On My Own (Josiah)

[Siege]

“Lets not get into talk of me being kind…you’ve only been here for a night…and all I’ve done is put a roof over your head so far

"That isn't all."

She cut him off, her eyes looked up at him from his shoulder. That definatly wasn't all he had done for her. And he new it. But then again, maybe not, he wasn't as big with touch as she was.

"You held me all night, I am sure I shook last night, I always do. You helped me calm down so I could sleep."

She knew that he would underestimate himself and that he wouldn't think he had done anything. But she didn't care. She knew that he had done something for her, and to he that was all that really mattered in the end. Siege took a sip of her coffee, and smiled.

“We can always get into this later…I say I am gunna make pan cakes…and you will go get cleaned up”

“After that, we’ll go and get you the things you need to be settled in”

She smiled. Pancakes. There was almost no better word in the English language than that one word on a morning, after a good sleep, a bad storm, and a nice morning talk.

"Sounds good. I love pancakes. I can't remember the last time I've had any."

She rose on her own. Flinging he coffee, but not the cup, into the ocean, she took his hand. He was gonna have to get used to touch so she was going to try to show him that not every touch was to be feared. And the only way she could do that was by building trust between them, and by touching hm as often as she could in her own way. But she would read the signs, if he didn't want her to touch him for some reason she would pull back and try agan later.

"Well lets go, I took a shower last night, so I really just need a rinse and a change of clothes. I'm raiding your closet again." Siege told him as they headed back oveer to the house.

[Josiah]

She loved pancakes it seemed, he had a feeling they were always a safe bet with people to enjoy in the morning, and Josiah loved the fact they were a perfect food to start the day with having essential cards and protein in them to keep him fueled until it was time for his next meal, and he had to admit with the right syrup they were actually every enjoyable to eat.

He stood up as she flung her coffee, he guessed it must have gotten cold or something, he still had some n his mug he was not willing to waste though. She then took his hand, it was going to be hard not to get annoyed with her and her actions. While she was a creature of touch he trusted no one and thus coud not trust some one enough to touch him, he would not allow himself to ever need that comfort and weakness such things seemed to bring to people like her, he didn’t want it. But still he let her hold on as though nothing was the problem.

They began to head back and as they sis she told she was raiding his closet, which was not as much of a shocker as one would think to him now.

“I had a feeling you would with th rest of your things being dirty still….though I doubt I have fresh underwear that will work for you” He said as they past through the front door him beginning to head to the kitchen to get their meal underway allowing her to do what she needed

[Siege]

He didn't pull back, and though she looked at his face he didn't seem to be repulsed by her touch. So instead, she kept her hand there, figuring that he was getting used to her way. They headed back to the house, her coffee cup hanging limply by by her side as their feet moved through the sand, hers bare, but still, it felt nice regardless.

“I had a feeling you would with th rest of your things being dirty still….though I doubt I have fresh underwear that will work for you”

Inside the house now, she looked up at him and chuckled handing him the coffee cup that he had brought her. He was right, she would just have to wear the same panties, since everything else she owned was dirty.

"That just means we'll have to hit the Victoria Secret when we go shopping."

Oh that's right, if anything else she was going to buy some sexy nighties so that she could watch him squirm. She knew for sure that he was still in touch with is male side, and that meant that he wasn't as cold as he thought. That he would still react to a woman that was hot, and she fully intended to be that.

"I'll be back down in a few."

with that Siege rushed up the steps. First stop was his room, where she carefully made the bed for him and fluffed his pillow. A sign that she was 'trying' to be a good girl and make life easy for him. Moving to the closet she gathered what she wanted from there, a quick trip back down grabbng a pair of not so dirty jeans and back up again she disappeared in the bathroom.

Siege didn't take a shower, instead she merely rinsed herself off with a wash rag, and dried off again. Sliding a black lace bra on her torso she pulled up low rise jeans quickly, no panties, she was going commando for today. Then picked up the white button down shirt that she had stolen from his closet. Bunching it up, she didn't button a single button, instead, she hoisted it so that part of her flat toned stomach would show and tied it in a tight knot. So that just a little bit of her black bra could be seen on her pale skinned chest. Grinning she brushed out her hair, and got her shoes on before heading downstairs. These were her tight jeans, of course.

"How's breakfast comin?" she asked entering the kitchen area.

[Josiah]

She told him they would be hitting Victoria’s Secret, he could not help but roll his eyes slightly. He didn’t mind spending the money of expensive anal floss and other garments but since he was paying he knew she was going to make sure he was in there with her, not something he was looking forward to to be honest, maybe he could just wait outside and have her get him when she had picked out what she had wanted…yes that would work beautifully.

