Jeopardy of the Lost [IMRP LOG]

[Eurydice Sudeki]

[OOC: To finally complete this. Timeline purposes this was placed just before the war. Thanks John for the title XD]

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::Times had been quite confusing lately for Eury. She really needed time to think and process but that wasn't going to happen anytime soon since that morning while she was moving her clothes around something fell out. It was the piece of the creature from that night. How the hell she forgot about it was beyond her. As much as she wanted to check it out she needed the tools and she only knew one place. The circuits might've been ok considering the cautionary steps Kilik had taken, but the power was indeed out. There was something else she needed to do as well. Why not kill two birds with one stone? Leaving her home she headed for the Lightning Tower. A place she hadn't really visited since Leon disappeared, even when he came back it was brief. Once she reached, she asked for his whereabouts. Learning he was in his war room she made her way there. Normally she probably would've knocked but this Eury wasn't really in the mood for any sort of nonsense or even pleasantries truthfully. Her frustration had been showing its ugly head lately. But she so far remained a steady calm as she just opened the door without a word as she entered. Her hazel greens would just end up locking onto him no care if anyone else was in the room, meaning she didn't pay her usual respect of hello. Just pure silence::.

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon was alone in the room, looking over maps, pictures, and field reports. At the sound of the door he looked up to see Eury. He'd take his attention from his studies to wait for her to speak.

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::She'd stare at him for a moment, looking over his silhouette, noting that something was indeed different. His eyes. She really didn't notice at his little showing when he gave up his title. A rare thing indeed considering how much she paid attention to just about everything around her::.

"So you can see now huh?"

Mr. Kaar said:

"Indeed. Side effect of giving my Qi to Lucien."

He'd continue to stare wondering at the situation.

Eurydice Sudeki said:

"Ah."

.::In truth there was a part of her that wanted to inquire about the whole title transfer thing, yet at the same time she truly didn't care so much about it like everyone else did. Just a mere small curiosity she would let flake in the wind. After a little bit Eury would casually walk more into the room yet not towards him as probably expected. She would instead stop at the other side of the table and glance down at what he was looking at only to have her eyes slowly look up to him::.

"Yet you still don't look so happy to see me."

.::Her voice just seemed a bit dry, like the words spilled with no real thought or feel to them due to her eerie calmness. The state of calm no one wanted her in because she couldn't be read. Not as though she was able to be read on a normal basis but it this state made it even harder to get the smallest beat. But he should've known her well enough right? 10 years of marriage and all right? Though technically it was 8 years of marriage with her physically around since for two she was absent::.

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon was perturbed by the calm. Some anger, some conflict, a sore face, loose tooth, something. This reasonable conversation was strange.

"Its not that I'm unhappy. I'm ecstatic to see you, alive even. I'm unsure, lost, and stuck. I've not been in a situation like this, and do not know the correct path."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::Her eyes fixated eerily dead into his blues for a moment before glancing down again. A hand gently sliding any one of the papers towards her. She wasn't REALLY looking at it in truth. It all came with the territory of her calm. Her voice continued to exuded it. He wasn't the only one lost. She was probably even more so than he::.

"I remember when you were happy or as you say ecstatic to see me, this surely wasn't it..."

.::She paused her eyes meeting his again::.

"You dismissed me in a way once, though you don't call it that... At your showing I kinda expected you to stop me from leaving, you let me leave..Sounds like you've chosen to me, whatever it is you're supposedly stuck on, lost or unsure of...Or am I to believe you constantly letting me walk away or disappear without you coming for me, looking for me is a good sign?"

.::She wasn't there to argue nor was she even trying to. But things don't always go as planned::.

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon watched and listened.

"Besides finding you, I don't think anything in the last few weeks has been a good thing. I do not know how to confront you about this, and your right I have chosen. I chose you. I've been trying to size up if you where willing to do the same."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::Briefly she had glanced away only to have her attention drawn back completely by his final words. He wanted to see something in her face? Fine he definitely got a squint out of her.::.

~Was he testing me? Me? Like I'm the one that needed to be tested?~

.::Everything he said went out the window for the moment as she seemed focused on the ending statement. A tinge of annoyance seeped into that formerly calm tone, her eyes flickering purple for a moment. She was certainly not happy. Eury didn't like to be tested when she knew how true she was::.

"Are you fucking serious? Were you really trying to test me? Me? Like I needed to be sized up.. Tch so suddenly you don't trust me? You don't believe me? All I've done and put up with and I'm the one being tested.. this is.. this is fucking rich Leon."

.::She actually scoffed with a smirk that led into a low chuckle about it all. If he wanted to size her up he couldn't have possibly assumed to accomplish such a thing from a far. Kinda got to be around to do so properly.

"You know I stayed here because of you. I waited for you again. You know that's a pattern with you? You leave and I'm left waiting. But if I leave would you ever wait as long as I ever did? Doubtful."

.::She was showing it now just a bit. Some emotion that he wanted to maybe see. But the thing was out of anger it made her say things maybe she didn't fully mean. Sure she needed tough love, but maybe she needed a warm kind of love as well from time to time. She really did resent being seemingly tested or sized up. He should know that after all their years. But that didn't mean that underneath it all she didn't understand his questioning. If it was about her having gone missing and turning back up, then it was reasonable. But it sounded far different than that which made her unappreciative of the notion::.

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon would wait only a few moments.

"Yes, you needed to be tested. There is no telling the things that have gone on since your absence with the entire world under Barker's control. I've been experimented on, I've been cloned. If he can get to me he can get to almost everyone. Not to mention what I've learned recently."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::Eury cocked her head to the side a little. Considering with what he said actually threw her a little off. She thought it was reference into something else. Her face didn't change::.

"Wait a minute.. You were testing if I was me? Cause it sounded like you were testing if I would choose you. You can't test me either way if you aren't even around first of all. I refuse to let you get in my head again about that. I am me. I don't know what you want me to do to prove it. In truth you should be proving to me that your choice is true."

.::She paused sighing to regain control of herself::.

"I take it whatever you learned has influenced a lot hasn't it?"

.::Her way of asking if he was going to share. But she did want to know what she could do to prove herself to him. And she wanted proof of his love back. It wasn't too much to ask of considering. From the both of them that is::.

