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Post by Mathew Amtrum on Mar 25, 2018 18:33:15 GMT -8
"All the more reason to seek balance. Would you not say?"
He would offer no help as she rose and situated herself. He was not going to treat her like she was made of glass. She would need the hardship to succeed. She needed to feel her handicap, her weakness. She needed to accept it and be one with it. Only then could she overcome it and turn it into a new strength. She would never surmount it if people assisted her and never let her stand on her own leg.
"That is up to you. For me I like to focus myself into a black void with no sound or sights. No senses at all. Once I have reached my quite place I try to bring the energy inside of me forth, like the shining of the sun to illuminate the darkness of my world. But it is a personal thing, your place and manifestation may be different. Something that works for you. Just try to reach a state of absorption. Where you are more aware of yourself than the world around you."
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Post by Avice Locke on Mar 25, 2018 19:13:20 GMT -8
"Hmm, not quite making a circle out of your fingers and Oohm-ing." She mocked once more and decided with that she'd set jokes aside. She scratched the scalp beneath her curls thinking about it. "My quiet place, Aye?"
She'd think of quiet places that have helped her get to sleep. Actually, the best sleep she probably could name was a train she hitched a ride on. Somehow the repetitive tracks and watching the scenery go by was hypnotic. It is not really quiet but she had an idea that it might work. He spoke about searching for something... absorbing something? Reaching a better awareness of herself. It hardly made much sense to her but she was going to try it by first getting to a "quiet place."
She closed her eyes as if that was something you were supposed to do and breathed somewhat exhaling the frustration of having to do this but through closed eyes, she imagined she was staring out a window that was moving leaving all the scenery it passed to come and go. These moments she'd have thoughts go by in her mind and memories she's made go through her thoughts. It was probably on the road that she really processed everything that would happen to her.
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Post by Mathew Amtrum on Mar 27, 2018 13:27:29 GMT -8
He would slowly pace around the tree and the woman as she tried to reach her center. It was a process for most people. He had been unable to do it when he first tried as well. It had taken him time, but he'd been imprisoned more than once. He had plenty of time for reflection over the years.
"Keep breathing. Slow and steady, we are not on a time limit."
He'd drone on slowly, trying to guide and encourage her without saying to much where he would overwhelm her.
"Find the place that is natural to you, and then reach inward. You have power inside of you, simply seek it out. Be aware of it."
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Post by Avice Locke on Mar 27, 2018 16:45:47 GMT -8
"Aye, aye..." she exhaled.
Avice was impatient and distracted easily, her way of life was one that would call for her to be aware of everything around her and to act quickly when something came up as a surprise. The most she stood still was to sleep... But she rode this train. Her fingers and toes started to feel distant and breathing felt easy. She closed in on her heartbeat feeling it pulse through her body and made it mimick the clacking of a train over tracks. She no longer heard and hardly felt her own breathing. She heard Eric talk but that seemed distant as well.
She wanted to ask him questions but did not what to move herself. Questions in her mind wondering how she'd know when she found it? How it felt to be "aware of it." Avice did not want to move because she was starting to feel less aware of her physical body. It was like letting go of it.
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Post by Mathew Amtrum on Mar 28, 2018 16:45:32 GMT -8
"Take your time."
He would say, letting her know that it was okay to take a while, that he didn't expect her to have instant results. Not yet anyway. The time for that attitude would be later, right now she needed to grasp the fundamentals.
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Post by Avice Locke on Mar 28, 2018 18:12:16 GMT -8
You can't hop off the train till it reaches the station. She relaxed with that logic trying to ride it out. She bought her ticket and agreed to this not like she was not supposed to be here. Despite the multiple times, she did hop on trains illegally, and legally for that matter. She just needs to do herself a favor and make sure she wasn't going to miss her stop.
Awake, aware, and feeling her blood flow. Blood flow? Hard to say if it was really blood flow she felt It was not quite a pressure in her fingertips feeling it cycle about her body alongside her blood flow. It called for something, as it was whispy and practically starved. It was fast and erratic. She'd feel familiar with it until it seemed to notice Avice poking about. The sudden rush of breath and the skip of her heart beating out of her chest it was as if she was pushed over the edge of a cliff. She gasped for air and choked on it. Leaning forward and coughed to get out what salavation she inhaled in her lungs.
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Post by Mathew Amtrum on Mar 28, 2018 18:16:49 GMT -8
He noticed the change in her breathing and more to the point her gasping and coughing. He suspected that meant she had found something. Probably lost it with the gasping and choking. But if she had found it, then she had a knack for this. And that meant that he might be able to give her a bit of a push.
