It's All An Enigma...

[Xiao Mao Hu]

I know not many people here really know me, but I decided to take the time to once again apologize for my recent absence, albeit only affecting a single thread, but...nevertheless. At the end of the day, even when I seemingly have an infinite amount of time on my hands, I just can't seem to find the words to keep replies rolling smoothly. And the truth of the matter is that I have no idea why that would be...

I wanted to bring this up so many times, but found myself far too embarrassed to, after having the staff help or approve 2 bios to date, on top of everything pre-reboot. And the longer I waited, the more embarrassing it was to ask for advice or any sort of help in the very first-world struggle. I want to believe it's a problem of muse, but then as usual, I have character and plot ideas rolling out of the woodworks...and I know for a fact I still really want to roleplay here.
When Sanuki didn't work out off paper, I speculated that the problem involved simply not knowing enough about the character, leading me to attempt bringing back an old character (Mao) who I know really, really well, seeing that she's in a more or less finished work. But I ran into the same roadblock, for some reason...
I continued thinking on my own, hoping to find a solution, with the best I could come up with being that I need to play a totally different type of character.-Someone I'd have to think less for...more assertive, and overall in the moment. Honestly, I can't quite describe it, but my greatest hope is that I just need a change to a more ostentatious persona, as opposed to quietly friendly or reserved. But then considering I'd be submitting another bio that I have no way of knowing whether or not it'd work out, I once again find myself troubled, not wanting to work staff on such iffy and trivial experiments, when they likely have much better things to do.

So um, once again, I apologize for any trouble I've caused anyone so far, and for any trouble I may be set to cause in the very near future.
For now...I just need to...think, or something.-Think even more. I'll see if I can get some further advice on the matter...

[Novocaine]

I don't really know you well enough to dive deep in terms of advice, but!

From the little I've seen of your OOC posts, you seem to be overthinking it a bit. If the ball isn't rolling with your new character right off the bat, try smaller steps. Join a thread and don't worry too much about all the introspection and fluff. If that turns into a one-liner, that's fine. Finding your character's voice can only happen if you start to play that character. I can't tell you how many times a character concept turned into something completely different because of how threads went and how I articulated the character. But I had to actually begin to roleplay that character to fully realize them.

If it just doesn't feel like posting will be in any way interesting for you with your current characters, that happens too. I've scrapped many a concept. If you think someone more loud and open will be fresh enough for you to have fun, go ahead and make that character. Some of us have soooo many characters, nothing wrong with making a third. Even if you end up scrapping the first two. Or maybe the first two will suddenly be inspiring again after you've played around with something new.

Anyway! I don't know if that helps or if that was all just me speaking the obvious. If anything, just relax! No one's going to bite your head off for taking your time. =)