Mr. Kaar said:

"Well I know you brought something back from your encounter with a creature. It's secrets will reveal to you the proof you need of what I have learned... As much as what you think you know of yourself, you are wrong. As much of what you know of me... Is also wrong."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::Finally a real expression on her face was shown as her eyes grew just a little wide while she stood a little taller staring at him. A hand was in the pocket that held the piece, rubbing her thumb against it::.

"How the fuck do you know that? I don't get confused easily but I actually am utterly confused by this.."

.::She stared in such puzzlement at him. Leon wasn't a psychic and she wouldn't open her mind so easily. She kept it under lock and key as much as she could. How could he have possibly known what she found that day?::.

"As long as I've known you you're suddenly telling me I'm wrong?"

~The hell if someone tells me I'm wrong about myself.~

Mr. Kaar said:

"How about we go do some tests on the thing and you'll know more."

Leon would turn to show the door.

"I know the best place."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::She stared blinking at him. She did need a place to test it, but she wanted to go somewhere she was comfortable with. A place she knew well. Where he wanted to go gave her pause::.

"You tell me this and you just want me to suddenly follow you? Seriously?"

.::Though there was no denying her curiosity was taking over inside, tugging at her. Eagerly wanting to know::.

Mr. Kaar said:

"It's easier to show you than explain it."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::She really hadn't curbed her curiosity when it came to these things. Sighing she walked up to him and stood between him and the door, looking dead in his blues like she was searching for something. Despite all this she somehow still wanted proof of his choice. She remained there for a moment until she decided to walk out the door only pausing in the hall unless he had stopped her for any other reason. She suddenly wasn't so sure about everything. Again he managed to create some form of doubt in her mind but this doubt was possibly a little more acceptable than before::.

[Eurydice Sudeki]

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon would follow behind and lead Eury out of the tower, out of the compound and out of Dragon territory. To Barker territory, and getting a Barker patrol to show them to the nearest facility.

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::Eury would follow silently for awhile until they reached Barker's territory. She had gotten accustom to knowing the uniform of his men. A part of her wanted to pause and question but she had always known him to do things she didn't always agree or understand. But this was taking the cake. Barker? The one he accused of some much. Eury looked up to Leon as they were led, speaking calmly as possible::.

"What did you do Leon? You said Barker this Barker that and yet here we are... And I'm the one being mistrusted?"

Mr. Kaar said:

"I did what happened to you. We'll get to that. This is how I found out what I know now. You will too. Even more so I don't know the things you do."

Leon would pause.

"Like where our last child is."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::She paused as she just felt a coldness from him instead of the warmth that maybe she secretly wanted to feel. Secretly because she was a bit not herself in a sense of a part of her was somewhat in a I don't care mode yet I care::.

"Things I do? You make it sound like I secretly plot against you. You should know me better than that."

.::Then again she did keep secrets well. And she did know how not to truly show her truest self or intentions. Hearing his pause and his next words her eyes widened a bit, then settled::.

"Our child? You know or you don't know? If you do you better tell me."

.::Her fist clenched at her right side. She was angry on a few levels and he knew how she felt about the potential lost of that child and how she blamed herself. But if he was saying their son was truly alive she needed to know where he was. What happened to him? If he was she somehow knew, that was saying something cause she didn't even know where her daughters were, considering the belief they were still alive::.

Mr. Kaar said:

"Well all I know is the secret is up in that brain of yours. And to restore your memory, I have to bring you to where you have been the last two years."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::Eury's head was slowly starting to get done in by all the info. She was at Barker's the past two years? He brought her here to restore her memory. Did she really want to know now knowing that? One thing she noticed was that she couldn't handle too much mentally because her head usually started to hurt and she got dizzy. Now that was something she would've liked to know why that occurred. Her eyes squinted to the mental pain she was starting to feel::.

"You're making my head hurt... I've been with Barker so you say and you're just randomly ok with all this? The hell happened to you?"

.::She wasn't being completely objective either to being there but he had to have known that she would continue on if it brought her answers on their child. He knew what family meant to her. She really would do just about anything for her family::.

Mr. Kaar said:

"Well after the past month, yes. I am completely fine with this."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::Eury's eyes blinked a few times as she stared at him. Now she was more curious and that was driving her forward::.

"People say I'm cryptic.. I can't say I'm ok with this and I don't know how you are.. The man I knew I doubt he would be...you have changed.."

.::She looked off for a moment then back at him with a sigh. She didn't want to press on yet she so wanted to on so many levels. She really couldn't believe that he would be ok with someone taking her from him for so long and doing what was done to her. If the roles were opposite she would've never been ok with it. But she pressed on with him because it could lead her to finding their lost son. But believe she was not happy::.

"I hate my curiosity... I'll find out what happened with our son if I do this? that's what you're saying right? I did bring this piece to see what it was."

.::She finally took it out her jacket pocket to show him::.

"If it leads to him then I how can I deny it."

Mr. Kaar said:

"Yeah we will find out where he is and what happened to him. I've asked around but the ones who know are dead, and your the only one, even with your broken memory."

Leon would look at the piece.

"I don't know the project."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::She was secretly weary about it. But somehow she still held a trust for the man before her. Her husband even though she wasn't feeling his love just yet. She looked down at the piece and clenched it tightly, her eyes slowly turning up to him::.

"I want to trust you.. I do trust you but I can't help be weary about all this. You know how I feel about losing control. I told you at the tower when I came back I didn't feel right. What if whatever brings back that gap makes me lose control?"

~What would you do?~

.::She thought to herself. She was clearly going to go through with it despite the risk he would've known that, but still she held a reserve if she lost her control. She wanted anything but that. Losing control was a fear of hers. Being unable to possibly tell friend from foe. She really really didn't want to do this or be there. But she had to get her son back. Her family needed repairing in so many ways and that couldn't be done with them scattered to the wind::.

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon would lead them to the base and down to the lab and up to the augmentation tube.

"If you lose control I'll help you gain it back."

He said matter of factually like it was the most simple thing in the world.

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::She followed and her head only began to throb more. Things seemed familiar and it hurt more to try and remember. Stopping she placed her free hand on a nearby desk to keep herself up as she was starting to feel a bit faint::.

