wrong this time so maybe, just maybe she would never lose control again.

[Kevala Badoer]

S[/size]he knew that look, that disoriented feeling all too well....So when the girl spoke she just shrugged and leaned back into her previous position against the tree.

Her head laid back she would speak finally...her tone as soft and friendly as ever.

"Nothing. Been living with Gabe...But I am moving into my vacation home in the mountains because I am going to be living with somebody and I really dont want to have them move in with me at Gabe's house."

She shrugged, her eyes closing behind those glasses as she brushed her tongue over her lower lip and let her fingers fidget lightly...A soft sigh passing her lips as she thought of how to phrase her next question....

"So how long did she have control this time?"

Oh yeah, Kev had her own demons she fought...and she could not help but ask....Only because she worried and wanted the girl to know she was not alone.

[Mitsukai]

"Nothing. Been living with Gabe...But I am moving into my vacation home in the mountains because I am going to be living with somebody and I really dont want to have them move in with me at Gabe's house."

Well the good news was she was doing okay. At least someones life had been decent to some degree. Well from the way how she spoke it seemed like things were going steady. Too bad Mitsukai couldn't say the same for herself. Whenever something good happened there was always something else to take it away.

"So how long did she have control this time?"

Her question brought back all of Mitsukai's negative thoughts. "I......don't know....." she said, drawing her knees up closer to her body. "I can't remember much of anything.....what little memories I have are all distorted and confusing...........whats worse is I really hurt someone because of it." it was hard not to tear up even thinking about Adrian. She had hurt him so badly all because she lost control again. It was all her fault and nothing she could do could ever make up for it. She couldn't help but think that it would be better if she simply did not exist.

[Kevala Badoer]

K[/size]ev just sighed as Mitsu finished speaking. Letting the words sink in before she would speak up.

"I lost control like that a couple times. Once...when I was 14..when Sasha first came out. I dont remember much of it. And I really hurt somebody during that time. Then, over time, more and more blackouts...."

She let her memories flow, let them go back to those points in time when she had woken up with blood on her hands and bodies laying around her. Honestly, everyone thought Kev was so innocent, but they had a lot to learn.

"More and more dead bodies...More running, more hiding....Wondering why I was even here...wondering why I even tried....."

She drew in a deep breath as she turned her attention back toward Mitsu...pushing up those glasses so that her icy hues could look at the girl as she drew her knees up to herself....She knew that feeling all too well......

"But I learned to control it....To figure out how to stop it....And then way I look at it is....If I was not meant to be here....Then I would have died a long time ago....We all have a purpose..even if we do not know it right now."

She offered a reassuring smile and would then wait for the girl to respond.

[Mitsukai]

"I lost control like that a couple times. Once...when I was 14..when Sasha first came out. I dont remember much of it. And I really hurt somebody during that time. Then, over time, more and more blackouts...." "More and more dead bodies...More running, more hiding....Wondering why I was even here...wondering why I even tried....."

Mitsukai listened to Kevala's recollection of her own troubled past with her alter ego. It was funny how in that sense they were quite similar, the only thing she didn't know was how many people had died by the hands of their split personality. The only major difference between them was that Mitsukai didn't know how to control hers. She did not have to deal with Nami as long as Kevala did with Sasha. And the fact that she lost what little control she had gained made her lose any confidence that she ever could.

"But I learned to control it....To figure out how to stop it....And then way I look at it is....If I was not meant to be here....Then I would have died a long time ago....We all have a purpose..even if we do not know it right now."

"I don't know if I can keep her at bay anymore...." She said honestly. "I thought I had some control but.....the second I get into any real trouble I can't keep her away."