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Post by Avice Locke on Mar 30, 2019 21:46:57 GMT -8
She narrowed her brows at him. "Fine... but I feel better being closer if that is alright with you."
"That is exactly the point I was making! I had no idea what was going to come out of that and yet he called it a short cut." she had got her sense of direction mixed up as she was pointing towards the bedrooms instead of the kitchen where an empty glass sat on the counter. "I usually think of the most efficient and quickest way possible to get the job done... it can be risky and it can be reckless... and never mind... You are right. Sometimes I think of just the one way without actually trying and sometimes I think far too much and just give up. just because that is easier." it was as if something clicked at that moment. and she leaned against the wall. She wasn't sure how to put it into words, but she had an understanding. She had an understanding as to what Eric tried to tell her. Drake made a good point to it.
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Post by Drake on Mar 30, 2019 21:55:07 GMT -8
Drake would simply shrug as Avice commented on staying there, not really caring that she couldn't see his response. The more he listened to Avice the more he felt she needed either a helping hand or a swift kick in the ass... Hell, maybe a mix of both... A swift helpful kick in the ass? Yeah.
"Tell me, Avice, why did you need your power, before Derik."
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Post by Avice Locke on Mar 30, 2019 21:59:59 GMT -8
"Before Derik..." She thought back. "It isn't hard to remember, I was just a traveler, nomadic and sleeping in trees, camps, and tents. It was exploring the world looking for nothing at all except hearing stories and finding characters. I wasn't looking for anything... However, I was also a Runner and that's how I earned money I basically stole, retrieved, and transported what people asked me to. Back then... I sought strength to better survive."
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Post by Drake on Mar 30, 2019 22:04:49 GMT -8
"But as a survivor you should've known that the stronger you got the more enemies you would attract. So would it not have been smarter to focus on hiding, running, and evading rather than focusing on combat strength? From my impression of you, you've focused on combat, and fighting. But how strong you were... that wasn't strength you gained just to stay alive. So what was the real reason you wanted that strength? Did you even have one? Was there any real REASON for you to have that kind of strength? Or did you just do it just because, without and reason or thought what-so-ever?"
He asked as he continued to scrub at the now dried blood.
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Post by Avice Locke on Mar 30, 2019 22:24:10 GMT -8
"I heard from a few... Dragons... I was a coward for thinking like that. I was in that mindset at the time that was considered a challenge to prove them wrong about me, because they didn't know me, who were they to judge, and how was I any different from them. No way in hell was I going to take that lying down. I focused so much on that I had forgotten who I was." she deeply exhaled. "I did what I could to make them change their minds about me, tell me they were wrong about me. It even got to the point I hated them and thought to force them to see me as an equal. Petty and stupid right..?" she hid her face in embarrassment.
"I had broken my promise to Eric, who was actually Mathew in a mask, I lost limbs in a battle and both he and Leon gave me an out but I accepted Mathews offer first and under the condition that I keep it secret. Leon offered me a faster solution and I accepted... but allowing him into my head counted as a liability to reveal Mathew's secrets. Blaze soon after sent me on an errand that trapped me in a situation that caused Cabal to lose probably their biggest weapons and arms dealer and told me it was all my fault... It was then I left Cabal and found out Leon when he entered my head planted a trigger that woke up and Prota snatched me up in my brainwashed stupor. But he also gave me a way out at the same time. Of which your father triggered and helped me to be free from that. I had Derik conceived at the start of when Prota came for me. Its been one struggle after another. So yes... I've been trying to survive, and everything that has tried to kill me has made me stronger. I have tried to prove that I am not a coward since the beginning."
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Post by Drake on Mar 30, 2019 22:34:33 GMT -8
"What it sounds like to me is this: you sought strength for others to notice you, bit off more than you could chew, and have proceeded to follow this cycle of, 'Shit, I fucked up, I'm going to fix it by jumping into the next fucked up situation because this time I will come out stronger and better, and THEN they'll have to acknowledge me.' That's tells me you didn't have a reason for strength, you had a want to be noticed, but you didn't have a reason. You had Pride, but even then you dropped that after your first fuck up."
Drake would sigh, he thinks he is beginning to understand.
"So, let me ask you this then, Avice. Why do you seek strength now? What makes having strength so damn important to you right now? Way I see it, at this point in time, you owe no one nothing. So, why do you want to be strong? What's your reason for pursuing it now?"
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Post by Avice Locke on Mar 30, 2019 22:39:26 GMT -8
"The stronger you get the more enemies you make... right Drake?" Repeating his words
"I am not welcome in Cabal for deserting them, I am not welcome or willing to go anywhere near territory one, and Prota is hunting me down. Some places won't accept me based on those reasons alone. Do you see? I am still trying to survive but now it's not just me. Strength is what I need, I don't feel like hiding under Kentler's roof forever."