~Shit. my head is killing me~

"You say that with a lot of certainty... Especially with how different you seem..."

.::Straightening herself just a little but still keeping the hand on the table she looked at him and the tube. She'd had been experimented on in the past and this was something she wasn't going to enjoy. She didn't even want to step a foot near it even with her wanting to know for the sake of getting her son back. Leon just might have to coach his wife over to it cause she currently wasn't budging. What kind of crazy nonsense was all this?

'Hey honey just get in the tube. Everything will be perfectly fine. We're all fine here. Nope nothing strange at all' Yeah ok::.

~I don't like being poked and prodded.. hell if I want to get stuck in a tube~

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon would help her to the tube.

"This should only take an hour."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::And she would resist a little holding a position like a rock just in front of the tube as she turned and stared up to him her back openly facing the tube::.

"You're seriously freaking pushy right now..You tell me you choose me, but don't show it. Then lead me here tell me I've been with Barker for two years now you're seriously trying to shove me in a damn tube so calmly?"

.::Eury would probably continue to ramble or rather rant a little if he didn't shut her up. It was something she did from time to time when she was either really upset, or rather nervous about something. The years they spent together he would know the ways to silence her. Funny how it usually consisted of a kiss and physical activity but now wasn't the time for the physical aspect was it. And if he hit her she would hit him back and did they really need to fight now? There was one other potential option but that might just make her really angry. That being if he pushed her inside forcefully::.

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon would pause and wait a few moments, taking a deep breath and sighing.

"Very well."

Leon would take two or three steps back. Looking to his left then right others moving away from him.

"Adapt!"

And with that a very dark navy blue exo-skeleton would wrap all of Leon's body except the very top of his head and ears. Some sort of blades coming from his elbows, his calphs, his fore arms, and his knees.

"The tube will unlock the knowledge of your own transformation. This I believe will lead to your memories returning."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::That wasn't expected at all. He was indeed truly different. Suddenly a bit more strict with her. Instead of the normal way he used to stop her from rambling she stopped herself by watching his actions. The suddenness of how the others moved away and a word he spoke that immediately was followed by his body transforming. Oddly enough her eyes didn't widen. She didn't feel any form of fear, only a sense of familiarity sounded her. She just stared almost emotionless at him, her eyes trailing up and down his form. When she thought he changed she didn't mean so literally. What happened to the man she loved? The man that saved her from a lonely path. An almost destructive path.

But her own transformation? Was she something like that? What the hell had they done to her if all this was true? And he really truly was ok with it? They took the woman he married, the mother of his kids and did who knows what and he was fine with it? Who the hell would be fine with that? With that being said what if he was lying to her? He was different after all. What if Barker never took her and he was bringing her here because he was under some control and wanted to do the same to her? Giving the false pretense that it would lead to her regaining her memory and finding out about their missing son that he was so confident was still alive. She on the other hand was very unsure about that factor from the start. Calmly her voice broke the awkward silence, her eyes never leaving him. He was far too eager to get her in that tube. But at the same time she could've been being a bit more on the paranoid side thinking ill will because of it::.

"When I said you changed I didn't expect this.. Can't say I'm thrilled at all. I don't know what you did to yourself or why. But right now I'm having a hard time believing that tube will do anything. You say it'll reveal my own transformation on an assumption Barker had me and had done that to me too. Glad you're so ok with the fact of me getting taken, poke and prodded and turned into something like that."

.::She mentioned motioning to his sudden form. Though she'd be lying to herself if she didn't think it was kinda cool::.

"You're too eager to get me in there and that makes me weary on top of how cold you're being towards me. I'll say it again you choose me but are you just saying that to butter me up or what?"

.::Oh she was stalling indeed, though she was more than serious in her words as well. She really wanted to know, but at the same time she was starting to feel a strange sensation within her. She couldn't place what it was or even why. But if all he said was true did she really need to enter that tube again? If it was true then why was she so free as of late yet when she tried to remember or got too upset she felt a terrible headache and faint? Her husband. Her real husband the one that she loved and shared a life with would always know her stubbornness and accepted that about her as she accepted his. For some reason instincts pulled her away from the table and more in the middle so that she was in a straight line facing a little sideways towards him. Like she was preparing herself for him, for what he might say or do next. Her nerves were getting to her and that proof was through her rambling and stalling. She was thinking too much on the matter. But she was a thinker. But here she needed to take that leap of faith on top of it all::.

~Curiosity and wanting to know about my son makes me almost want to jump in that tube, but everything else is stopping me. What is this strange feeling though? I can't place it but it's keeping me calm, like all this is ok. How could it be ok? Like I know all this. Like I'm vividly familiar with it but I shouldn't be unless it's true I was here.~

Mr. Kaar said:

Leons fist was clenching and he was starting to lose his patience.

"Eury!"

He'd finally get out before the spikes on his elbows would extend, in a flash he'd kill the surrounding scientists.

"We do not have time for this! Think about it closer. You where pregnant when you vanished. You spend yur time here, then you escape and your not pregnant. Think about who has our son!"

Yeah so he was getting pissed off.

"And think about who the worlds enemy is..."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::Mental thoughts shattered like glass from his outburst. Death was nothing knew to her at the surrounding scientist were killed instantly. She just stared at him as she felt his rage hit her hard. Why was she so hesitant? Why was she holding back? Yet all at the same time she wanted to proceed forward. Why was she so emotionless to the whole thing? Even when she questioned his love for her it was almost dry, like she didn't exactly cared but she did care otherwise why ask? Eury possessed psy powers, could it be possible the block was her own? But she never used her abilities that way didn't even know she could considering she tried. Maybe during that time something extra awakened and allowed it for her own protection.

She was well aware of being pregnant and coming back not. She thought she lost him, but Leon was right their youngest son possessed both their blood and they were both stubborn as hell and not easily taken out. Suddenly emotion finally came into her and if he looked into her eyes even with their small distance he would see a sudden sorrow despite her face remaining straight::.

"And if you're wrong? Are you sure he has him? Do you truly know with the utmost certainty?"