She soon went upstairs and he went to making breakfast, pancakes were simple enough, Aunt Jamima had it down to a science luckily and he preferred it to the just add water shit that they also had out there. He mixed up the batter adding some cinimmon to the mix as she was upstairs no doubtably getting dressed and ready. He had to skillets going both of them with large pancakes being cooked in them, he did not believe in that silver dollar shit or bite sized stuff after all.

He was up to number 5 and 6 when she came down again, he didn’t have to turn he knew who it was after all. “They’ll be done in a sec” Josiah said as he gave them both a flip. “Mind getting out the syrup in the fridge…its on the bottom shelf” he told her.

He would hear the fried opening and turn to look at her to help in pointing it out if she didn’t see it. But as she crouched down slightly his eyes widened slightly as he saw she was bare so to speak…the low riders she wore made it to easy not to mistake such a thing he turned around back to the stove and killed the gas placing another pancake on each of their plates making three for both of them in total. The put a slice of butter on each stack and with plates in hand moved to the table trying to to look at her or the way she had seemed to purposely dress.

[Siege]

“Mind getting out the syrup in the fridge…its on the bottom shelf”

"Sure."

Siege turned and moved to the large fridge. She opened the door with a quick tug and squatted down looking around for the syrup. He moved over to her to point it out, right behind the gallon of milk, right where she couldn't see it. She grabbed it and shoved it in the microwave for two minutes while he got everything together. She smiled as she watched him trying hard not to look at her. She leaned against the counter and whistled softly to herself, her fingers tapping the beat on her long sleeve covered arm.

"Smells good though, you sure do know how to cook."

The beeping of the microwave went off and she grabbed the syrup out of it, and brought it to the table where he had placed their plates. Sitting down she poured syrup over hers and slid the bottle close to him should he want any.

"So what exactly are we going today? For shopping? I assume, knowing you, that you have some sort of agenda."

Siege bit into her pancakes wondering just what was going through his mind at the way she was dressed. Certainly the crest of lace against her breast underneath the white shirt, with a black bra, was certainly something he could see. Not to mention, he was male. And she was definatly having fun toying with his mind.

[Josiah]

The microwave went off and she grabbed the syrup, it seemed she liked her warm which was not something he was used to. He was used to his syrup being chilled but apparently it was something she was used to ad he didn’t see how it would make much of a difference for himself. She sat down and prepped herself and he soon did the same before she spoke forcing his eyes to look up to her and the little outfit she had put together.

His eyes went back down to his plate, as his fork cut through his stack of pancakes, he had no idea why the hell she had the need to show so much flesh, he found it annoying that she felt the need to do this. While he did not want to give into such things the fact was that he was straight and there were instincts and hormones that could not be completely fought off no matter how much will power he had.

“An agenda?....now who’s paranoid” Josiah said looking over to her.

“”You dumped your bag out in front of me remember?...I saw you don’t even have enough clothes to last through a full week…If your going to call this place home we have to change that…especially if I want to keep my closet safe…though something tell me I am going to have to get used to you raiding it every so often” He said before he took a bite of his food

“Now is there anything else you see yourself needing?” Josiah asked curious on how many different places he would have to go to today

[Siege]

“”You dumped your bag out in front of me remember?...I saw you don’t even have enough clothes to last through a full week…If your going to call this place home we have to change that

He was right, she had little to no clothes. When her apartment had been taken from her, she had been unable to take everything. But that woudln't have mattered that much anyway. She never had many clothes. She had little money, and was unable to buy much. It had never bothered her before but if he was willing to actually buy her a full wardrobe she wasn't going to complain. Though she had the sinking suspicion that he was going to make her buy some fuddy duddy clothes.

especially if I want to keep my closet safe…though something tell me I am going to have to get used to you raiding it every so often”

Siege chuckled through a bite of her pancakes, she couldn't help it, she didn't have much that was clean and she knew that it was something that appealed to men. Seeing a woman in their clothes. Swallowing her bite, she looked up at him.

"You know you enjoy it."

“Now is there anything else you see yourself needing?”

She pursed her lips as she thought about what else she might need.

"Uhh well furniture could be good, you know a bed, desk, sitting chair, book cases. Mmm and books are cool. How about music? An Ipod or something, ummm I'd love a drum set but I'm sure that it's out of the question. Uhhh I dont really need much I guess..."