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Post by Drake on Mar 30, 2019 22:45:24 GMT -8
He nodded.
"Indeed, and then we come back to escaping. Why not trying escaping via the Ocean, I hear that there are pirates out there, I'm sure with a little cash you could find yourself voyage to an island or maybe even get yourself to another continent. Take Derik with you, raise him in a life of peace. Or run to the Deadlands, join one of their groups, have Derik raised in a war climate so he can grow strong. Either way, you have options that do not include staying here with all the people you've pissed off. It's not like your the sentimental type. SO! I ask again, what is your reason for staying and getting stronger, rather than leaving and getting away from all this shit? I highly doubt ANYONE will chase you outside of these borders, you aren't worth enough to risk another war over."
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Post by Avice Locke on Mar 30, 2019 22:53:07 GMT -8
She sighed heavily to that question. "Yesterday I would have answered you... I made a Promise to Leon. A promise that I'd get him out of the Sudeki Afterlife... I destroyed the eyes, however." she mimicked crushing them with her fist closing in on itself tightly. "It doesn't sit right with me to leave it like this."
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Post by Drake on Mar 30, 2019 23:04:35 GMT -8
"It may not sit well with you, but I'm sure dying because of some promise that you can no longer keep, and leaving your son to grow up with out a mother is worse than feeling a little guilt about not upholding a promise that Leon probably wasn't relying on that heavily in the first place."
Drake had finally gotten that stain out and was working on the next, this time taking his frustration with this circling conversation, out on the stain.
"I again ask you. What reason do you have for to get stronger? Especially when you have more options now that you are no longer bound by any words."
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Post by Avice Locke on Mar 30, 2019 23:11:36 GMT -8
"Derik, he is my reason now. I'll be as strong as I need to be in order to keep him from anything that would try to take away a future of his choosing." She shrugged. "If we took away anything else then that would be it.
"What makes you think Leon wasn't relying heavily on that?" She grew confused at his words.
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Post by Drake on Mar 30, 2019 23:31:06 GMT -8
Drake just rolled his eyes at the question, and gave Avice a look that very much stated, "Duh."
"Because if he really wanted out of there he could just use my fathers eyes. From what I've learned between Kentler and Reisuke, time flows a LOT faster there. That combined with the fact that they are literally fighting all day every day for eternity. Then it's to my understanding that not only could my father now make a portal back to this realm now, but he should have been strong enough to do so before I got here. Which tells me that Leon either, A. Doesn't want to come back, or B. The more likely situation, hes got a scheme because that's what Dragons do. Scheme."
Then Drake went back to scrubbing the floor.
"As for being strong for Derik, that is a good goal. But maybe find a reason to get strong for yourself. I have gotten strong because I want the Dragons dead. Not because someone else wants them dead and asked me to do it because I'm stronger. Without any personal drive, you'll never be as strong as you need to be."
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Post by Avice Locke on Mar 30, 2019 23:41:18 GMT -8
She wondered how much of what he was saying was true. "What you are saying makes sense... but that is a big assumption when we know far too little about it. It truly makes no sense for him to scheme that long."
"Well... I suppose I no longer have a reason." She gave it a long thought and for a good long moment, she would try and find some reason to gain strength for herself. "Aye, I never really had one to begin with, so I can't think of one now."
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Post by Drake on Mar 31, 2019 5:12:21 GMT -8
Shrugging he would move on the the next stain.
"Who knows maybe I'm wrong, but either way, it's no big loss to not being able to bring back a Dragon."
He would continue to scrub as she came to that conclusion.
"I'll give you some credit, I was expecting you to discover some hidden reason. But to find out you had none at all, and yet still make it this far. That's impressive."
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Post by Avice Locke on Mar 31, 2019 12:34:54 GMT -8
"Aye, I was always just walking." she tilted her head to the side thinking. "Growing up I was round sailors and they had bloody fun stories. They let me go to bed nd wonder about the rest of the world. When I was a teenager I left the orphanage, I was sick of them, but then... I just hadn't stopped walking. Didn't really have a plan for those few years."
"When Blaze was like join Cabal, make something of yourself... I was curious, and I wondered if I could be something else. I would have taken anything else, but I cant recall ever wanting to be anything else. Life had been pretty good about dropping things in my lap all I had to do was pick one and see where it went. Little would I know it wasn't life's gifts but bait from others which paths thought me useful."
She brought fingers to her eyes and felt her eye lids she just covered them and let her hands serve as some funny cover and support. "Fuck sakes I'll need some wood or glass replacements... My lids have no idea what to do and its tiring. More so this obnoxious feeling to remove a blind fold so I can see again and that cold breeze feeling foreign over skin thats never been exposed to it. Its bugging me so much. Ever shave your head and that part feel just every brush of wind suddenly? Aye that's in me eye sockets."
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