.::She got he was angry and he wasn't the only one. She expressed that the first time and she got nothing. It's almost like the tables turned though she was starting to show something. With secret caution she walked past him and stopped just in front of the tube, her back to him::.

~What if I lose control? I don't want to lose that~

"We've been together for a long time. Been through a lot of shit. I've trusted you, I guess I shouldn't stop that trust now right?"

.::She would look over her shoulder to him. Almost asking him with her eyes not to let her go. Not to let her lose herself in this. She was counting on him::.

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon would nod, and when she questioned his knowledge he'd brush a hand against his head.

"I get flashes. Every time they give me orders, I can dig a little deeper into their minds. I've seen him with Barker... And you."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::Her brow actually perked a bit to his statement. So he was under control of some sort and he could travel in their thoughts more when they did? For one that person or rather persons suck at keeping others out when giving orders. But this didn't make her feel at ease at all. Sighing she closed her eyes and shook her head::.

~I knew it. Why the hell did you do this?~

.::Something was telling her he willing went through with whatever it was he did to himself. She really didn't believe that he got himself captured, or at least she didn't want to. Then again it also had to do with the fact she knew he did obscured things.::.

~Fucking hell if he's under some kind of command or control then I might be screwed cause ...ugh.. I can't keep second guessing right now. I have to think about my son, our son. I've thought nothing more than just on my kids. I haven't looked for my girls and that shit is killing me, if this REALLY will tell me about him I just have to go in with hope. I guess it's on me in every way. Fuck I hate this.~

.::He probably would feel the hint of anger in her tone::.

"Fine! Fine! I'll get in the damn tube. I swear if this is all a lie and somehow I'm able to break whatever JUST might happen to me, I'm seriously going to kick your ass."

.::She would say turning towards him and poking at his chest (if he was facing her) or the back of his head. Now if she hadn't FULLY sounded like herself this whole time, she did just then and Leon could say with certainty that THAT was his girl. Maybe she would've gotten a smirk out of him despite it all. With that she'd turn and with a huge deep breath, shake off her nerves and actually enter the tube. The hell was she thinking. For family::.

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon would smile at her words, feeling the anger he finally waited for her to get it out of her system and get in the tube. The mask would drop for her to put on before it would start filling with the synthesized embiotic fluid. Once full Leon would hold up a thumbs up to see if she was okay at this point. If she was he'd hit the start button and the fluid would charge. It wouldn't be painful, but it would force a transformation.

At this point he would wait an extra couple of seconds before draining the tube. He'd be on the edge of his seat at this point... Hoping his theory was a probability.

Eurydice Sudeki said:

~Oh don't you smile now mister~

.::She placed the mask on as much as she didn't want to and took in another deep breath. She noted his thumbs up and nodded back with a mocking thumbs up back and closed her eyes as the tube filled. The change itself didn't cause pain. She was seemingly fine as the pressure of the transformation took over. As the tube drained she was obviously much more different. Her eyes were still closed as a hand reached up and removed the mask and she took a step out. Though as she did she immediately dropped to the floor on her hands and knees breathing heavily and suddenly in extreme discomfort. Her eyes to close tighter to it. Her fist clenched, clawing at the floor. There was a mental stress taking over her, she felt like her mind was forcefully being broken into. Her teeth clenched as her hair laid wet covering her face. So many images were starting to flood her at once it was mentally taxing::.

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon would move to kneel next to her not wanting to touch her and set off some sort of defense response and get blasted.

"Take deep breaths... Wait it out. Don't force it and don't allow it to force itself on you."

Leon didn't know her transformation was so... Formidable looking. Made him want to fight her when she felt better.

[Eurydice Sudeki]

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::She fingers clawed almost wanting to dig into the floor itself. She struggled trying to slow down the memories gritting her teeth as she spoke::.

"Ea-sy for you"

.::Images continued to flash from Barker, to others involved with him to a baby who suddenly wasn't a baby anymore. She didn't do it to be alarming to him but her right arm shot out and grabbed tightly on his shoulder. She always had a bit of a vice grip. As quickly as the pain rushed it quickly vanished leaving her mind drained. He could her the rasped breathing coming from her and the grip loosening on his shoulder becoming gentler. Her eyes slowly opened as her head raised to him, he could finally see the crimson red orbs that her eyes changed to::.

"He's...he's not...a child.."

.::Weird and cryptic yes. Right now she didn't know if he knew that factor or not. Yes he said he saw him but saw him at what stage? In truth he should've only been 2 years old. All the other images that flashed she didn't fully focus on just yet. Not as though she could with the way it hit her like a wrecking ball::.

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon looked at her and tried not to react when she grabbed his shoulder suddenly, but it was gone quickly, just seemed the rush was intense. She relaxed and gave him the information he needed. He thought it was suspicious in the thoughts as the image never took full form in the memories. No one form stuck in the minds of people he was able to dig through.

"Makes sense. Don't push it though. That's more than enough for right now."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::Tiredly she stared at him, but yet there was a strength still hidden in her eyes::.

"You hurried me in there for a reason, don't tell me it's enough. It's not enough until we find him... They did something to him."

.::Eyes remained on him::.

"It's not so focused right now, I can't say where he is but I need to know where he is. I already didn't search for our daughters will you really stop me on this one? This is a bit different. You said it Barker's everyone's enemy what if he uses him... uses Sage."

.::She blinked realizing she said a name. That was his name. Then she finally noticed her hand on Leon's shoulder and blinked again removing it looking at both her hands and then down at herself. She felt like something was on her head and ran her hands up to the protruding thingies from the crown. She quickly got up searching for some sort of mirror, once found she'd look herself over::.

~This is what they did to me? It's not bad. Kinda of hot not gonna lie...What the hell don't think like that Eury! It's not a good thing. Lord knows what else they did~

.::From the mirror she noticed behind her on the table was the piece she brought and she turned around::.

"What about that piece of the creature?"

.::Suddenly she was a bit all over the place. Focused yet unfocused::.

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon would think for a moment.

"It was your project, you tell me."

Though by this time everyone knew. He was a member of The God territory. Otherwise known as Omega, one of the seven stars of the big dipper constellation. Or Knights of the North Star. Strike being slightly impatient after finding out Omega could handle a mask and stay sane tried having Eury apply more than one mask, which warped his body and mind. His escape was due to the unstable power.