She shrugged.

"anything is better than what I've got. Even if we hit garage sales or something. To be honest, I've never owned much more than what was in my back pack"

She began to eat again, letting that sink in.

[Josiah]

She thought he enjoyed it and in truth had he been the kind of man that thought of her sexually he probably would have, though at the moment that was not the case. Though it was hard not to notice her as a woman, she clearly was doing her best to make sure that he understood that. She would have to come to terms with his lack of lust, it was just part of who he was.

She soon began to tell him things that she might need, in truth none of it sounded unreasonable, well the drums set was but the other items he had no problem with , they keep her happy which would work well for him, he didn’t know how much more comforting he could do for her after all.

“I see….none of that should be a problem…though you are right about the drums…I’m not sure I am ready for that” he said taking another bite of his food. “We’re also going to have to get you a phone of some type” he said mentioning one of the other items she would need, after all if she was going to live with him she’d have to be able to stay in contact with him.

Eating a bit more he then leaned back a bit in his chair and looked over to her.

“So what kind of books are you into anyway…didn’t picture you as much of a reader”

[Siege]

“I see….none of that should be a problem…though you are right about the drums…I’m not sure I am ready for that”
“We’re also going to have to get you a phone of some type”

She figured the drums would be a no go. Afterall, he hated that she was so noisy, but she adored drums. Perhaps one day he would let her have a set. She knew that she was going to have to respect some of his wishes while she lived under his roof. It really was like having a father.

"Yeah a phone would be cool, one of those tiny numbers but with the key board. That would be sweet."

Another bite of her pancakes entered her pale lips and into her mouth. She smiled at him though, it was nice to actually have someone to talk to over the course of the day.

“So what kind of books are you into anyway…didn’t picture you as much of a reader”

Siege rolled her eyes and pursed her lips.

"Why because I'm loud and have metal in my face?"

She couldn't help it, why was it that people think just because you've got a bit of style you obviously can't be academic."

She went back to eating. She was going to answer but she wanted to let that sink in for a moment. She didn't judge him just becasue he had shitty style and yet here he was deciding that she didn't like to read just because she wasn't dressed in a suit. Swallowing her next bite she tilted her head to the side.

"History, non fiction, sci fi, fantasy, things like that. I really try not to limit myself and keep an open mind about things and the world around me."

"What about you?" she asked taking the last bite of her pancake and watched him with her soft grey eyes.

[Josiah]

The touchy little thing snapped at him slightly and he just sighed lightly, it wasn’t the metal in the face more so the fact she liked to drink and party, he figured reading wasn’t exactly something that would fit into her schedule but apparently he was wrong. But still even though he had pissed her off apparently she answered his question sure enough as he figured she would before tossing it back to himself.

“I’m not much for reading…never had the time to really take it up as a hobby” He said putting down his fork. He had actually very little schooling, he had stopped going when he was ten and had not seen the inside of one till just weeks ago. Everything he knew was self taught or was taught to him by those he had worked for, most of his reading consisted of manuals and handbooks, only a small amount of it was actually history or other subjects one would take in school. All but chemistry and math, those were two things that had been drilled into him.

“I’m sure you probably pegged me for a book worm” He said his tone an almost sarcastic humor as he reached over and took her empty plate and his own ready to clean up he stood and brought the dishes to the sink to give them a little rinse before popping them and the skillets he had used into the dishwasher.

“I hope you know the way to the mall from here….honestly I can’t say I have stepped foot in there yet myself “ he said looking over to her

[Siege]

“I’m sure you probably pegged me for a book worm”

It was true, though she would never admit it. So what did he do then? He didn't play anything but the violin, he said he wasn't much for TV, and so, what did he do when he wasn't at school. She lips pursed but she said nothing about the fact and thought about it for a moment. She had no idea what he did to pass his time but that was fine, if he just sat around and stared into space she figured that she would find out soon enough.

“I hope you know the way to the mall from here….honestly I can’t say I have stepped foot in there yet myself “

"I know where it is, I currently work there."

Unfortunatly. That was gonna end up being a problem, she couldn't get to and from work now. If she lived all the way out here, she waas gonna have to find a better and closer job somehow. Because the mall wasn't something she could easily walk to now. But that was a thought for another time, though she might drop in and tell them that she quit while they were there today. But it depended on the trip. Standing up she moved into the kitchen and as he washed she dried the dishes and figured out where they went putting them away.

"So anything we're getting you while we're out?" she asked curiously as she helped him in the kitchen.

