Honey I'm home (Eury/Mathew/Leon/Open)

[Mr. Kaar]

Leon knew, he was hoping some shed of light would come forth with her having a two year old stashed away somewhere. Yet she didn't it would seem, at least not to her own recollection, which was going to prove problematic.

Right now however the big things Leon was toying with in his head... It wasn't over this situation, strangely even he was surprised with himself at this. Eury was back, Spike was at the L.A airport maintaining troop presence. Daddy's little man bein a bad ass. Lana missing still, and the entire rest of the Sudeki clan in disarray due to the worlds current issue, Leon's mind was actually on Aryn. He couldn't find it in himself to take Eury back into his heart. Not yet.

Leon would turn as well moving back to his throne to sit, and ponder.

"Spike is at the L.A Airport, I'll have my personal Squad escort you there. I'll go to my brother, and see if he can send Rok and our father to renew the search for Lana."

[Eurydice Sudeki]

[/i] had died she would've wanted him to move on. But here's the thing she wasn't. There was another side to her feelings that felt he more than likely didn't search long enough for her or their daughters. Just gave up and moved on to the next thing. Did she really want to believe something like that? No. Why? Because she never saw him as someone that would just give up. Especially giving up on her. Maybe after all the years they had been together, maybe he had forgotten that young girl he saved. The fragile girl he gave life to. Eury wasn't the greatest with her emotions but over the years she had become a lot better at them. Expressing it as she felt them.

Right now she was actually starting to feel a lot of them. It was like a flood washing over her. It came with the territory of her gifts. Being in tuned with the surroundings and sometimes even emotions. Right now, she didn't feel so in control of the gift. Usually she was able to stifle feeling everything at once, but she was getting a vibe off him and she didn't like it. The way he turned from her, spoke to her, it made her body stand up straight. Her head tilt, her eyes stare in a confused anger. Within a quick moment she felt as though she meant nothing; at least not anymore. It was more of a dismissal than anything else. That is what was setting her aflame to wave her off like that. So many thoughts were rushing impatiently. Neither would let her process one completely before another hit. It made her head throb in pain. Her eyes shit tightly, wincing without a sound, again if there was anything that was able to be shaken rumbled very very lightly and quickly stopped. She shook her head to push it away and regain control. It wasn't like her not to. Her eyes found his form again and finally her voice opened up. Anger and hurt over his words was apparent more so in words than her tone, for she tried her hardest to keep her tone leveled. Civil. Calm. But every now and again there were harsh undertones.

"..Do not dismiss me like that, Leon...Like I'm some common person you're doing business with and it's over just like that... I'm no fool.. And if you pretend you don't know what I'm talking about then I guess maybe you do view me as one...I haven't a clue as to what's going on and you're just sending me off with nothing... Shit, I thought at least you'd give me some of your time to help me on these matters, but I see I'm wrong..."

Eury would take a deep breath again her head was growing bothersome, but she had already started and she needed to finish.

"...You know I'm very observant, you know I can sorta feel emotions or rather some notations of them...Rai's secretive nature the whole way, then Matthew's insinuations and Aryn's clear reaction I believe I figured out what Rai didn't want to say... Started to feel it from you as well just now... Your embrace seemed indifferent afterwards..Like you were happy but maybe not.. I could be upset but why should I? I was dead right? Fine... But what I don't appreciate is being treated as I never mattered..You may not be going for that, but I can't help the feeling..Something in your demeanor speaks that to me..."

Again she shook her head again lightly continuing. Could she really be blamed for at first feeling this sense of joy and hope from him, to this sudden change. A change that in some cases made no real sense. How could one drop that feeling so suddenly? Seemed out of character. So different.

"...Whatever happened, is happening..is what has been...But for me to feel that level of like I'm just somebody from you, that pain is indescribable... For whatever is to be, I won't stop you.. I can't.. What right do I really have, Leon?...This might mean nothing anymore but it's in me to say it anyways... I might not recall these past two years but..I remember the boy I met in New York... I remember the girl you met and shared a story... Got her to open up.. Made her feel like there was more to life... That she hadn't lost everything, that she had a chance...That she was something even though she felt she was nothing..No one as much as she pretended otherwise...I remember the many times you disappeared for long periods of time, not knowing where to find you.. Believing you were dead... Outside I pretended I was fine...Inside I was a wreck.. I know I never told you that or this... I came close really close to suicide the first time you went missing.. Remember I was young and still unstable from my past.. I came close cause I just wanted to be with you.. I needed you..."

She wasn't contradicting her statement about not stopping him though it may have seem that way. She was just wracked with an emotional overload that she needed to release it or her head was going to be done in. This hadn't happened in a long time this type of out of control of her gift. Towards the end her voice would seem even calmer, nothing harsh just sincerity.