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::Eury would blink confused for a moment::.

"The hell you mean my project?"

~I didn't work for them did I? Tell me I didn't~

.::The memories were there but they were a mess at the moment. This was unacceptable to her to have been taken, mind warped, and made to use her knowledge of sciences to help the likes of them. Quick flashes hit her hard causing her to wince in pain and hold her head with her right as she tried to catch herself from her stumble with her left on a nearby desk. Images of her working in a lab flickered. She helped with the mask for Strike? What else had she done?::.

"I-Wha-what did I do?"

.::Disbelief, disheartened and certainly anger was swirling in her unable to pick one over the other as the hand on the desk gripped hard on the edge::.

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon would move to put a hand on her shoulder to turn her around. Where he would look her in the eyes.

"You did what you thought at the time was what you where supposed to. You had no control."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::Feeling him turn her. She just barely let go of her tight grip of the table. Her currently red orbs starred back into his eyes, though her vision blurred briefly from the pain and the sudden motion no matter how light the turn was. She hadn't felt this helpless or weak in a very VERY long time. If anyone knew her well enough would know that was exactly what she was feeling deep inside. In between their bodies her hands would raise up to her own chest level. She'd glance down at them still in disbelief. Not even grasping how ok Leon was with it all. She was too preoccupied elsewhere in her mind::.

"How much damage have I truly caused by what I've done. I should've been in control. How did I not resist more? I'- I'm not so damn weak."

.::Her fist would start to clench as she tilted her head back up to her husband possibly looking for some kind of reassurance. Anything he could give her. But still she couldn't hold back the hint of anger that came through her teeth as she spoke and her red orbs held the liquid back from coming down her face::.

"I'm not."

Mr. Kaar said:

"Your not weak. But being captured by an organization that has a profession of brain washing, you didn't resist because you didn't see a reason to"

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::Eury blinked in disbelief of what she heard. Didn't see a reason? Her? not see a reason to resist? Both fist quickly went flush against her sides like a frustrated child. If he allowed her to move away from him she would getting more angry with him and the situation. It's funny how she forgot where she even was. In the frying pan. In the enemies territory. She'd paced a few frustrated steps away before turning with a snap to him. Her voice certainly loud to vocalize all her anger for herself and more::.

"Didn't see a reason too?! I see plenty of damn reasons for me to have resisted! I had every damn reason to resist! How- How can you- I.. You and our family mean everything to me! That's reason enough!"

.::It's as if she was calling herself weak. She might've been saying she had a moment of weakness or maybe it was because he didn't know the full story. Hell she didn't know the full story yet. She didn't let the memories fully flood her yet to say so. Maybe she wasn't conscious at all when it occurred? That would explain a lot. But there she proclaimed her feelings once more if he didn't understand that yet. She damn near wanted to grab him and shake him or something::.

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon would shake his head.

"Then they used that, maybe programmed your brain to believe what you where doing was for our family."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::Her eyes narrowed just a bit. It was rare to see her rage in any form::.

"There's no damn way I would've believed that shit. I don't care how damn good they are."

.::That was saying something considering she hopped in the tube as a means to find out what happened to her son. She found herself pacing a little, another thing he would know she only did when either really mad or frustrated or nervous. Then found herself coming back in front of him preparing to say something before pain overtook her again. Gripping her head she would find herself falling to her knees unless he caught her. Again flashes upon flashes, but some of them seemed to be completely elsewhere. Somewhere she was unfamiliar with. A face she didn't know in any form. Herself attached to a machine with a helmet over her head how she managed to see this considering was beyond her. A familiar grin crossed her thoughts as it kept going and going, somewhere turning to do something with Strike's project. She gritted through her teeth::.

"Mak-make it stop."

.::Voices filled her head with such loud echos::.

Mr. Kaar said:

"I can't make them stop."

Leon would say as he lowered Eury down to the floor instead of letting her fall or making her stay standing.

"You can, focus on my voice, your reasons for wanting control of your own thoughts. These are nothing but echoes."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

"I-I hate his laugh."

.::Who's laugh? It could've been anyone's. But she actually shivered a little in Leon's arms the laugh getting so loud in her head. Caleb's laugh she always hated his laugh. He was the only one that made her shutter. She tried so hard to focus on Leon's voice but everything was screaming at her at once almost drowning him. It wasn't orders just the awful din. She tried to bring her face up to his. How pitiful she felt. She almost didn't want to look at him just so he couldn't see her face, but she did managing to press her forehead against his.

It was for her to rest against as her head fell so heavy. Her hands placed on his shoulders for some support. Her eyes straining to stare into his. She was trying so hard to find focus. Her lips hovered very closely to his wanting to reach but holding back as her head rung like a church bell::.

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon would get a quick flash and torrent of images, but the one that stuck out was of a young man with dark hair and dark eyes wearing a Barker uniform doing checkpoint work on the border of California.

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::Eury had no idea what she had done. What she had shown him. All she knew was she was in pain and was trying to grasp at something to take her mind away from the pressure and echos. Different voices. Different images. At some point she was starting to feel tormented. Hopefully she wasn't pushing that feeling onto him? Her voice a was a harsh whisper her lips now brushing his with every word. There was no intent of being sexual it was just there closeness. She felt herself collapsing inside::.

"I can't do this again. I can't lose it again....Leon."

.::Leon had to have known what she meant. She didn't want to snap again like she did when she killed her parents though they well deserved it. She just didn't want to be the girl she once was. She liked her sanity just fine::.

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon looked at her.

He could feel her pain at that moment, he figured breaking the news would be good enough.

"I believe I saw... Sage. Wearing a uniform on patrol... Or guard duty. On the border of California somewhere. Focus on that, we found him, we just have to go get him."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

~Sage? He saw Sage? How?~

.::He told her to focus on it as if it was her that showed him their son. Maybe she did. Maybe her new look came with a lot more differences in her abilities. She tried to focus on it like he asked but it still wasn't coming easy. She felt her body waning, even on her knees still buckling. Her voice still a whisper, her lips still brushing his::.

"We- I'm so tired."