"Relax. Breathe."
He spoke curtly, they were directions, not suggestions. He'd slowly continue his pacing around her until he was to her back. This time, however, he would place a hand on her shoulder. Grasping his own Qi energy and pushing it into his hand that was touching her. The idea was to press the unformed energy against her body to give her a jolt. Something to feel for herself.
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Post by Zack Asiv on Mar 28, 2018 18:23:09 GMT -8
Avice can feel the energy helping.
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Post by Avice Locke on Mar 28, 2018 18:45:10 GMT -8
She wiped her mouth and returned that hand to support her hunkered over form. Feeling his hand on her back as she returned to breathing caused her to jump a bit as she was slightly flustered with her heart beating slowly returning to normal with her breath. She felt it pulse without moving his hand it was like her back received an echoing pap sending a wave of energy to echo in her.
"What are you doing?" She didn't move she held her eyes forward. She'd not stop him more focused on getting her body to return to a normal and relaxed state.
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Post by Mathew Amtrum on Mar 28, 2018 18:49:57 GMT -8
"I am resonating my Qi energy with your latent energy. By pulsing my power in an unfocused and unmanifested form you may be able to feel your own power resonating back. Like an echo."
He would send another pulse of his energy into her body, unfocused so it would disperse after an instant. But the intent was to help her feel her own energy stirring inside. Echoing and repeating his own surge.
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Post by Avice Locke on Mar 28, 2018 19:46:55 GMT -8
"Ugh..." She felt sick and a feeling stirred within her she didn't have to look for it with him basically putting a spotlight on her Qi. She felt her Qi take it practically ask for it.
She breathed and tried to shove the discomfort aside. Letting him pulse his Qi through her she tried to hear the echo as if it was a radar. It didn't seem difficult but she'd keep breathing and keep trying to relax and get back on track. She didn't think to ask what she would need to do if she were to reach it. But she felt close. It was not a blood pulse, it was not a heartbeat despite logically that would be what it felt like. She held imagined it in her chest as if it rested in her core. She breathed as if it opened a window for it to come out of it's box. A box she made for it after years of closing herself off. Opening it was not easy to do, she was growing weary of what would happen should she let it run amok and how it would change her.
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Post by Mathew Amtrum on Mar 28, 2018 20:10:59 GMT -8
He sent a final pulse of energy into her before he withdrew his hand from her. He was trying to guide her to it for her first time. But he couldn't force her to grab it. IF he could this whole situation would be far simpler. But then, he'd likely be working with Prota then. Something that he was not interested in at the moment.
"Breathe and grasp it. Do not worry about forming it yet, simply accustom yourself to the feeling of it. You won't always have me here to guide you to it."
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Post by Avice Locke on Mar 28, 2018 21:16:07 GMT -8
So all she needed to accomplish at the moment was finding it. Well, that can me checked off. Holding it is something else. Avice found that the Qi inside her seemed to feel like smoke. It hardly could be described as having a shape and could hardly be seen as a form. Grasping it and holding it proved difficult. He wanted her to practice that part of it supposing she'd be able to do so.
Honestly, she couldn't tell if this was easy or hard to do. She wondered why she refused to accomplish it before. But she began to recall feeling this while she lies dreaming many nights since it's awakening.
It came to her in sleep when she was not looking for it or any form of distraction. Her body would be resting and it would have the freedom to roam her every fiber. Maybe she needed to give it just that. Avice was not an idiot she was just inexperienced and thought she already knew the way of her world. Opening these new doors was a step to her that would lead a through a lot of horrifying thoughts. Suppose she is here now willing to take those risks.
She tried not to grab it and not to hold it. She disliked being restrained so why would she expect her Qi to do it? She let it roam... Roam as free as she wished she'd be. Traveling by foot, by car, by train or whatever. She hadn't but just at this moment, his hand was not on her any longer. She had lost herself in the process again.
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Post by Mathew Amtrum on Mar 30, 2018 18:01:25 GMT -8
For the moment Eric would remain silent, letting her feel out what she could. Letting her explore herself. It was an important step, to know herself and only then could she truly move forward.
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Post by Avice Locke on Mar 30, 2018 19:52:26 GMT -8
It was as if she felt the wind passing through her fingers. Did it smell salty? She was calmed feeling the cool sea breeze and imagining the oceans that she grew up by. She looked out over the waters and wondered what was out in the world. She most certainly crossed that sea and crossed land for that matter. One thing happens when you run out of land though... you meet the sea.
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