"..I didn't have many friends there.. But I didn't do it and you came back.. Then again - gone... You're an emotional rollercoster sometimes you know.. But you found me here.. In truth inside I was waiting for you to find me like you did the first time... That moment on the beach I can never forget that.. Actually I can't forget a damn thing really if I tried which is way me not remembering is really weird...But no matter what I wouldn't even want to forget, they were and are the beautiful highlights of my life... As are the children you gave to me...I know that all I thought about was when I would see them again, when would I be next to you again, have you hold me again...every time I was ever away from all of you.. But that's just me... I loved and still love you that much... But what I feel is constant and deep rooted. It will never change no matter what anyone does to me.. Warp my mind but I'll always know where my heart is and because it's with you it's untouchable... The sad thing about life is that sometimes things like this stop meaning something to one or the other.. The struggles, the hardships that were endured in turn bite you in the ass... Sometimes you wonder why did you...shit, my head"

That sentenced wouldn't get finished as her mind was scattered.

"..Again what was or is...is...All these years what you never realized was that it was about your happiness, Leon... Not mine.. I cared and still care about yours over my own always... You know I'm stupidly sacrificial like that... Think about the first time we were going to marry how I ran off to save a man that was like a father I never had....There's never been a day I didn't want you.. or long for you.. I'm sure that will never change...Like I said you're the owner of my heart, no matter what goes on from here on out... I'd still give my life for the happiness of you and my children... That kind of love that you bestowed on me years ago, I can't simple discard...I never would... I laid my life in your hands, and I can't say I regret it..."


Possibly blown out of proportion, but was it really? She couldn't wait to reach him and soon as she did it was over? She felt like she was standing on a house of cards and each layer was being taken away. For who she apparently once was to him she thought she'd get a little more than what he had given. Just a little bit. Something that made her feel a bit more welcomed than outcasted by her own husband. She felt maybe he had changed so much that she lost him and in turn lost a huge part of herself. But was it all truly over? Would she fight? Wasn't all she said somewhat a protest to her feelings for him? But she was a sacrificial lamb. She always looked out for everyone else above herself. She was pretty selfless in that respect. As far as things being over, technically everything had just started. There was no end written or outlined. She was starting to feel woozy as that rush that struck her head was subsiding.

"...And I'll look for her and Elena.. Don't forget you had two daughters.. She might not be a Sudeki by blood but she is still your daughter... I'll see Spike soon...I need to find Kilik.. I'm surprise you didn't search him out...Shit my head is doing me in right now.."

She spoke as she started to walk away from him as well. Her head looked down at her left hand where his ring sat comfortable, yet now it felt like it weighed a ton. Though she didn't mention the fact that she clearly was no longer pregnant. Had he too forgotten that she had been carrying another child of his? Yet now she wasn't. That was one emotion that she had been keeping in the entire way to him. She didn't know how to bring it up. It killed her inside to know that more than likely she lost this child completely. Their child. How could he ignore that?

"..I'ma just go...I'm sorry I went on like that.. I'm not feeling like myself.. My head is just.."

She'd stumble in her walk, dropping to a knee. Taking a breath or two to gather herself, she stand back up almost just as quickly. She had a stubborn nature that had calmed a little over the years, but it was ever so present again. If he inquired about her being alright she'd continue with this. If he or anyone had even touched her they'd notice that she was shaking just a little. He would notice that there indeed was something off, terribly off. And there was a high chance that Eury was converting back to that girl he met long ago before she opened herself. She probably shouldn't be on her own, but it she felt that he didn't really want her to stay much longer so she decided to just remove herself. She ranted and well maybe she wanted a response but her brain couldn't handle anymore. She needed to leave. And she would no matter what cause she needed to regroup. As much as a part of her wanted him to really come after her, the other part prayed he didn't. She was too sensitive right now. Not necessarily emotionally, but her gift was picking up too much to retain. She needed to get a handle on it completely again. Meditating was the best. She'd see her son once she was ready.

"...I'm alright.. I just...If the layout hasn't changed I'll find my way to my old house... Hopefully my things are still well hidden... Maybe.. maybe we can talk again ok?.. I'm sorry, you know I don't mean to be a determent ... Right now I just, I feel out of control...Too much is coming in at once..I-I don't know why..I should just go"

With that she'd probably just keep walking. She'll ask someone for where they were exactly once she was out there. The conversation she didn't really want to keep going at this point. Hopefully he knew that. If he was as wise as she always knew he was, he'd know not to respond right now. Though she might've wanted him to in some sense, she rather him now. She just needed to go. What was going on with her just wasn't normal. A sharp pain was entering her chest and her left hand shot up to place itself in that spot. The hand upon her chest glowed faintly quickly and briefly, as if her control over psy energy spontaneously was showing giving a peek a boo, before dissipating. Stubbornly she didn't make a sound. Though her face showed it not as though he could 'see' it. She was scared though if her gifts were acting out she needed to get away from people. She always refused to be weak, show it or let it consume her. She had a handle on her powers, well she did once. That seemed diminished now. Wherever she had been there was a high chance something might've been done to her. But what? If anything more than likely she would end up pushing him away from her just because she was fearful of hurting him.[/ul][/font][/font]

((OOC: I apologize it's so long... O___O))

[Mr. Kaar]

"Eury."