.::Weakly gravity pressed her into him. Her lips undoubtedly connecting. How long had that been? Would it even be well received? Was it wanted by the other party? Maybe it'd help her focus? Release the echoes from her mind. Steadying her somehow::.

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon would receive it well and reciprocate it. Breaking away simply.

"Let it go then. Rest."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::She fell into it just a bit before he broke away. Her mind did ease but she felt like she couldn't just let it go. Actually suddenly she didn't want to let him go. How weirdly things shifted with her suddenly now::.

"Should I easily let you go to then?"

.::It was a weird question. Really weird. Even for her standards. Almost presented why would she ask that. What did it mean exactly. just questions questions::.

Mr. Kaar said:

"No... If you rest we can try again. We can start searching in the meantime."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::She just looked at him::.

"So why are you letting me go again?"

.::Oh she heard him. Heard him clearly. But she meant it before she needed proof. But it was more than that. With everything going on they needed to make time for one another. Could he agree with that? Its like the kiss broke her from one thing to another. They did need to search but couldn't if she was resting. Maybe she didn't want to be left behind anymore in any form or maybe suddenly she was looking for what he denied her the first time she returned. Weird timing truly::.

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon would shake his head.

"I'm not letting you go. I wont make anymore moves without you."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

"You said that once"

.::She sighed a bit. He didn't seem to understand what she wanted. She was thrilled deep inside but she couldn't fathom it anymore in truth. It wasn't hitting her again. Something once more was off. She tried resting her head into his shoulder forgetting about the parts of her crown that stuck out. But yet with the calming it seemed to completely dissipate finally as she tried to rest in his arms::.

"Fine. Take me home then."

.::By home she meant her place. He was one of the very few that knew of it. She liked keeping it her personal place from everything. Her getaway::.

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon would lift her up, and pause...

"Maybe you should change back..."

If she did Leon would take her to her place.

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::She blinked wondering how did she do that::.

"How do I that exactly?"

.::She didn't see that part.. or care to recall it currently::.

Mr. Kaar said:

"Reach a calm point. Let your guard down."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::She looked at him::.

"Let my guard down? When's the last time you recall me doing that?"

.::Sighing::.

"Trying to be calm from all this if asking for a lot. But.."

.::She sighed again and tried to meditate. She breathed in and out trying to find something. Sage was ok for the most part but the fact that he was accelerated in growth did not help ease. But she tried to find the positive. But what about her girls? No the positive was they were with Kilik she was so sure. Great things she was trying to find right? Regardless she'd finally find it and change back. Blinking::.

"I used to find that easy... This time though...Promise me more time won't be wasted. Promise you you won't stop me from finding the girls and Sage."

.::After he said what he needed she'd remain silent on the way back. Oddly silent::.

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon would listen intently before finally responding.

"We won't stop until we have actual proof of survival."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::Silently she remained curled in his arms on the way back to her home. There was such much for her to take in she was actually trying NOT to deal with it right now. Even though her eyes were opened to some truth she closed her mind once more. The stress if she let it back in would send her over the edge. Doubtful Leon wanted her mind damaged. Once they reached the doors of her mini mansion she'd take the key from her pocket. As she placed it towards the keyhole she seemed to pause. Hesitant for some reason. Why? It wasn't clear. Even with the sudden hesitation she proceeded to unlock the door so he could go in with her::.

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon would wait patient... Unsure of her hesitation or her reasons for such. He figured she was still dealing with a lot of shit. He'd follow her in non-the less.

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::The day was still young even though the sun was beginning to set. She hadn't realized how much time had truly passed since she first went to him. She was trying to be super strong. Like some kind of hero but Eury was no hero. By far was she a hero. For a few moments she seemed to have ignored Leon was there with her. Not really ignore but more or less forget. Sadly it wasn't hard as she had been in this home by herself since she came back. Occasionally living memories of her family though she didn't really bring them there but still how could she not relive the thoughts of little pitter patters.

Laughter and the like. She found herself wondering aimlessly first it looked like she was going to go to the living room, then changed her direction to the kitchen then changed one more time to her stairs where she finally stopped placing a hand on the railing. Her back remained towards him as she seemed to duffle over slightly her other hand being placed on her thigh as she took slow deep long breaths. Yea it was really a lot to take in and deal::.

~Breathe....breathe Eurydice~

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon followed slowly. Making sure she was okay, but let her walk on her own, knowing the Pride of both Eury and Leon.

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::Oh yes that pride. A wonder how things worked with them sometimes. Her body slowly started to go down turning so she would end up sitting on the third step, her hand slowly slipping off the railing now resting along her sides on the steps. Maybe it was long overdue they put their prides aside again and just be there for one another. Right now it wasn't about pride for her anymore. At the end of the day Eury was still a woman with feelings. With needs. Did she have to spell it out::.

Mr. Kaar said:

CAUSE LEON IS DENSE!

Leon walks over and sits next to her wrapping an arm around her. He decided to sit like that for now.

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::Yes teh Leon was suddenly dense. All those years where did it all go? Was she really any better? She probably found herself more of a mother and typical domesticated wife than anything else. Busy working with Kilik and traveling a bit. Maybe she didn't help things either. Since when was she so domesticated that was soooo not the adventurous girl he first knew her as.

Feeling his arm wrap around her she didn't lean in right away letting it pass over for a bit before she let gravity bring her over to him. He'd soon feel her arms wrapping around above his waist a bit, her head leaning into his neck and shoulder. Sure she was missing for two years, but she was thinking prior to that and currently::.

"What's wrong with us Leon?"

.::The dead silence finally broken by her soft tone and deep question::.

"I mean what happened to us? It feels so cold."

.::She had a lot on her mind and clearly this was something she was thinking about for a long time now. She finally got to ask it. There was no doubt she loved him though she once started questioning things out of hurtful thoughts. They needed some time for themselves. Times weren't the best but if she took have this moment she'd take what she could for now::.

Mr. Kaar said:

Leon would raise his free hand to Eury's chin and raise it for her to look at him.

"We have been through a lot. I have been through a lot, you have been through a shit load. It's not that there is anything wrong with us, its the loss of a connection that needs rebuilding."