[Josiah]

So that was were she worked, it was surprising slightly, he did not think she had the tolerance to work in such a place, to many annoying people gathered in one spot for his taste, but there was no denying the convinence of having all those stores in one area. “Hmmm, Well I know its only about 15 minutes away by car, until we can find you something closer, or manage to get you a license I’ll just have to drive you for a while” Josiah said to her. It was a small annoyance but the fact was if she had a job the allowed her to afford her rent before it could not have been that bad, if she was able to save up and give herself a cushion of sorts he had a feeling she would feel a bit better about herself.

She asked him if he was getting anything. “No I have all the clothes and items I need at the moment…though on the way back we’ll probably be making a trip to the liquor store” His dependence on the substance was disturbing as she was probably finding out.

The water turned off and he dried his hands with a dish towel before folding it and placing it to the side.

“Come on we should probably get going” He said to her looking to avoid the crowds that would likely form as the day continued

[Siege]

“Hmmm, Well I know its only about 15 minutes away by car, until we can find you something closer, or manage to get you a license I’ll just have to drive you for a while”

Siege smiled. While she appreciated the offer, she wasn't sure that she would need it, she wanted to find something closer, though the thought of having someone in the parking lot when she finished her job, was nice. The thought of not having to walk all the way home through the rough neighborhoods and trying to be as inconspicuous as possible.

"Well I'm gonna try to find something closer, and save up for a car." she admitted honestly.

They finished up the few dishes that they hd left and she put them all away before they both dried their hands and Josiah hung the towel on the little towel rack by the stove. It was not shocking to her that he did not need anything she had a feeling he was not the kind that bought things frivilously, but instead, would only by things that he absolutely needed, which apparently was nothing at the moment.

“Come on we should probably get going”

Siege only nodded, and walked out following him down the stairs outside and around the back where there was a driveway and a nice care sitting in the drive way. The girl let out a long low whistle and grinned shaking her head. The boy really did have money though he didn't seem to enjoy talking about where he had gotten it from. Once inside she buckled up, and waited for him. As they drove she would give him the directions so that he would know where to go.

"I have a feeling you don't shop at the mall." she mused as they got closer.

[Josiah]

She let out a little whistle as she saw his car once more, it was true he had money, most of it in savings and checking accounts which had been split between several banks. It was all what he had to show for living the way he did and doing the things he had, he just wasn’t much for spending it though and living the way many thought he had earned the right to.

They soon began driving him following her directions driving at a moderate speed, he was just happy that she was no hurting his ears with the radio like last time.

She made a comment about him and his shopping and he nodded slightly. “You’d be right in that…I do my best to avoid such places…I do most of my shopping online…I think the closest thing to a mall I’ve been into is a Sym’s or Men’s warehouse… and that just because I can always find my style in those two places” he admitted

“So what exactly do you do in the mall anyway….don’t get offended but the word hot topic pops into mind” He said honestly “Maybe a music store of some type”

[Siege]

“You’d be right in that…I do my best to avoid such places…I do most of my shopping online…I think the closest thing to a mall I’ve been into is a Sym’s or Men’s warehouse… and that just because I can always find my style in those two places”

Siege couldln't help but chuckle and shake her head again. Leaning to the side, she put her elbow up on the arm rest and let her hand cradle her cheek as she looked out the window.

"So, if I asked nicely, could I get you in a pair of jeans and a tshirt, once?" she asked curiously. "I mean, it couldln't hurt to try them and to be frank I think you'd look fucking hot if you wore them, you have a nice ass."

She had a feeling he would say no, and be the same fuddy duddy that he had been since she met him. But he could surprise her; he did from time to time. A small smile crossed her lips as she continued to watch the city pass them by as they drove furthr into it going towards the mall. She liked Joey. Not in a romancey way though she could see it going tat way if he continued to try as much as he was now. The talk on the beach this morning had been great, and she felt much closer to him now than before.

“So what exactly do you do in the mall anyway….don’t get offended but the word hot topic pops into mind”
“Maybe a music store of some type”

Siege chuckled, why ws it that if someone had piercings and a bit of style they instantly worked in the most goth place on Earth. She smiled and brushed her bangs back from her face.

"Music store, thank you. I wasn't allowed at the book store, or any of the other stores." she pointed to the tattoo on her cheek and shrugged. It was sad that so many places discriminated her because she had a tattoo on her face, it really seemed stupid. But whatever, she wasn't about being accepted, she was merely about living her life.

"What kind of music do you listen to?" she asked him curiously as she motioned for him to take a turn coming up.