Leon would say to stop her, not commanding, soft, sullen, and cold.

"Look, I'm not trying to dismiss you, there is too much going on as you said to really get a grasp of things. Hope is a dangerous thing right now and my choker isn't allowing me to feel what I'm supposed to. Not only that, but when I was captured by Barker, he trapped me in a hallucination of killing you over and over again. It's... Broken me."

Leon wasn't sure how to explain everything that had happened, he was hoping he wasn't being too blunt, but his choke collar was on and it was doing its job.

[Eurydice Sudeki]

At the sound of her name she paused, hesitant to turn to face him. Her body was reacting weird. Her mind was thrown in so many directions. Feeling was awkwardly difficult even though it didn't come across as such. In the beginning she wasn't showing so much emotion but now it had flooded her uncontrollably. Hers yet almost not. This wasn't how she would normally respond. Nothing was exactly normally about her currently and it would seem that it was the same for him. She felt something off from him and apparently she hit the nail pretty straight on. Her body turned half way to face him as he spoke. His words only added confusion to her already twisted mind. Her heart still was beating faster than it should, her head still dancing distorting her vision every now and again.

~Choker?... Choker not allowing him to feel? What?..~

Quizzically she stared at him about that notion. He was wearing something to stop him from feeling? And then what Barker had done to him. And he openly admitted to her that he was broken? Anger started to swarm inside of her and since the wave of emotions that hit her earlier, that anger was quite intense. Damn that gift when it wasn't in check. But Eury tried and tried hard to hold that in as her hand trembled slightly at the tension in her head. Through the pain she actually understood. Hope was a dangerous thing in these or any times, but yet it was the only thing that some people had left. And in that, many felt strong. Hope for love. Hope for a better future. Of course with that hope comes the potential of someone taking that away from you. She knew that all to well. But he and the family he gave her was her hope and he was still here. He wasn't the only one broken, she felt it to. Again she couldn't remember. Again taken from him. Again momentarily she felt weak though she would never show it. She hated showing it, cause deep down she knew she wasn't so weak. But things happened none the less, yet she had been through so much in her life she knew there was a strength.

"...Leon..."

It came out so softly as she faced him fully now. Tightly her eyes closed due to the swelling anger her gift was forcing into her. She needed a handle on it and fast. Funny how it seemed like he didn't catch her saying she felt out of control. Was that choker really even preventing him from concern about that?

"...I-I'm sorry..."

She wanted to hug him, which made her walk back in his direction - stopping just before him - but she wouldn't raise her arms to embrace. She was still fearful of her gift while she felt out of control like this. She used Psy energy forcefully and depending on the concentration she could cut nerves and limbs. She didn't want to risk that.

"..I understand, yet I don't...I can't give up hope.. It keeps me going.."

Hopefully he would understand what she meant by that. The hope of seeing him again. Seeing her child grow and such. Hope was a powerful thing for someone and a powerful tool for an enemy. This was why she understood, but she was too stubborn to let it go from her own heart. She already was awkward in her feelings. The only reason she was like this now was the gift. Before getting there she seemed numb in a small sense, but now it was like an explosion. Though she was taming it best she could but it was a struggle.

"..Like I said I don't feel like myself, and I felt you were different... Again my love I'm sorry...I'm seriously feeling out of control and I'm-I'm.... I'm afraid Leon..."

Wow, did she admit that? Yes she did. Words Leon surely hasn't heard come from her lips not since they first met.

"..Something is wrong with me, I can feel it.. I guess you're not the only one that's broken. Heh, as much as it pains me to admit even to you it's the truth...I really don't know what happened to me.. All I know is I'm not right... But you, whatever you've been through.. I feel this rage building right now from what you've said about Barker and even about that choker... Why are you wearing that? Can't you take it off? Or is it you don't want to?... Maybe you think things won't be ok if you do...And if you do feel that way, I can tell you I'll make sure it will be..."

She wanted to punch something for sure just to let it out. But right now as usual she was being selfless. A part of her wanted to leave cause she needed to. Another part wanted to stay cause she wanted to. She always promised to be there and usually was unless of course she was taken away. Yet there was still an uncertainty about either option. But the one thing that was certain was she would always try her hardest to ensure the happiness of her love, of her family and friends. Even risking her life. As she's done so quite often. Subconsciously her left hand reached up towards his face gently being placed against his cheek, not as smooth as usual due to the dirt and apparent dried blood on them, but it was in a reassuring manner. Eury had changed a lot from their high school sweetheart days. She had grown up in some aspects, other parts die hard. Typical right?