Eurydice Sudeki said:

.::With no resistance she let him raise her face to his. She agreed with what he stated but yet felt maybe he didn't quite understand she meant it more as it's been for sometime not just recently::.

"That's what I mean. The fact we ever let it get that way. I know I'm at fault myself too, but do you really want to rebuild that with me? You should know my answer to not need to ask me back. But do you still want this? You said you chose me."

.::She paused fixing herself against him once more::.

"Do you really still want me? Want the family we created? Cuz I would do just about anything to feel fire again."

.::She meant it truly. She wanted it but if he truly didn't love her anymore. If he didn't want her any longer she really wouldn't know how she would fully deal with it. It'd hurt her to no end that was for certain. To have the first man she loved and devoted her life to leave her seemingly so suddenly. To have her family split apart would crush her::.

[Zack Asiv]

Leon would sigh pulling her in closer. He'd look down at her.

"For like the fifth time, yes. I chose you, the world was basically put down its path of oblivion. This was a near earth ending event. You were gone for years. I took care of myself, and those I knew for sure were alive. I searched for the others sure, but my responsibilities as an Elder kept me from going out of the immediate state."

[Eurydice Sudeki]

.::As usual she attentively listened to his words. Eury was too tired to truly be frustrated or somewhat argue with her dense husband. As much as she understood his words they weren't truly answering her inquiry. What he spoke wasn't what she was asking. It started to bug her inside a bit as to why couldn't he just give her an answer. She paused for what almost seemed forever looking up to him just thinking about the times when he did tell her his feelings for her. When she felt that reassurance. Yes the world had gone to shit. Yes she had been gone for such a long time but that had nothing to do with her question. Soon enough he would find the expression on her face change to express her small annoyance as she sighed right back at him. She lifted the hand off his chest and brought it towards his forehead. Without any warning she gave him a hard flick dead center::.

"You're a pain in my ass I swear. When did you become so dense? I didn't ask about looking for me or the girls. You're making me start to think that collar you had wasn't holding you back from expressing your feelings to me."

.::She looked at him with a tired comically annoyed expression. Again she sighed a little peeling herself off him unless he stopped her. If he hadn't she'd pull herself up using the railing as support mumbling mockingly as she did so::.

"'I choose you'. Tch What am I some pokemon?"

.::Turning towards the stairs she couldn't help but smirk and shake her head at that thought. If he hadn't stood up she take a step and purposely bump him in the shoulder with the side of her leg. Glancing down at him from the corner of her eye::.

"You're going to have to do much better than that mister. If you have any hope."

.::She'd actually give him a little impish stare as she started a bit slow up the steps, considering she was a bit fatigue. But did she just imply a naughty thought suddenly? Yes, yes she did. Timing was certainly off but right now she was filled with a lot of didn't things bouncing off each other. From one to the next it was like lightning in a bottle::.

[Zack Asiv]

Leon was unsure of how satisfied he was, or she was with any of this. Sage, the girls, hell even Spike was off doing his own thing. Leon felt like he needed to kill someone to calm himself down. When she peeled from him, Leon wouldn't resist, he knew she hated feeling trapped, so when the hand reached up he would be puzzled before the flick.

"Ai tch."

He'd reach up with a free hand and rub his forehead. She spoke about his collar and he thought back. He no longer needed it, no electrical current threatening to turn him into an unstoppable rage monster. No, now the only thing trying to turn him into that was his own emotional psychosis.

He'd turn as she got up, letting the leg bump spur him into standing. Internally smiling at the pokemon reference. A sly grin would pass his face at this.

"Well, lets see if I can make Eurymon digivolve into Nakedeurywomon. It's her champion digivolution after all."

Leon knew the timing was off, but he was still a random person, so it was nothing, but normal to him.

[Eurydice Sudeki]

There was no satisfaction truly within her about the whole situation. From the truth of herself to her children. Hell she hadn't even visited Spike once since she returned. Mother of the year award, but she had her reasoning's though Leon played a huge role in her inability to do so. She could place the blame for letting him get in her head but the blame was on her for being so fragile and sensitive at the time. To even acknowledge to herself that she allowed herself to be so weakened was damn near a sin in her eyes. If her mind and body wasn't so drained she'd probably be raging against one of her training dummies. Eury hardly ever ever let her anger get the best of her. She never let it control her movements or thoughts.

But everyone had a breaking point. Her limit was constantly being tested, poked and prodded. She always stood in silent fear of ever snapping again and ignoring friend from foe. She could would never wish to place those she cared for especially her own children in that kind of danger. Eury would kill for her children without hesitation without prejudice. Any threat to them would be met with a fierce desire to protect. Even if it was from herself or from Leon. She always hoped that it would never come to that from either of them. But if push came to shove Eury would take the reigns.

As she slowly eased up her stairs she paused, glancing over his shoulder with a perked brow. Couldn't say she was surprised he was a random one, Eury used to be that random in her high school days. Boy had she lost herself somewhere down the road to growing up. It was safe to say that it must've started from the first time she lost her memory after saving a young Elena. If it was possible for it to be visible energy would've been seen bouncing around in her head shooting off in various directions in a rhythmical steady pattern. She scoffed at his remark placing her free hand on her chest pretending to play the over dramatic role as she took another step.

"Ugh..How dare you? Just what kind of woman do you take me for?"

Playfully she snapped her head forward with her chin up, the hand on her chest at the same time had came up and flicked her hair.

"Hmph you think I'ma just lead some stranger up my stairs with the intent of vigorously exercising. Heh oh you so completely got the wrong girl."

Her tone remained playful as she glanced over her shoulder again having made it by now about half way up the steps. The ball was in his court and it was best to act while she was still in this state before everything hit her and changed it all. There was still a lot that needed to be taken in. A lot that needed discussing.

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[Mr. Kaar]

Leon would chuckle as he followed behind slowly. Getting his composure he looks at her seriously for a moment.

"When I go up your stairs I promise I won't be a stranger."

A cocky grin would wrap Leon's face slowly after that as he resisted laughing.

[Eurydice Sudeki]

She kept her back to him as he caught up behind her. He wouldn't be able to see the grin that grew on her face but through her words he would have a strong idea. Her sudden deepen sultry tone would only egg that on further.

"Kinda sad really. A stranger has so much new territory to explore."

With a snicker from her throat, she would purposely turn and walk backwards slowly up the steps, almost stalking. Hazel greens staring directly at his blues as she was almost at the stop. Three more steps.

[Mr. Kaar]

Leon would chuckle lightly.

"Just call me... Adventurer."

And Leon would charge up the steps to hurl Eury up on to his shoulder and he'd find the closest bed. You know.... for exercise and exploration.

[Eurydice Sudeki]

Immediately her face twisted into comical annoyance at his joke.

"Leon that was so la- eeeeh!"

Before she could finish that sentenced she was whisked up by him with a girly squeal. Her long absent laughter filling the surrounding air as he found the nearest room. Thank god not the master cause she'd have explaining to do about why it looked like a twister of blades hit her room. Exercising was a good way to work off stress and totally keep in shape.

[Zack Asiv]

Fade to black, cause Leon worked off about four thousand calories.

Leon does some after work out stretches. Fade to black.

Leon gets some cold water for the cool down exercise, fade to black.

After a hard days work. Leon decides to just lay there and cuddle. Fade to black.

[Eurydice Sudeki]

[OOC: LMAO! XD]

If the bed's rockin don't come knockin!

Wait well there was no kids around to even worry about that. Lots of calories were burned throughout that night. Considering she was capable of heightening the pleasure sensors with her ability he wasn't getting a break. If it was a song it'd be longer than the extended version of Rapper's Delight. O__O And that's a long ass song.

--------------That following morning---------------

Eury found herself curled up against Leon her head buried snugly upon his chest. Her arms wrapped firmly around his bare form. The the sun peeked in through the small opening in the curtain kissing her olive skin gently. Her body stirred pressing further against his with a soft moan. Without opening her eyes her head tilted kissing his chest and trailed it up to his neck. There she remained kissing sensually just under his ear as her hand slid down his chest to the edge of pelvic and back up. With a low snicker in his ear she gave it a little nimble before pulling herself up to kiss his lips softly a smile could be felt on her lips as she did so. Another soft moan escaped her as she tapped his chest peeling herself completely off him.

"Rest."

She sat up her disheveled locs cascading down her bare back covering a bit of her large tat. With a yawn and a stretch she got out the bed not bothering to cover her form. She ruffled her hair as she left the room and crossed down the hall to the master room. She slipped on some undergarments and her short silk night gown with a matching robe and headed down the steps. To the kitchen she went placing a pot of tea on the stove as she didn't drink coffee. As she stood there for something felt like it struck her in her head. A hard sharp intense pain. That same concept of energy firing off in her head seemed like it had gotten more rapid than originally.

"Ngh!"

She grabbed her head stumbling off to the side one hand gripping at the edge of the island in the middle of the kitchen. As the pain intensified she gritted her teeth feeling unable to scream. Her chest seemed to cave in on her as her breathing quickened and her vision blurred.

~Wh-what is this? Wh-why?~

She wanted to call out. But she couldn't. The pain was taking over her she felt like her whole body was being attacked but her mind the worse. Unable to retain her standing she finally lost consciousness collapsing on the floor on the side of the island. Her legs could be seen from one end her upper body peering out of the other. It would be a few minutes before the kettle she placed for the tea would start to sound off in a high whistle never turning off as her limp form laid on the cold floor. Eury would remain completely unresponsive as her mind drifted further and further away from her.

[Zack Asiv]

Leon however wouldn't rest at this point. When Eury left, Leon got up got his jeans on and began his usual morning work out. It lasted a small twenty five minutes, before he decided to head down stairs. Looking about until he saw Eury.

"Fuck!"

He'd dash over dropping to his knee's and sliding over from his momentum the rest of the way he'd check her breath and pulse, temperature and the like in two quick motions. He'd put her in a better position before activating his Seikatsugan to find his troopers. They where near by luckily fearing the safety of their Emperor and Empress.

He'd dash outside.

"Get Doc, and summon the Entirety of Squad Three! This place is officially on lock down!"

Once Doc got there and said it was fine to move her they would do so to the bed, where Squad Three would report in to Leon who went outside to the formation.

"Spread out, you are on over watch. I want a one hundred kilometer radius completely cut off from the world. They don't move or try to come in without permission, they are to be executed as enemies of the Empire."

[Eurydice Sudeki]

Gavin was never too far away from anywhere Eury was. He had been her protective escort since her return and had formed a very strong bond to the woman. He had left her to her own devices from the day before and had seen when she returned with Leon. In the morning Gavin had been doing his usual patrolling about a little ways from her home. He had taken in account that there had been a bit more patrol activity around her way than before, he chalked it up as it was because Leon was there. He knew how much Eury disliked being treated like she was royalty but even he had to tell her that in a way whatever she like it or not she was. That she should take up that leadership role he could see that was in her. But right now she was in trouble and he knew it. The way everyone mobilized and scattered caused alarm and he rushed to the home. By the time he arrived it was when Leon had came back out directing the squad to lock down the area around her home.

Gavin wondered what happened to her. Why was Leon doing this? Stepping out from the crowd he approached Leon respectably, bowing with a fist over his chest.

"What has happened? Is she alright?"

Leon would know Gavin as he assigned him to her. Gavin did not need to be ordered to not leave her side. He stood with a air of strength and determination about him. Meanwhile in the room Eury laid unconscious continuing to seemingly slip away in her mind. Doc would be able to see her body suddenly shiver. Her brows frowning while her hands gripped tightly at the sheets. Her breathing quickened again, gritting through her teeth once more in pain. She looked like she was trying to fight off the pain so hard that she subconsciously transformed again obviously exposing that newly found secret to Doc. It didn't last long as after a loud scream and a pulse like wave of purple psy energy shot out from her, her body completely collapsed as the appearance dissipated. The pulse shook through the second floor fading as it hit outside the home. No doubt Doc was pushed back heavily by the concussive force. Gavin's head would snap towards the house and without hesitation he would run inside and locate her.

She was vulnerable now. Physically and mentally. She was exposed. There was nothing that could be done by the outside world. The fight. The struggle. It was all on her.